#psychaitric
Early dawn light
seeped into the lounge
of the locked ward.
Benny was sitting there
in a chair
smoking.
I entered
and sat beside him.
Morning Yiska
he said
releasing a flow
of smoke
cigarette?
I nodded
and he lit it for me.
The night nurse
was in her
small office
writing her report.
How'd you sleep?
I asked.
Not good
he said
can't get thoughts
out of my head.
Me neither
I said.
We sat in silence
for awhile.
Sunlight
grew brighter
lighting up
the lounge.
I like this
first morning peace
he said
before the others wake
and come.
Just us
I said.
He turned
and looked at me.
I moved
close to him
and kissed
soft kiss
lips on lips
then parted
sat in a stillness.
I wanted you
last night
I said
lying in bed alone
the other women
snoring or whispering
in their sleep.
I would have come
if I could
if there was a place
for us to be
he said.
The night nurse came
and looked in
the lounge
early birds
she said
after a worm?
she joked.
You could say that
I said
thinking of Benny
wanting him
to make love to me
in my bed.
May 9, 2017
May 9, 2017 at 6:45 AM UTC
Yiska reads
the newspaper
brought in
by one of the nurses.
She is sitting
in the lounge
early morning
sun just peaking
through the shutters.
Benny sits beside her
what's the headline?
he says.
Nothing much
she says
same old miserable news
depressing stuff.
She puts
the newspaper
down on the table.
Benny looks at her
will we be able
to go out
in the grounds today?
he asks.
I hope so
she says
especially as its
a nice day.
Depends I guess
if they have
sufficient nurses
to spare
he says.
Want cigarette?
she says.
Sure that'd be good
he says.
She takes a packet
out of her
dressing gown pocket
and offers him one
and takes one herself
and lights both.
They sit
and smoke
how's your wrist?
he asks.
Still sore
she says
showing him
the bandaged wrist.
Well you will go
and cut it
he says.
It's how my mind
was at the time
you should have seen
the nurse who found me
she must have nigh
****** herself
all that blood
and me sitting there
with the glass
staring at her
from the bathroom floor.
I heard the noise
and saw nurses running
that way
didn't know it was you
he says.
Now the quack's
put me down
for more ECTS
Yiska says.
Hate them
they don't help
gave me headaches
Benny says.
The nurse comes
and takes the newspaper
and walks off
swaying her hips.
Benny watches her
the cigarette
limp between his lips.
Apr 5, 2017
Apr 5, 2017 at 3:17 AM UTC