#pushing
Love is always so fickle,
Itself only as strong as our commitments.
Oftentimes, we seek a level
Which is non-commiserate
To that which we offer.
We often feel ourselves
To be what's most important.
Pushing & pushing.
Until that day
In which the push is away.
Distance becomes
Only that which we are close with.
Apr 17, 2025
Apr 17, 2025 at 10:07 AM UTC
If I could teach you one thing,
It would be how to keep pushing.
Because when the world is looking,
They're looking at the one still going.
You can be great,
If you can wake up and tell yourself,
'I am greatness, I am here for a reason, I am the next big thing.'
Mar 4, 2025
Mar 4, 2025 at 10:42 AM UTC
Time checker
I’m always a time checker,
Looking at my watch to see the time.
Questioning what’s coming up?
Looking always to see if im behind.
I hate to ever show up late to things,
But never like to be to early.
The countdown is always on ,
Waiting for the end of the day for me.
Always Checking how much time I have left before I go to sleep,
Until it’s time to wake.
So I can be awake and refreshed.
And take on another crazy day.
These crazy things I think about!
This silly thing called time.
Isn’t so silly when it goes to fast,
or seems to go to slow.
I hate spending so much time alone,
I love to be around the ones I love.
So maybe I can take a break from being a time checker and spend more time just going with the flow.
Because there is one thing that’s for sure, time’s a precious thing,
So with me always checking time,
I’m just pushing away this beautiful life of mine.
Jan 31, 2025
Jan 31, 2025 at 11:03 PM UTC
Nothing made me angrier than when
You expected the best from me and I
Felt like it was unfair, and I couldn’t do
What everyone else could, that I didn’t
Have the tools, that this was a race but
I was positioned behind the
Starting line.
I thought you didn’t understand.
And you didn’t.
But you pushed me farther than I thought
I could go, you told me that I could do it—
That I had to.
You held me to that same gold standard,
On the bad days and the good days and
The days in between, you never wavered
And you never gave me the option to
Quit.
So I ran that race, and I ran it fast
I sprinted and leaped and speeded past
Everyone else, despite where I started,
And all I could feel was the rush in the air,
The breath in my veins and the wind in my hair,
The power of my stride, the power of my will,
The strength of my wholeness, this strength I could feel,
And every time, I thought I could not do it.
You did not know my pain—
Yet you pushed me right through it.
Oct 4, 2024
Oct 4, 2024 at 7:14 PM UTC
CAN'T STOP,
WON'T STOP!!!
Keep on CLIMBING
TO THE TOP!!!
KEEP PUSHING, KEEP STRIVING
SUCCESS is hard WORK,
and I AIN'T LYING.
DON'T GIVE UP, keeping on MOVING,
Don't STOP NOW, keep on GROOVING.
You have got THE STRENGTH, THE TENACITY,
and THE COURAGE,
THE WILL, THE POWER,
minus the DISCOURAGE!!!
you got the INDURANCE
You got the DRIVE,
You got the SELF-CONTROL,
To Keep HOPE ALIVE,
YOU KNOW YOU GOT THIS,
THE BALL IS IN YOUR COURT,
CAN'T STOP, WON'T STOP,
NOW, LET'S GET TO WORK!!!!
B.R.
Date: 07/27/2023
Sep 6, 2024
Sep 6, 2024 at 11:49 AM UTC
I tried
I tried
I tried
I hurt
You thrived
I tried
I hung on
I’m tired
You’re gone.
Feb 27, 2022
Feb 27, 2022 at 12:23 PM UTC
Honestly. I'm tired of hearing it. Who are you? What are you going to do in life? How will you make your mark? What will you amount to?
That's not a real career. Have you thought about something else as a more practical career? You won't succeed.
How can I think freely if all my thoughts are full of holes? Everyone nitpicking them until they no longer exist, what's the point of even trying?
How can I succeed if everyone pushes me back into my bubble? What am I supposed to do if I can't even leave? No one expects me to leave, either.
How am I supposed to get anywhere if I'm surrounded by high expectations? What am I supposed to accomplish? I can't get anywhere today. The bar's too high. All I can do is complain. Is this really all I can do? It's so... awful. It's a bother. It's a nuisance. I hate it. What am I meant to be?
Apr 7, 2021
Apr 7, 2021 at 10:10 AM UTC
I guess your story dont really matter unless you beat a ****** case.
Unless you sell a lot of plates.
Unless you gang banging your set
With a gun and big chain.
Fell into this life young
but I’m im glad that I got out safe.
Came sacrifices from my body
But I still made it out that place.
Others weren’t so lucky
to live and see another day.
Some spent their time in prison
Came home and found another way.
Some do the same ****
Guess they learning the hard way.
If he’s was smart he’d take his family
And move far far away.
Man I live for the vision
But the time is just ticking.
I give this **** my all
and never planned on quitting.
Seen ****** blow up with one song
And I ain’t ego trippin.
It’s just been ten years of grinding
On this one big mission.
All the days through depression
Staring gaze at a weapon.
Spin the chamber put to my head
if it bang it’s a blessing.
Some say it’s weak
I say easy it’s if you tired of living.
Hard to fight back when your body has been wired to give in.
Needed god to pick me up
But I just kept on slipping.
Some just keep on smoking.
Some just keep on drinking.
I just keep on thinking
When will I be winning.
Nov 24, 2020
Nov 24, 2020 at 3:36 AM UTC
Assumptions: make them
Lies: deal them
Feelings: disregard them;
for they will be wrong anyway
Definitions: adopt them
Privacy: error
Rights: error
Individuality: error
Conformity: accept
Aug 23, 2020
Aug 23, 2020 at 4:49 PM UTC
Give me nothing
But time
Everything within
This wanting to be of something
And there will be neither writing
Nor ending
For a summer storm
But combined
And in giving me a required aim
When there is sound to be found
And creation to pro
Then the writing will flow
As if out of a struck desert stone
And swell
Aug 4, 2020
Aug 4, 2020 at 7:32 PM UTC
i tell everyone else to love themselves
and tell them they're worth it
but what about me?
forever talking people down off ledges
just pushes me off faster
i don't feel like i'm falling anymore
i feel like i'm dead
too far gone to save
what does that make me?
Jun 26, 2020
Jun 26, 2020 at 10:01 AM UTC
Does the line of comfortability change due to culture? Can you handle less because maybe you did not handle more? Are you over sensitizing because I overheard? Telling me to watch the words I learned at a young age because Susies mom taught her kids those terms?
Do you only laugh at the people you enjoy? Respect the same of your own? Can you respect me even if you don't agree, I don't want to come at you, I don't think Im right but I don't think Im wrong. Agree to disagree simple to say it .
You tell me.... "I AM" part of the queer community as if I don't love a good ***** in the face.
You tell me WHO you are and assume who I am not.
I don't want to take away your voice, I don't disagree, I just wanna say mine too and how I feel....
Feb 10, 2020
Feb 10, 2020 at 4:12 PM UTC
I'm tired but let's do another day to see if things change.
Nov 12, 2019
Nov 12, 2019 at 1:14 AM UTC
Goodmorning, sings the happy delivery guy.
In such a cheerful and jolly glee.
How was your day. He asks, I don't know why.
I do not answer, it was horrible you see.
Goodafternoon, says the friendly neighbour.
In such a happy and soft content tone.
I quickly close my creaking door.
I don't get why people enter my comfort zone.
Good evening, a colleague at work had to say.
She smiled in an inviting kind matter.
Oh how would she know what's good anyway.
They're on my tongue by every letter.
Goodnight says the volunteer on the phone.
For I called the lifeline again tonight.
Good for you, finally you leave me alone!
I forgot I was the one who dialed out of fright.
What would they know what's good.
Rather push them away.
They never even understood.
And they don't listen to what I have to say.
I feel lonely, abandoned and forgotten.
In this barren, cold dark world which is rotten.
With my mind I will always be alone.
Shifted away in my bubbly comfort zone.
I will never have a delivery guy, a neighbour or a friend.
I will rather accept a most lonely, and sad end
Aug 6, 2019
Aug 6, 2019 at 8:01 PM UTC
Secrets in my mind
Some you cannot seem to find
Looking for my pain?
For these you cannot obtain
Jan 8, 2019
Jan 8, 2019 at 3:09 PM UTC
out
of the dark
further, further
pushing on still
through the street
in a patch
just to see you
and meet
the glorious sun
soak in the warmth
as the first light of day
drifts over us and I start to think
maybe this is home, here with you
in those shining pale rays, just us
and the problems of the world
seem so distant when we
can just sit here, looking
up at the sky, alone,
together, enjoying
ourselves and so
utterly at peace
and that is a life
that I think I
could get used to
Mar 1, 2019
Mar 1, 2019 at 6:23 PM UTC
She works all day and night
Even if it is wrong or right
She races to the sky,
Until her child can fly
All of the pain nailed to her head
Just so she would collapse down
On her knees, for some bread
Trying hard, not to drown
Sep 20, 2018
Sep 20, 2018 at 4:36 AM UTC
I hope you know that you are loved
And when you feel low
you are still above
the darkness and your demons
Promise me you won't give up
you are needed
This goes out to my aunt that took her life
To the ones contemplating death day and night
questioning your existence
the thoughts are now consistent
i hope you know that the world would notice if you went missing
You are the only you on this earth
Yes there are stronger boys and there are prettier girls
There are people wealthy and unhappy
And there are people poor that smile with no teeth
You can make it out of this ditch
i mean if you wish
Because who am i to tell you to stay alive
To tell you that you need to exist
To tell you that you have a purose
Your life with flourish
love yourself from within
and soon people will see this bright light in you that was once dim
I hope you stay alive
not for her, not for them, not for that, not for him, not for this but for you.
Jul 19, 2018
Jul 19, 2018 at 3:01 PM UTC
i want to know why
love means pushing away hate.
why can't i do both?
Apr 28, 2018
Apr 28, 2018 at 11:14 PM UTC
some people say that life is a blessing,
but i'm not feeling quite the same way
they constantly thank and pray to their lord,
but i'm just pushing through every day
their lives are a dream, a blessing, a gift
while mine feels like i'm dragged by a noose
"My life was hard too, just try harder" they say
"i'll try...
to cut myself loose."
Mar 2, 2018
Mar 2, 2018 at 2:04 PM UTC
Are
you
done
pushing
away
people
who
cares
about
you?
Nov 8, 2017
Nov 8, 2017 at 3:13 AM UTC
gracefully,
standing upon discarded bodies as the world casts a shadow on the tasteless display.
a girl,
watching herself like strangers do in tall buildings through windows,
the lamplight being the only echo of familiarity; a sense of safety,
flickers off,
leaving the cold grey of the night to be her dearest company.
the peoples faces, frozen beneath the hem of her dress, read a quiet howl that makes the silent night turn away.
voices in her head replay the same dull, lifeless film:
"you can't keep pushing us away"
"we can work this out"
"it will be okay"
she locks herself behind puffs of smoke,
and somewhere in the clouds it's always raining a slow and endless drizzle.
and she keeps burying,
burying it all away,
till the morning sun sheds light on what she refused to believe; that it was all her fault.
Jul 14, 2016
Jul 14, 2016 at 5:41 PM UTC
i don't mean to push you away.
i really don't.
i just need to know that
when i do,
you'll pull me
closer
and ask
me to
s t a y
.
Jun 28, 2016
Jun 28, 2016 at 12:50 AM UTC