#realise
and there she was
holding his hand
lips on his cheek
not long ago she promised it would be me
…
and she left him
she’s out in the open;
vulnerable again
i reach
but is it right
she leans towards the fractured
she wants comfort
but she’s not ready
and she won’t be for sometime
…
and we get closer
i’m in too deep
she holds my hand but it’s not the same
it isn’t right
but i’m no saint
i’m an addict
i hold tighter
her smell wraps around my heart
it’s time to let go
she isn’t ready
she hasn’t healed
…
and she’s crying
it’s not my fault
i want to comfort her
she needs to be comforted
but not by me
Apr 14
Apr 14, 2026 at 6:16 AM UTC
the sky has long turned dark again
the silence of another dreary night
a familiar feeling
a single ache of longing
her touch has imprinted on your palms
her sweet scent lingers by your nose
but it’s not real
would it be nostalgia or grief
you don’t wish to know
you…no, i have come to terms with it
those nights of longing are gone
i had long been over her
a symbol of meaning
a ritualistic pattern
a cycle of lust and depression
but you are none
you are nothing
yet i gave you meaning
took me from myself
i’ll face my past now
you are no longer a heartbreak
i’ll forget you now
but i’ll keep you still as a reminder
Mar 2
Mar 2, 2026 at 4:42 PM UTC
all on the road home
some have wandered far away
some are resting by the way
some are forging ahead
some are completely lost
and at times I have been all these
and will be again
Jan 13
Jan 13, 2026 at 10:27 AM UTC
Every day —
I pass a hundred faces,
With eyes that flicker with stories
I’ll never get to hear.
Once in a while, travelling in the local,
Questions pop into my mind without my permission...
Do we ever realise?
The people we meet for the first time
might be our last chance to have their glance.
Strange... to wonder if they ever mattered, ever cared.
Do they know?
That this was our only meeting?
That this smile
was our first and final exchange?
We keep living,
like we have time—
like we don’t say goodbye to Strangers.
But, unfortunately,
we just never see them again.
And that’s why I’m afraid to call you a stranger.
Because, you know what?
I don’t want you
to be that stranger in my life
ever.
The one who leaves without care,
who disappears into distance...
Where are those promises, those talks, those glances?
Even if someday... we became strangers,
please be the one who might leave my heart—
but never my soul.
Aug 23, 2025
Aug 23, 2025 at 5:16 PM UTC
I hadn't realized, not in weeks or years,
My reflection silent, hiding all my fears.
The hurtful ones, the liars, the deceit,
The ones who punished others just for breathing, just for being free.
They were the ones who laughed and danced,
While I sat still, trapped in a waiting trance.
I hid in shadows, unseen, unknown,
A ghost among the living, always alone.
They played with life, free of guilt,
While I wore the weight, the silence built.
I was the punching bag, the teddy thrown aside,
The one they never needed, the one they couldn’t hide.
The loser they defined me as,
But I was more than what they saw in glass.
A heart still waiting, still unseen,
In the spaces in between.
Dec 13, 2024
Dec 13, 2024 at 11:42 PM UTC
pain and problem fall
into mind separate slow
we realize truth
Dec 26, 2021
Dec 26, 2021 at 5:34 PM UTC
The moment I ground myself and let Go,
When I become a realist and Grow
Realise it shouldn't Be...
Is the dreaded day I silence the fraction of hope found in Me.
May 1, 2021
May 1, 2021 at 8:06 PM UTC
If we were exact copies we would find the faults
that make us un-unique..
For some would have a mole in a certain place.
Unclean to the others who view
themselves as a perfection of ignorance....
We must all be different to realise that perfection
is found in the intricate imperfections
of evolution.
Our faults are what makes
every living thing outstanding,
as were a creation of random fluidity
that makes us no better than those before us,
now, or those who are born
before our fading
of our unique imprint on this pebble.
We all a grain that makes a mark no matter
our finite moment in this ocean
of finite waves...
Aug 1, 2020
Aug 1, 2020 at 7:40 PM UTC
It seemed like everyone fell apart
The board never hit the dart
Everytime i tried to speak for myself
Felt like i was nothing but an elf
When no one was willing to talk
I just went for a little walk
I started to overthink and then came in my mind
No one was ever gonna be very kind
I just went to bed thinking tomorrow will be a better day
But who knew all the thoughts would get lost in the way
Then i thought of pulling a line
But yet there was no sunshine
May 23, 2020
May 23, 2020 at 1:25 PM UTC
We must first see what is the
achievable end
to first catch the glimmer of hope.
Of what started at the beginning
and realise that to go forward
we must readjust.
But to change we must stare at the abyss
of our consequences,
to realise that without diversity we'll
never transition beyond now.
May 20, 2020
May 20, 2020 at 5:06 PM UTC
If true, if true, then prove it to me
Tell me, when did your life have any meaning?
In the mind, in the mind
Where everyone’s dreams are so kind
But in the end it won’t have the same meaning for all
If true, if true, can you show me real proof
I'm conveying to all what I envisage each night
In the mind, in the mind
Where everyone’s dreams are so kind
But in the end it won’t have the same meaning for all
If true, if true, then prove it to me
Tell me, when did your life have any meaning?
In the mind, in the mind
Where everyone’s dreams are so kind
But in the end it won’t have the same meaning for all
My journey was essential, for it to end at an actual destination
I’ve learnt a little, lost more than I got
My heart was strong when needed most
And my good name enshrined for eternity, I hope
If true, if true, then prove it to me
Tell me, when did your life have any meaning?
In the mind, in the mind
Where everyone’s dreams are so kind
But in the end it won’t have the same meaning for all.
Mar 4, 2020
Mar 4, 2020 at 6:31 AM UTC
Could find it,
looking deeper towards
the light, then I collapsed within
the darkness...
It was so bright, so lovely onyx
petals lacerating me
like i was opening the door to a better place.
My blood was the nurture to open wounds
that needed to show the bone,
before I could heal from the fall.
You never knew me, till you glued every
scar after opening it to realise
that.. beauty was beneath every scar.
The luminosity blinded, headed my growth,
for to grow,
I needed to be blind to see
my purpose..
Dec 20, 2019
Dec 20, 2019 at 5:57 PM UTC
It's already midnight
I can't sleep
I'm drinking
Trying to forget all the pain
And trying to sleep
But the thing is
I don't wanna forget
Drinking makes me realise
What I've lost
It reminds me of everything
That we were.
Dec 12, 2019
Dec 12, 2019 at 2:41 PM UTC
you never really realise
how much someone means to you
until you almost lose them
for good
Aug 19, 2019
Aug 19, 2019 at 7:32 PM UTC
Once in a while,
I come to see
How long it's been
Me stuck in sea,
Waves are trading
I am moving
It reaches the end,
NOT ME
Once in a while
I come to see
What's going around me
Not so far
Not so near
Everything ends in
A blink of tear
Doesn't it know
how to fear?
Always holding isn't near!
May 18, 2019
May 18, 2019 at 2:55 PM UTC