#reconcile
the mere out loud sound of this phrase
in my mind
boggles me wholly,
I understand it fully
spend all the day attempting to reconcile
the ex~ and the in~
ternalities,
with horrors the world sheds,
layers like a thickening flour,
the process is interminable,
the poignancy overwhelms,
and comes the realization this is my
go to, resting state;
“*keenly felt sense of emotion, especially of
bittersweet sadness or regret.*”
*and here I confront myself,
head to brain,
heart to hands,
all senses to red alert status,
this is me,
there is no reconciliation needed or desired,
this is the provocation of my being,
the incantation, the excitation,
that makes one peer deeper than the skin,
where the invisible elements of my private atomic chart
collide,
forcing me to write, to sigh, to silent cry,
to joke to relieve the smoke inhaled
from living in these awful days
when drones target children to be murdered
and the world’s attention span is
a tik tok minute long,
so ****** **** and torture are overlooked from
ennui*
I refuse to be accustomed,
to giving in to giving up,
governments delighting in starving children,
things that are beyond belief
to be coming a hostage to indifference
and when they offer reconciliation,
my refutation
is here,
is this, is me
is my
history,
and reconciliation
a word outed, an emigre,
no longer in
my vocabulary
I write this in a public place,
and people watch my eyes watering,
but not to be tissue~erased,
(my sleeve is handy)
these tears cannot be refused,
and are not for
a keepsake
Nov 11, 2025
Nov 11, 2025 at 12:43 PM UTC
You both said to me
In a broken voice
When it wasn't your choice
When you didn't feel
Like you
You both said
Like lead
It'll never be what it was
And i agreed
I know
I understand
It's life
Not a master plan
But what does that mean?
In full
It'll never be what it was?
What does it mean to you
Or her
Or me?
What was it?
And what is it now?
Too broken
To sit down?
To broken
To listen to the sound
Was it trust?
And friendship
And youth
And adventure?
Now it's
Something else entirely
supposedly
Different all together
Broken pieces healing
Trying to keep seeling
The cracks and bruises
With no more excuses
All of us
Adults
Less hope
Less time
Less adventures
To rhyme
But I'll tell you what
Maybe it'll never be what it was
Not fully
Bur yesterday night
Sitting in bed
Laughing with you both
Til daylight
Making up jokes
Goofing around
Nothing but our own sound
Magic blossomed
Adventure bloomed
Naive youth
Was in that room
That was me
And that was you
That was us three
Like we used to do
So maybe never fully
But some nights
We can remember
Reconcile
Go back
Time travel
And relax
Because it'll never be truly gone
Between us crazy
Three
It's too strong
Oct 19, 2025
Oct 19, 2025 at 4:45 PM UTC
May this lifetime be enough for reconciliation.
Jan 12, 2025
Jan 12, 2025 at 9:04 AM UTC
how
do i
reconcile
with the thought of you
when it means
my unbecoming?
nothing is left
of this girl
once
you are unclothed
from her skin.
Dec 21, 2024
Dec 21, 2024 at 9:48 AM UTC
My grey blue eyes look for something
to grasp onto in the torrent of my emotions, but I need not look any deeper
than my love for you.
Although, I have despised you,
when you berated my name
under your breathe more than once
but I still found myself loving you again.
Your mindless antics threw me to the wind
when our love was a double-edged sword,
mingling our vigour and passion
as bitter words were spat and scored.
This burning strength of mine
was once a weapon yielded tightly
as my heart beat faster, and my thoughts were once a force to be seldom reckoned with.
Yet, when infuriated I found peace quickly,
and I finally understand why at times
I fought so hard for you,
and why I chose to make a stand.
I did not want to hurt you but,
I longed for you to see
that I wanted you to love yourself
as much as you loved me.
I did not want to hurl my words
and create a storm across an ocean,
but instead to love you as deeply
as the tides of my emotions.
©️Lizzie Bevis
Oct 10, 2024
Oct 10, 2024 at 8:04 PM UTC
I got the message today, the finality is alarming
How all veils have been removed, as its regarding
Or would be love story, If I could be the One
Who takes you to see the moon and not get boiled by the sun
I shiver, I cry, I hope you didn't take to heart
The anger I spewed and the hope it doesnt break us apart
I came like a volcano, and you a Tsunami
Only now does it dawn for me how you're so far from me
I said thing to instill a reaction
But instead of satisfaction
I get the realization that this extended vacation
will be our dedication to what was and will never be
A girl and a boy manage to become best friend
But boy falls in love and girl follows suite
Unknowing they'd be each others rock, person
Now one stands firm and the other uncertain
Does it end tonight, do angered words repel honeyed apologies?
Can love conquer all and fulfill their destiny?
Do they become ones Soul mates to now polar opposites
Or day even more distant, now used to be's and Pessimists?
Jun 1, 2024
Jun 1, 2024 at 11:50 AM UTC
~
*Waiting for the reassemblage
One light will do
Bright things come to confusion
What pushed us together?
The love underneath conflict's thumb?
Winter kept us warm
Her face soft as sleep
With wakened eyes
With wakened hands
You quiet me
On these nightingale floors
In small explosions
that are yours to keep
I can’t remember how
we made love, but I remember
the colors we made together
It is in the shelter
Of each other that we live*
~
Jan 16, 2024
Jan 16, 2024 at 10:55 AM UTC
Stage lights and the shimmer of red sequin
He read her like a book
And his teeth kept on shining,
he's been there before
She’s singin’,
“In Heaven
Everything is fine
In Heaven
Everything is fine
You got your good thing
And I've got mine
Everything is fine”
It’s enamoring, he thinks to himself,
“You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off of you
You'd be like Heaven to touch
I wanna hold you so much
At long last, love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off of you
Pardon the way that I stare
There's nothin' else to compare
The sight of you leaves me weak
There are no words left to speak
But if you feel like I feel
Please let me know that it's real
Wise men say
"Only fools rush in"
But I can't help falling in love with you”
She’s looking back,
Fading as she sings and thinking,
“Will you hold me sacred? Will you hold me tight?
Can you colorize my life, I'm so sick of black and white?
Can you make it all a little less old?”
The song ends and she slips
into the bar-side
of his hunting grounds,
he feels ignored,
so he walks over
“Oh, What is love?
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
Baby, don't hurt me
No more
Can you tell me,
What is love?”
Maybe it's too much so she bows out
“ok, can you make me some magic with your own two hands?
Can you build an emerald city with these grains of sand?
Can you give me something I can take home?”
“No,” he’s disappointed,
“I don't know why you're not fair
I give you my love, but you don't care
So what is right and what is wrong?
Gimme a sign”
She asks, ”What is love?
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
No more
can you cater to every fantasy I got?
can you hose me down with holy water, if I get too hot?
can you take me places I've never known?
What is love?
Oh baby, don't hurt me
Don't hurt me
No more.”
He responds slowly,
Soon hurrying his words,
“Oh, I don't know, what can I do?
What else can I say? It's up to you
I know we're one, just me and you.
I can't go on.”
She scoffs,
“I know the territory, I've been around
It'll all turn to dust and we'll all fall down
Sooner or later you'll be ******** around”
“look,” he says, “I love you, baby
And if it's quite alright
I need you, baby
To warm the lonely night
I love you, baby
Trust in me when I say
Oh, pretty baby
Don't bring me down, I pray
Oh, pretty baby
Now that I've found you, stay
And let me love you, baby
Let me love you”
Some time passes
Some days it don't come easy
Some days it don't come hard
Some days it don't come at all
And these are the days that never end
Some nights she’s breathing fire
Some nights he’s carved in ice
Some nights she’s like nothing he’s ever seen before
or will again
Maybe I'm crazy, but it's crazy and it's true
I know she can save him, no-one else can save him now but her
As long as the wheels are turning
As long as the bays are burning
As long as her dreams are coming true
She’d better believe it
he would do anything for love
he knows it's true and that's a fact
he would do anything for love
And there'll never be no turning back
I know now though
Nothing lasts forever
And even time will pass
She’s gone to the winds
Of seasonal doubt,
He’s in a mood
and already out,
she pleads as he packs
“stay!”
and he says back to her,
“Shall I stay, would it be a sin?
If I can't help falling in love with you. no,
Sometimes I feel I've got to run away
I've got to get away
From the pain you drive into the heart of me
The love we share seems to go nowhere
And I've lost my life
For I toss and turn, I can't sleep at night
Once I ran to you
Now I run from you
This tainted love you've given
I give you all a boy could give you
Take my tears and that's not nearly all.”
“but…”
she puts her hand on his shoulder
He recoils,
“Don't touch me please, I cannot stand the way you tease
I love you though you hurt me so
Now I'm gonna pack my things and go
If I should stay
Well I would only be in your way
and yet I know
I'll think of you each step of the way”
She’s there crying on the kitchen floor,
Left to live her life,
Many weeks slipped by her mood
Passing through the avenues
She meets her man
Before either found anyone new.
So they take a hike
And at the peak she starts talking,
“At first I was afraid, I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong
And I learned how to get along
And so you're back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock,
I should have made you leave your key
If I'd known for just one second you'd be back to bother me.”
He opens up a little,
“No matter how hard I try
You keep pushing me aside
And I can't break through
There's no talking to you
It's so sad that you're leaving me behind
It takes time to believe it
But after all is said and done
You might be the lonely one.”
She says “Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
I really don't think you're strong enough, no
Do you believe in life after love?”
He says, “I believe in a thing called love
Just listen to the rhythm of my heart
There's a chance we could make it now
We'll be rocking 'til the sun goes down
I believe in a thing called love
Give a little bit
Oh, give a little bit of your love to me
I'll give a little bit
I'll give a little bit of my love to you
There's so much that we need to share
So send a smile and show you care
See the man with the lonely eyes
Oh, take his hand, you'll be surprised
Like the river flows
Surely to the sea
Darling, so we go
Some things were meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
'Cause I can't help falling in love with you”
She melts just enough to say,
“Just a little bit of love,
that is all we need for the second day.
Is it hard to be a friend,
for a little while in a simple way?
Just a little bit of love
and a friendly face makes the world look bright.
And a shining star above
will help you through the darkest night.
When you feel down,
don't sit and cry the whole day through.
Don't wonder why
it all must happen to you.
Put on your coat, come over.
No, it can't be that bad.
Put on a smile, don't look so sad.”
Then she asks, “Will you hold me sacred?
Will you hold me tight?
Can you colorize my life,
I'm so sick of black and white?
Can you make it all a little less old?”
“yes, I can do that
Oh I can do that” he answers
She continues,
“Will you make me some magic with your own two hands?
Can you build an emerald city with these grains of sand?
Can you give me something I can take home?”
He says, “I can do that”
Finally she asks,
“Will you cater to every fantasy I got?
Will you hose me down with holy water, if I get too hot?
Will you take me places I've never known?”
“I can do that
Oh, I can do that.” he finally answers
She can’t believe it,
“After a while you'll forget everything
It was a brief interlude and a midsummer night's fling
And you'll see that it's time to move on”
He holds on,
“No, I won't do that
I won't do that”
She finishes,
“I know the territory, I've been around
It'll all turn to dust and we'll all fall down
Sooner or later you'll be ******** around.”
Waiting for a reply…
He answers slowly,
Pacing himself,
Like it’s a race til death do us part,
“I won't do that
Anything for love
Oh, I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
But I won't do that
No, I won't do that.”
Aug 6, 2022
Aug 6, 2022 at 7:51 PM UTC
Sad to see it go
The way you don't want it to.
We stay on the go.
Apr 28, 2021
Apr 28, 2021 at 4:29 PM UTC
If we were to be God, how would we feel
To provide the ones who curse you with a meal
To endlessly persuade your creature to turn a new
But even if they do, they'll still hurt and depart you
If I were to be God, I would be heartbroken
Because I can't condole humans leaving me hurting
To always believe their false promises to change
And when asked to redeem it, they'll be looking at me strange
God does his best to make us happy
He gives us back our conscience and leads us to recovery
Just so we acknowledge his presence
So well call on him whenever we experience tense
All He ask is for us to have other in mind in whatever me do
He doesn't care about your religion so long your faith is true.
We tell God we'll change a million times but never do it
Apologies don't mean a thing if you don't ever fix it
Dec 18, 2020
Dec 18, 2020 at 11:56 PM UTC
The demons are after me,
Endeavouring to dwindle all my super powers
Enshrined in my soul.
But I,
I reconcile fragmented pinions
Powered with world of words, dreams,love and hope,
Now no malign souls,
Aren't after me,
As I have turned myself into a fire,
My pinions into a universe,
And my soul,
A rebel.
Nov 25, 2020
Nov 25, 2020 at 1:18 PM UTC
My heart is broken
Without you.
Soul is void,
With you.
And I reconcile,
Heal and arise,
Within you.
Nov 23, 2020
Nov 23, 2020 at 1:47 PM UTC
numbers & figures are
nothing more than a flicker
of the winter chimney's smoky snicker;
fleeting as the sad beggar's liquor &
grandmother's empty wicker
chair, rocking with the gentle gale
breezing past rootless weeds
to settle on the frozen well —
Farewell, numbers & figures.
Oct 22, 2020
Oct 22, 2020 at 5:24 AM UTC
Truth is found when one can
Reconcile the irreconcilable
That’s why it’s so elusive
And Illusive
Because you can’t,not completely,
At least not humanity,
Paradoxes obscure, but also vindicate,
The all
And everything.
And creation is a scientist
And we are its Petri dish,
And creation is a mystic,
And we are its parish.
May 17, 2020
May 17, 2020 at 10:13 PM UTC
Hold not my sins against me,
For I am only human:
Scarred, broken, fallen.
Give me grace, and you'll have my faith;
I forgive and love you all the same.
Til next we meet, I pray instead of enmity,
It'll be in a sweet embrace.
But for all the tension I've caused--
I'm sorry for my mistakes.
Nov 14, 2019
Nov 14, 2019 at 12:08 PM UTC
Everything happens for a reason,
one of the important lesson I learnt with the change in season
and people.
Some moments hurt, scar and engrave
an important lesson.
Protecting you from future treason
Making you deal with it even better.
Some moments exhilarate happiness and positivity
Fueling you with love and treasuring the memories.
Some people come as blessings
Building homes in our hearts;
Helping us sail turbulent waves;
Acting as starlights in our dark sky.
While some leave us lessons
Vacating their homes in our hearts.
Twist is some, come back
and some only stay a flashback.
Some are are sent for exile
and some come back to reconcile.
People come and go.
Some drawing a smile on our face;
creating a beautiful and positive impact.
But leave for certain reasons,
To those people I am thankful,
to have had my paths cross with them.
And grateful to the ones who’s chaos and storms,
I survived and bloomed from.
Not forgetting about the ones who stayed
even when some left,
Appreciating them for still standing by my side till the very end.
Jul 24, 2019
Jul 24, 2019 at 11:02 AM UTC
release our tensions
and dispel of this worry
after all that we've been through
your words and my words
my hurt and your guilt
to reconcile our hands
and disprove every doubt
i lend you my hand
joyful and beautiful and miserable man
you're confused and i'm tired
i'm confused and you're tired
however many times it comes back
to you, to me
let's try this again
Mar 12, 2019
Mar 12, 2019 at 6:05 PM UTC
What do I do
To make you cry
What do I do
To make you feel like you should die
How did I
Make you meet your demise
I'm the one who has to pick up the pieces
I'm the one who has to carry you around
But now
I'm the one who gets stomped into the ground?
I sit here
Day by day
Doing nothing wrong
In my chair is where I stay
But here's all the flashing lights and sirens
Bells and whistles here and there
From the ocean up to the highlands
A spotlight with such a glare
And I ask myself
What did I do
To make you cry
And does that mean
That I deserve to die?
Nov 4, 2018
Nov 4, 2018 at 6:58 PM UTC
Don’t forget me when I am gone,
Even though I never left.
Even though you don’t see me
Or want to.
I am still here, overwhelmed
Worried. (You don’t love me)
Ashamed. (Of what I’ve done)
Hurt. (Of what has become)
Needing. (To be understood)
Wanting. (You and all of you)
Hoping.
I am seen.
Learning to live.
Accepting it all.
Don’t forget me when I am gone,
I am right here. I’ll be back.
You’ll see me again, you’ll feel me again.
But for the moment, don’t forget me when I am gone.
It won’t be long, you’ll see.
It won’t be long.
My heart says, “I love you”
My tears say “I miss you”
And my soul says, “I don’t want to be without you”
And my brain, the logical of all, the problem causer says “I am sorry”.
Oct 23, 2018
Oct 23, 2018 at 2:52 PM UTC
Your tongue licks
Against my vertabre
We reconcile violent colors
Underneath these sheets
Here comes the breaking of day
Letting our shadows be undressed
In the lightest orange and rouge
Let's stay in and play
Let it not spoil our progressive
Repossesions of One another
I've waited too long
To sink my teeth into you
Oct 6, 2018
Oct 6, 2018 at 2:40 AM UTC
let us reconcile
in the moment,
for a moment.
the tiniest
of tensions are so
malleable to the parts of
me that know im
not worthy.
i fixate on a star
to the point that
if i stare long enough
i dont see the others
and it will dance
through a clear sky
like it could breath.
no one is ready for
my sweater. i work to
give but have yet to
pull sword from stone.
either i am not worthy
or i am not ready, but
defeat always feels
the same.
i see a real miracle
over and over.
things have never felt
so futile.
a star will crash
into the earth
and i will never
hold a sword.
Aug 11, 2018
Aug 11, 2018 at 11:58 PM UTC
Warmth
Kindness
Respect
This is what we all deserve
The path is long
Worth it
You think you've given me that
Your peacemaking
Is for yourself
To think that you've done nothing wrong
That I'm not sitting here in Tears because of you
Peace
I'm not at peace
Not with you
They respect me
They show me kindess
They give me warmth
It goes both ways
Your warmth is nothingness
Your kindness is fake
Your respect is to yourself
When will you learn?
Insecure
Unsure
Lost
Their embrace give me hope
Yours makes me cry
Not because of what happened
but how I let myself down again
How much I hate your arms wrapped around me
Get off
You make me hate everything that is you
I'd blame it on you
I do
Not fully
You blame others
You do
Fully
When will you learn?
You're not in control
They have their own way to go
As I have mine
You lost my permission to run alongside with me
In the World that is my Home
Respect
Kindness
Warmth
It should go both ways
Your ignorance isn't bliss
Oct 11, 2017
Oct 11, 2017 at 2:51 PM UTC