#remorseful
A villain I made you out to be
But the truth is what I failed to see
Rather hear 'cause repeatedly you didn't fail to say
But I guess I didn't want to see it that way
I played a part in your unjust blame,
Now remorse holds me, drowning me in shame
A human you are—not demon nor saint,
Not a battle to win, so I yield in restraint
Open my eyes, I shall finally do
I'm tired of lies that I disguised as you
I can silence my cries and let go of you
Finally my eyes are open, now I can say goodbye to you
Feb 19, 2025
Feb 19, 2025 at 2:37 AM UTC
If I could give it all, I did
I gave away a privileged life, one could dream to live
At the time, I didn't think I had much
My mistake and all my glory was crushed
My perspective was crooked
All were in awe of my life, yet I overlooked it
I thought of my life like a house of glass
Too fragile and meek, so over-class
Ironically, that was an understatement
My life, a house of gold to be completely blatant
Yet still I took my life with no value
The gold was my ashtray I spew
Now my life, a burnt down house, scarce of abundance
A daily reminder of my descendance
Into a void; hell
Hopeless on whether I'll live to have a story to tell
Of how life gave me something
And how quickly I gave life reason to make me nothing
Sep 18, 2024
Sep 18, 2024 at 2:50 AM UTC
I know I am unworthy & undeserving,
Beneath you, love;
And yet, with shame,
I feel the same as I have always
This heart - of yours.
It is kindred, and full of lust.
Hopelessly infatuated,
Though I know we were all wrong.
I can't help it,
And I assure you it isn't obsession
For I have known that,
This is not it.
Just painfully unrequited,
For all my faults.
Aug 4, 2024
Aug 4, 2024 at 7:29 PM UTC
I spent another evening
In one corner of
My mind...
My conscience is
Left bleeding,
And I don't know what I'll find...
My future hangs in balance,
I'm too nervous
To sleep,
But still I keep my chalice,
I fill it and
I drink...
The courthouse is
A palace,
Of justice and of
Peace,
But when I walk inside it
I shake from head
To feet...
I beg the gods I
Don't believe
To grant me just
Some peace...
Please let me enter
Into hell
And walk out
On two feet...
Oh, let me enter into hell
And walk out
On two feet...
Aug 14, 2023
Aug 14, 2023 at 2:56 AM UTC
*
*Days upon months and
months upon years
I keep to false smiles while on
the palms of sadness
Bathing in remorse,
I wish to be cleansed
and raise with integrity,
climb with dedication
and smile with compassion*
*
Jul 5, 2020
Jul 5, 2020 at 11:30 AM UTC
But it feels like forever.
From strangers to friends
To friends to strangers
You're both the reason
For my tears and laughter
One thing will never change
I will love you forever.
Jul 28, 2015
Jul 28, 2015 at 9:49 AM UTC