#rawfeelings
I fall in the middle of the red flowers,
As I fell,
The petals jumped through the air,
Scattered.
The Red dress,
The Red hair,
They all sync with the flowers
Blood,
I can't see anything
A white space, that's it.
Mar 19
Mar 19, 2026 at 2:29 PM UTC
I tell myself I’m strong,
a fortress built from words,
“Leave him behind, move on,”
I chant, a prayer to numb the hurt.
But then I see his face,
and the walls crumble,
memories crawl through the cracks,
each one a shadow I cannot shake.
I say I don’t feel,
I wear the mask of indifference,
but inside, the ache whispers,
“Remember. You remember everything.”
I lie to myself for safety,
pretending pain is a stranger,
yet it lingers in the corners,
soft and sharp,
a ghost I cannot exorcise.
I am strong, yes,
but strength is not absence of hurt
it is carrying it quietly,
alone, and still choosing to live.
Feb 23
Feb 23, 2026 at 11:41 AM UTC
People only celebrate what they see,
But here something bleeds unseen.
Had they ever guessed
Which hurts more
Having depression, or feeling depressed?
Caged in a body,
I learned to hate because of somebody.
Here, windows are like hollow eyes;
Pain is all it allows me to swallow.
So tired in the throat, it burns like fire.
I hate humans ,they are cold, they are liars.
Cheap tears fill my eyes,
So many headaches I cannot compromise.
Too tired to cry, my eyes are numb, my throat dry.
I wish to leave at the end of spring,
When all the little butterflies
Fly unnoticed with broken wings.
It’s lonely, so lonely that I cannot write.
I cannot compare.
It’s blurry, like the problem with my eyesight.
I was forced to write with a smile,
Forced not to cry.
But the tears never dried.
I do not wish to heal
This world is not real.
The wound—bloody, scarred, deep—
Cannot be thrown away,
So I keep it in my home, buried too deep.
Feb 10
Feb 10, 2026 at 10:33 PM UTC
I burn
and I burn
and burn.
Everyone loves it
when I burn for them.
They enjoy the warmth I give.
I burn and I burn,
yet no one burns for me.
Why keep burning then?
The answer is simple:
I don’t know how else to love.
I burn and I burn
until I can’t
anymore.
Jun 30, 2025
Jun 30, 2025 at 1:11 PM UTC