#recoverypoetry
The vices coiled like serpents in my veins,
Their venom sweet—a nectar laced with night,
They whispered lies through pleasure’s slick remains,
And drowned my dawn in shadows without light.
I wore their chains, a crown of thorns disguised,
Each link a lie I’d polished till it shone—
The bottle’s kiss, the gamble’s fevered prize,
The screens that stole the stars I gazed upon.
Then came the day the tempest lost its roar:
A stillness fell, like rain on desert sand.
Some grace slipped through a long-barred, rusted door,
And took the shattered pieces in its hand.
It wasn’t fire. No lightning split the sky—
Just sunlight, soft, on wounds I thought would bleed,
A quiet voice that asked me, "Why still try
To plant dead seeds for every hungry need?"
The cravings hissed, but now their fangs were dull;
Their scales fell off like leaves in autumn’s chill.
I felt my lungs breathe clean, my skull grow full
Of space where peace could build its sacred hill.
My hands, once claws that scraped for more, more, more,
Now held a cup where clarity could bloom.
The war within still echoes, but the core
Is rooted deep where light dispels the gloom.
I am not fixed—just mending, stitch by stitch,
A tapestry where frailty meets the sun.
The vices? Ghosts that haunt a distant ditch.
Today, I choose the battle not begun.
Apr 1
Apr 1, 2026 at 3:16 AM UTC
tricked myself
into believing
i was okay.
took another path,
veered off course—
now my
neuropathways
are backfiring.
forcing myself
to keep my head high,
so i don’t slip
into the same
chaotic state
that’s way
too familiar.
it’s all
so tiring.
i’m sick
of it.
tired of
feeling comatose,
unalive,
just drifting.
with tired
eyes.
i’m ready
for what’s next.
i need something
with weight—
with substance.
with meaning.
i’m done
keeping my
head down.
i’m done
drowning.
it’s my time.
this isn’t
my ending.
this is the
beginning
of an era
they thought
was lost.
i’m reclaiming
what’s mine—
i’m ready
for
what’s next.
because nothing
will hold me down
anymore.
Jul 29, 2025
Jul 29, 2025 at 2:51 AM UTC