#rejectionsensitivedysphoria

I have to make myself empty; starve myself away. I have to exist less, I can't stand my existence. I'm taking up too much space. I cut myself to fit, small enough for your shadow. Make myself scarce before you can give me the slip. So there's less of me to give and less of me to take. How small should I make myself so that I'm not too much.

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Apr 16, 2019

Apr 16, 2019 at 10:21 AM UTC

isobel-g

Dispossessed

I have to make myself empty; starve myself away. I have to exist less, I can't stand my existence. I'm taking up too much space. I cut myself to fit, small enough for your shadow. Make myself scarce before you can give me the slip. So there's less of me to give and less of me to take. How small should I make myself so that I'm not too much.

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I live my life on an island, and my world is small. I stand for hours on my shore, waiting for the plates of the earth to shift beneath me; to carry me across the oceans to continents that I will never reach on my own.

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Apr 9, 2019

Apr 9, 2019 at 9:26 PM UTC

isobel-g

Aeaea

I live my life on an island, and my world is small. I stand for hours on my shore, waiting for the plates of the earth to shift beneath me; to carry me across the oceans to continents that I will never reach on my own.

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I want to take apart my skin when the sun is too bright and the world is too full of people who will never know me. I want to open the rivers inside my wrists and empty them; to pour myself away the way I pour whisky into my empty stomach, and my hypothermic limbs into stranger's beds.

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Apr 9, 2019

Apr 9, 2019 at 10:01 PM UTC

isobel-g

Liquid State

I want to take apart my skin when the sun is too bright and the world is too full of people who will never know me. I want to open the rivers inside my wrists and empty them; to pour myself away the way I pour whisky into my empty stomach, and my hypothermic limbs into stranger's beds.

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I loved you in the timeless hours of a dark city. In the morning, who you were had been replaced; the people that we were together no longer there. All the memories erased, so you could love somebody new. But the shadow of you still lingers incompletely; wandering through my slideshow memories like the glimpse of your eyes fleeting round the carousel. A flash under the cinema lights, over before it began. Now I'm on someone else's mind but I'm still under you in mine.

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Apr 9, 2019

Apr 9, 2019 at 9:12 PM UTC

isobel-g

Dark City

I loved you in the timeless hours of a dark city. In the morning, who you were had been replaced; the people that we were together no longer there. All the memories erased, so you could love somebody new. But the shadow of you still lingers incompletely; wandering through my slideshow memories like the glimpse of your eyes fleeting round the carousel. A flash under the cinema lights, over before it began. Now I'm on someone else's mind but I'm still under you in mine.

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