#rather
From and For
EvelynYiningChen
Thank you!
Apr 16, 2026 at 4:13 AM EDT
“Loneliness doesn't have to be a dark hole but rather a peaceful treaty: for we can't hold onto anything, we have nothing really to lose.”
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this!
hits me
when i am befouled,
mood ruined,
a sweet moment,
flips into
a rousing horseradish bittersweet
and one turn to poetry to soothe a raging
internal, catching me off guard,
“and yet”
you start a revision, a turntable moment,
and the soul wrestling commences
yes, loneliness does not necessarily
be the dark hole we all are with on/in/drown
intimate
terms
first, no, both hands,
head holding
saving face, saving grace,
looking for support Within/without,
but a peaceful treaty
(how I love that notion)
with oneself;
the externalities of most of us
are invariably swayed
by our nearest
sadly, regrettably
and I think
believe
that today’s,
tomorrow’s-sorrows,
will contaminate,
and I write no more,
till I am
purged, expiated, resolved utilizing tools that though rusted,
just like me
us, we, me, all the moving parts
may still have a half-life,
to be usable useful nml
Apr 16
Apr 16, 2026 at 7:39 AM UTC
If peace could speak,
It would say be calm and don't be weak.
Inner peace comes out,
After beating your anger and anxiety to knock out.
Do you know what I feel?
I feel peace as my part of meal.
Yoga helps one to become peaceful,
Also good for health and it is faithful.
It teaches hearts and mind to stay at ease,
Like gentle wind through silent trees.
No storms can break a peaceful mind,
When love and patience are combined.
Inner peace must be attained,
Then only our lives are sustained.
END..
Feb 9
Feb 9, 2026 at 6:27 AM UTC
I overthink
All I have is my thoughts
Somehow connect all the wrong dots
I desperately desire to get it right
All I ever get is high as a kite
Lost motivation like a missing pet
Dreams haunted by a blurry silhouette
These ******* insecurities incessantly holding me back
Mind catapulted so hard it's finally starting to crack
It's lonely walking this nowhere road
Hieroglyphics in soul I can't seem to decode
Multiple eruptions happen within heart's beating rooms
Life is a tapestry of pain woven on fate's looms
The reflection staring from mirror is looking rather strange
I know that to reach peace something badly needs to change
Sep 17, 2025
Sep 17, 2025 at 5:02 AM UTC
I saw truth plain as day
Knew I did not mean much
Didn't possess the sense to leave
Desperate to experience your touch
Now you are running away from me
Too cowardly to say goodbye
I am left looking like a **** fool
Just another passerby
Your silence says it all
Want nothing more to do with me
After effort I put forth
Cast me aside like worthless debris
Now true colors are revealed
I caught a glimpse of them before
Gave another chance because
Believed you were capable of more
I worked hard to be somebody you wanted
To improve my imperfections
Did little things to make you smile
Hoping to avoid rejection
Only for actions to be in vain
I am still all alone
Changes made were a stupid waste
If only I would have known
You were just biding time
Til better opportunity came along
May not have been Mr. Right
The way you treated me wrong
I was fine keeping us the way we were
Simply wanted to clarify where we stood
I asked if this was a relationship
Maybe I misunderstood
And even when you lied to me
Disloyalty breaking trust
Still forgave all your mistakes
Until emotions were stomped into dust
I was ready to settle for bare minimum
As long as I could hold you close
Warm sensation was enough
Even if I wasn't what you desired the most
But despite being tolerant and understanding
Still decided to shut me out
After sharply slapped in the face
Finally realize I'm better without
Should never have waited around for you
Because I enjoyed your caress
Deserve so much better than that
I've learned I'd rather be lonely than settle for less
Mar 24, 2022
Mar 24, 2022 at 1:26 AM UTC
I am not stubborn. Rather , I am
nothing beyond a soul who can't
dare to rebel against her own inner
voice.
Oct 2, 2020
Oct 2, 2020 at 1:07 PM UTC
Loving , praising and embracing oneself isn't hubris and selfish ,
rather , the best technique for keeping all those at bay who expect from others to stay under their feet.
Sep 26, 2020
Sep 26, 2020 at 10:08 PM UTC
I would rather write
About this world than
Live in it
I would rather play
Music all day and read
Or wander around
Or waltz into bookstores
And run my hands along
The wooden shelves
I would rather remain
Indifferent to the world
That exists around me
I would rather watch
Humans than actually
Be one of them.
Jul 31, 2018
Jul 31, 2018 at 5:30 AM UTC
I would rather have
Moved on too quickly than held
On for way too long
May 20, 2018
May 20, 2018 at 9:49 AM UTC
the first time i saw her i was left in a spiral of awe
the second time i saw her i was left unprepared
the third time i saw her i noticed her laugh brought tears to my eyes
the fourth time i saw her i finally had enough courage to say hi
she brightened my week with a simple smile
i felt a deep longing for something that was right in front of me
i never thought love was real
never thought
and i had not known what it was to be alive until she took my hand
every cell in my body longed her touch once more
melodies played in my head
violins playing sweet euphonies
when our eyes met orchestras erupted in my mind
the sun burned brighter than ever before
the moon gasped at her beauty
the stars didn't even stand a chance
the next time i see her maybe she will see me too
Apr 22, 2018
Apr 22, 2018 at 6:13 PM UTC
It is a crazy world outside these doors. And I feel like I am not connecting with it in the right way.
Or in any way from time to time. Like I don't recognize myself surrounded by life.
Like I don't know which direction to go or to just stay put.
Await the storm in my head and in my heart.
Feeling like I am not even close to the hand writing these words down on paper. More like I am the paper, empty lines. Hopelessly waiting to be used or abused.
Or just there to wait.
Which eventually will make your thoughts scream louder then you ever have and trap you in it.
Or behind it.
Like if you are living your life from a little glass box tucked away deep in your self conscious and there is just no way out.
Mar 29, 2018
Mar 29, 2018 at 5:43 AM UTC
There's perhaps nothing more that we would rather all do
than to look for and find something that's absolutely new.
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Jan 9, 2018
Jan 9, 2018 at 7:00 PM UTC
Let’s discuss the things that do not change
Assign an essay to compare/contrast
Take a look at what you know:
The world does not live in iconoclasts
The endless rivers run with dead blood
The timeless mountains reek of blistered soles
To you,
There is no time or place worth holding.
Please tell me how steel will last longer than stone
That man’s words will disappear
Evaporative steam on a bathroom mirror
When it hits your hot-head with the morning glow
One hundred and sixty million years ago
A rock was nudged off its course
Plummeted assiduously through the outer Sol
And struck home with astronomic force.
The firestorm slaughtered the dinosaurs
And let tiny little pitiful things
Pick up the carcasses and make human beings
Out of the ash and amino acid.
I tried to throw a pebble into a pond
Aiming for a single Oxygen atom
And imagined that I killed those fallen beasts
when the ripples broke that watery peace
Flames are eternal,
They hide in our stars and shine bright in our eyes
The heat of life is louder than the pound of the hammer
And burns away the chaff quicker than the sickle
Someone drew a ******** below the overpass,
Crossed it out in a sanguine circle
I thought to myself,
“It is no more!”
Then realized it was already home
draw light, speak in darkness
seek peace, make war.
seek to starve that which you fear,
And only feed it more
Come now, let’s take our thoughts to the battleground
Trample god’s land under our earthen boots
**** each other with chemical bombs
To prove we they are the chosen group
Expedite that famous entropy
Nudging souls out of bodies
Subvert the Earth’s hegemony
So that man may taste that godly fruit
Jan 3, 2018
Jan 3, 2018 at 10:46 PM UTC
I would rather be somewhere else,
Rather not feel so 'alive,'
I would rather curl up and die.
Sometimes I am afraid,
But most times I am just tired.
The world doesn't seem like my place,
I quite tired of this chase,
I no longer wish to find myself.
The body that I was placed in is now hollow.
I am shallow, after all I am a human being,
Not able to sympathies anymore can only play the role of 'me,'
No longer sweet, or the gently soul that everyone knows.
I wouldn't rather be a other,
I can never fix myself into this world,
So its best if I slowly lose myself and leave.
I'd rather fall into a deep sleep and continue dreaming.
Apr 6, 2017
Apr 6, 2017 at 8:37 PM UTC
I would rather die than live alone.
Will I be able to live after my parents?
I have to be stronger than myself.
Looking into the night alone,
Loving her memories.
Streets that she has deserted,
Under a lonelier sky I am now,
Roses of her voice I will always prize,
Vices of the society are many,
I have not been affected by any,
Victory is mine in the happiness war,
Entertaining not the hate mongers.
Feb 10, 2017
Feb 10, 2017 at 6:12 AM UTC
Only my parents are helping me survive,
And in their company I mature,
I wish that they be here for evermore.
I so wish someone else could hear me too,
And so I will not be lonely in near future,
Only that much do I now wish for myself..
I've my parents right now to love me,
And none of them is immortal,
Only in my memories they will live on...
I have my parents contrary to an orphan,
And they are really the best ones for me,
Only this much I know as of the moment.
I know that they won't be here one day,
And in a prison I will be trapped,
Only within the prison of loneliness.
Dec 26, 2016
Dec 26, 2016 at 1:04 AM UTC
In the light of day many hide behind masks,
Once the sun falls and the moon rises,
In the darkness the truth is always revealed.
Very few refrain from hiding,
Very few come out to light,
For most would rather lurk in the shadows than face what life is like.
-Kathia Mariana Landeros
Nov 17, 2016
Nov 17, 2016 at 12:00 AM UTC
You'd rather I be lonely,
In a bathtub,
With a book,
Oct 22, 2015
Oct 22, 2015 at 3:32 PM UTC
Someday,
when you'll ask me
"how much do you love me?",
In answer, I will not spread my arms wide.
I will rather wrap them around you
tight,
and will never let you go.
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 2:42 PM UTC
There was a boy who I told no,
No meant yes,
And my cries did not matter.
I have crumbled,
and stumbled,
and the matter I once was has turned to dust,
dancing away on a cloud somewhere my soul would rather be.
Jan 29, 2015
Jan 29, 2015 at 11:12 PM UTC