#qet
you were so content keeping to yourself crying in the corner
Filling the empty space
With silent symphonies
Of sorrow and solace
A solo profromace
In this theater of solitude
~
Epilog.
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father was downstairs trying to get the power back
mom was in the attic getting high off of alcohol
brothers in their rooms addicted to
P o r no graphy.
Me? Planning to **** myself silently in this
Theater
Of
Solitude
May 28, 2024
May 28, 2024 at 12:02 AM UTC
Addicted to You
I have a terrible addiction to gambling with your love
The stakes are high, the risk so sweet
Every bet I place, I long to win your heart
But with every loss, I feel another tear start
The thrill of the game, the rush of hope
Keeps me coming back, unable to cope
I'm locked in this cycle, a prisoner of desire
Addicted to you, my burning, consuming Crimson fire
May 26, 2024
May 26, 2024 at 1:51 AM UTC
I lost myself in the most
pathetic possible way,
I will never be able to handle
losing myself.
But in the midst of darkness,
I found a glimmer of light,
a moment of grace that whispered,
you are more than your flaws.
I may have lost the old me,
but the new me is still growing,
finding strength in vulnerability,
and resilience in the face of loss.
So, here's to the journey of
losing and finding oneself,
for in the broken pieces,
we discover our truest beauty.
~
Dearest reader ;
I know it's unbelievable, unfortunately we have to be able to handle this inescapable truth :
We
Have
Worth
May 25, 2024
May 25, 2024 at 8:13 PM UTC
Riddles twist and turn
Words dance in perplexing ways
A maze of meaning
May 24, 2024
May 24, 2024 at 10:10 PM UTC
The sequel is never as good as the original
How original
Mar 15, 2024
Mar 15, 2024 at 12:34 AM UTC
I wish I could make you smile while singing a simile,
of what it's like when you sit next to me.
Or tell you another metaphor,
of what it's like when we grow old together.
Will you hold me
when I won't hold you?
I'm sorry, but
I will always love you
Mar 18, 2019
Mar 18, 2019 at 9:36 AM UTC
television screens-
shows a crowd of a million screams
-watching
the dying fish flop on a dry plate.
Entertainment.
Mar 15, 2019
Mar 15, 2019 at 4:06 PM UTC
all I want is one person to type all my thoughts into a poem
so that they can say
"It's harder than it looks..."
Mar 13, 2019
Mar 13, 2019 at 12:52 PM UTC
my vision of hell
is being told I go to heaven
and watch all my friends burn
Mar 9, 2019
Mar 9, 2019 at 1:59 AM UTC
all these merry paintings fill his vacant evenings
the artist stays an extra hour to paint a single line
never satisfied
Mar 9, 2019
Mar 9, 2019 at 1:54 AM UTC
an indecisive hypocrite made a decision for once
...
just kidding
today was opposite day
Mar 7, 2019
Mar 7, 2019 at 2:57 PM UTC
a star burns
yet we watch it not trying to help
stop a beautiful fire.
Mar 5, 2019
Mar 5, 2019 at 12:28 PM UTC
if my heart would start to glow in the dark
every night at home with you or alone
you'd be shocked to know nothing gives me a spark
since you'd squint to find a heart gushing with love
instead a hole woefully without a springing soul
May 8, 2019
May 8, 2019 at 1:19 PM UTC
I was born from the breathe of Satan-I was formed underneath a tree in Salem
I was sworn to **** the king with swords of Cain-I was torn in-between infamy and destiny from my name
I'm a nameless hatred created from the twisted creator seizing an unforgiving lust and hunger for another miserable maiden wasting her worth with words of wishes longing the chance to dance with the duke of death
but the bet begs black
and I'm dressed in red restless dripping decisions of every maiden's sins ever since Satan brought me back from the depths of *** and a forever reincarnation of Hell's retrieving-unforgiving-sanatorium
Aug 21, 2019
Aug 21, 2019 at 9:46 AM UTC
every time you cross my mind
fog fills my skull and clouds my thoughts
each time I say your name
my tongue curls up and green travels through my lungs
any moment I see you close
turquoise trickles and travels onto my lips
such salty emotions I savor
...
you are the badtaste that lingers but I’m obsessed with the flavor
Feb 26, 2020
Feb 26, 2020 at 10:59 AM UTC
I hate hearing my baby sister cry so much.
I'm so excited to be the only child.
Mar 22, 2019
Mar 22, 2019 at 2:26 AM UTC
babe just let me in
suppose you're going to
leave me alone on an island again?
to watch you drown
I can't swim.
Just let me kiss
the bottom of your ear
just talk with me
and don't push away
but
start to let it be clear.
I wanna stay and make mistakes
and take time to create
wishes with you
when it's dark and cloudy outside
I'd always close my eyes
and it would all come true
to stare at your bottomless blue crystal sea stained-glass.
Dance with me
make me swing
getting tipsy over the dizzy
way of how you sing giving a new feeling
Send me to sleep on a Saturday morning
help me if I get cold
then I'll hum the melody
you always taught me
since the beginning
please hold my love tight and true
cupid's dove
fly away so I can write with my last breathe
an epic conclusion
~fin
May 12, 2019
May 12, 2019 at 1:15 PM UTC
my daughter sees all love,
in the sunlight she keeps beauty
we named her harmony for no harm to come
to her future daughters and company.
~
she was a lava lamp of love
giving off all she got
now 23 years pass all it's gone
no more light in a circle of dark.
~
maybe I shouldn't complain
all my life I begged for death
it's amazing how it can all change
given sunlight telling your lovers your wet
from the dark cloud chasing
you with empathetic tears
we call rain.
~
if I could get a second chance I wouldn't hesitate
to look back all my mistakes at a second glance
it's all meant to stay the same.
Apr 19, 2019
Apr 19, 2019 at 11:08 PM UTC
rotten teeth speak forgotten truth,
back when the days of sin were sung by shadowed youth,
through the dark-it sparked-so many ingenious risks,
Cyanide apple seeds swallowed by society’s rejects,
no one is sour-not even the insects dare to be bitter,
Year 1981 was the time to be alive / never have I ever wanted to relive those memories as much as I do now...
Dec 5, 2020
Dec 5, 2020 at 11:17 AM UTC
“why don’t you write me a poem?
You are a poet- it is your day of love.”
I held her but felt her hold her breath
She cried then laughed about life always being the same
She didn’t want to sleep so I stayed awake
I awoke in freezing pain
I’m just bleeding out in a bath
from a live heart surgery she gave me during Valentine’s Day
Feb 14, 2020
Feb 14, 2020 at 12:23 PM UTC
sitting in the dark; breathing mechanically-
looking down at the ground; tear drops fall cloaked in the shadows-
silently wheezing in pain; wishing for any change - to put this black heart back in its box -
meanwhile she shows him affection&attention
while I’m mourning over our wedding being ruined in a single morning walking in-on her-on top-of him...
..."𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘦" I speak aloud in a shattered scream—repeatedly hitting my skull against the car door screen—never get married on Halloween
Oct 17, 2020
Oct 17, 2020 at 6:04 PM UTC
hello ***
you seemed to not have noticed
me dressed in your favorite clothes
slummed to the floor like a pile of wastefulness.
good-riddance
you seemed to loss your patience
when looking at a piece of plastic glass
with a half-guessed assumption
of me and her
loving life together.
good-morning
is what I'll sing every-time to my new lover
when she won't be a nosy noisy
never ending story of the same heartbreak
broken on a loop of another thief who stole
and would take your "innocence".
don't forget this
this is what you wanted...
Aug 24, 2019
Aug 24, 2019 at 12:24 PM UTC
I never understood why a butterfly stopped flying
,would lie on its leaf and stop trying,
until the truth she said turned into only her lying
now I can't stop
only start crying.
Mar 8, 2019
Mar 8, 2019 at 10:41 AM UTC