#powerlessness
Another new day,
but I'm stuck in myself, in --
storm and helplessness.
Apr 11
Apr 11, 2026 at 1:58 AM UTC
Another new day,
but I'm stuck in myself, in --
storm and helplessness.
Feb 22
Feb 22, 2026 at 2:43 AM UTC
Well, with drinks, we can
get through this, even though they --
only make things worse.
Oct 16, 2025
Oct 16, 2025 at 3:39 AM UTC
The gate has no bell,
no one opens when I knock --
It comes down to me.
Nov 27, 2024
Nov 27, 2024 at 3:55 AM UTC
Politics revolves
around trying to control --
our powerlessness.
Mar 10, 2024
Mar 10, 2024 at 4:00 AM UTC
We don't do any-
thing, we avoid rejection --
avoid rapprochement.
Feb 2, 2024
Feb 2, 2024 at 2:21 AM UTC
There's the nagging pain
of violence, and worse, of --
chatting about it.
Oct 23, 2023
Oct 23, 2023 at 3:49 AM UTC
How should I console
with the little cuckoo clock --
ticking in my head?
Aug 3, 2023
Aug 3, 2023 at 3:26 AM UTC
I can't handle him,
only could beat him to death --
but I can't do that.
Feb 6, 2023
Feb 6, 2023 at 3:28 AM UTC
I ***** I wail,
I'm bang banging with my fists --
Stop! Stop that madness!
Jun 5, 2022
Jun 5, 2022 at 4:55 AM UTC
It is a symptom
of political failure:
waterbed-swinging.
Dec 3, 2021
Dec 3, 2021 at 3:01 AM UTC
O celestial mountain, let me climb the stairs of patience
that the immortal front may be birthed anew.
Cover thyself with the robe
of the Ancient Root,
and with the Hood of the Worlds,
that you may hearken to the
winds of mystery
and the tremors of the stock of oneness.
Suffer time
to pass thee by
that the eternal sun
may shine upon thee.
Let the Mother of Eternity
give thee nourishment
at the seat
of powerlessness.
Dec 14, 2020
Dec 14, 2020 at 11:08 PM UTC
I don’t think I am writing
Anything of consequence
So is it worth it, emit
I watch the news I hear
That millions are without work
What can I do with this, misfit
I sit in my little ivory tower
Worried about my little bit
I don’t know how to, unfit
Is the world about to fall
Will the leaders stand up tall
I hope that good comes, sunlit
Fortunate I feel still in awe
I am living through a pandemic
I never thought I’d be, submit
I will manage to keep calm
And try to reach a bit
Writing is all I can do, ********
Jun 24, 2020
Jun 24, 2020 at 1:22 PM UTC
Numbing comfort bubbles (are),
tools of a privileged struggle,
like staring, lost, into the flames.
They keep me warm,
so; throw on the bodies, the trees,
it's all the same.
There's one flowing stream
that never dries up,
babbling drugs sports desire.
If I don't douse myself
from this stream, babbling bubbles,
I'll catch on fire.
But then, eventually,
we all burn on His pyre.
Cold comfort,
keeping others warm.
Nov 9, 2019
Nov 9, 2019 at 3:26 PM UTC
Take to the skies, your leader dreams, limit the attitudes
That weigh you down for, remember, punishment is grounding
On what stone you find purchase,
Know your head may float on−
Anything you want today figures in dollars and sense,
For crimes unknown between me and Adam,
Anything you want tomorrow, by God, is recompense;
Till the earth from whence you came−
Sanity and health are luxuries to the virtual yeoman
Who wishes day after day to see those legs rise,
One after the other, fancies of make−believe clash with
Laws of take−believe, of grit and wealth−
They say, live happy, make your destination,
Your goals, your strength, your perseverance
To really think success off
The table of what you can achieve
And place more stock in the invisible hands that
Usher a wretch like me−
Teamwork, the qualitative change needed to quit a pride
No words can succeed to encase,
Focuses its hatred when given positive chance
(But never can quite dull the edge of self−worth)
Your victories today are given answer: limit
Love to fullest soar, my actions, my purpose
Of leader−effort greatly cherish
What all the Haves deem mine−
Let not sin color your pay,
For they know best; slaves dare not reach
Beyond what they imagine we celebrate
Strung aligned by ebbs and flows
Of mankind’s cold regard
And, in humbled separation, find we move together−
This life we do determine to be endlessly new,
110% unreal work, supernatural labor,
Why wait for the ineffable dreams, the !!! dreams,
When they are nothing but a hurtful difference,
Hard to give up, hard to ring true−
Every person, me, you, suffice, surfeit on discipline,
Put, now, what priorities they’ve found better
Toward the hard line of the bottom,
The earth, quick with clouds pitch
Cooling the heads as the cores explode
Every winter, a winner opportunity
As raging ice and hellfire forests
Dot the mountains called I−
The successful follow those who’ve achieve
Those leader dreams, the calmly rational, the spoken articulate
To its first day of life after disaster−
I’m doing time, wasting mine at the boss’ door:
Expect to keep your passions in the heart,
And off those tired, sordid fingertips.
Sep 29, 2019
Sep 29, 2019 at 12:17 PM UTC
It's as though through letting ideas slip away into nothingness
I've died countless times:
unrealised, unfulfilled, unsatisfied.
Their last scream of agony devoid of substance,
reverberates through me,
Reminding me that
I've neglected to death that which could've filled me.
I sit alone quietly watching,
An ego of sand trickles down
each grain a like on a tweet, a seen video.
Aren't they really smart? The people who make these things?
Promised to make me golden,
And I am, indeed.
Just as cold and saleable as that.
NO no,
I keep trying to claw my way out.
It's taking too long, why isn't it working?
Hands getting weaker?
Nails dulling out?
Or maybe I've never had anything sharp on myself to begin with.
The worst is that I'm not alone in this
And most of you seem content.
Living being made to obey
With grains of dopamine being thrown around
as we dance to catch each in our mouths.
Not much different from these poor animals at the circus.
Let's cut this short.
Aim big and don't expect a praise or prize soon after you start.
People aren't brands and brands aren't people.
Let's learn to enjoy the ride more than the destination.
Good luck, I believe in me,
I believe in you.
Jul 15, 2019
Jul 15, 2019 at 9:58 AM UTC
I hate realizing I forgot to take my
meds. I don’t mind taking them. I need
them to pretend I can function. And
forgetting until the next morning can
be brutal, but I get right up and start
again. But when I realize they didn’t
slide down my throat and enter my
bloodstream in the middle of the day,
or halfway through the time of night
when magic unfolds and destruction
happens, I’m reminded of something.
I’m reminded that these small, white
discs with an indent down the middle
are the only thing keeping me from
climbing the tallest building and
taking a deep breath. I’m reminded
that I’m not in control. I’m reminded
that I wouldn’t want it if I had it.
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by Aleksander Mielnikow
Mar 2, 2019
Mar 2, 2019 at 8:14 PM UTC
To openly relinquish vulnerabilities, having found love will likely be present in advance
Being in love, will challenge defenses making present vulnerabilities
Fating the present after liberating vulnerabilities, ensures a relief to drop defenses, and a willingly surrender to love
Oct 21, 2018
Oct 21, 2018 at 10:27 PM UTC
In the crazy busyness of the day
where electric sounds suffuse,
even a little chat is often a freeway
of words and noise.
And in the midst, he tells me
“Just be yourself.”
There I am
in the small space of silence
being undone
with nothing to say
while I wonder
what self.
A friend tells me they’re getting a divorce.
The doctor says the tests are positive.
I watch: the surge of floods taking homes and lives
or images of smoke and debris right after a bombing.
After a real serious play or movie.
In the waiting room after I hear she is going to die.
In those lonely tiny spaces
of darkness
I cannot speak.
In those aftermath moments
I am silenced.
How do I react
to being out of control
or make these things normal
or fit them into my routine ways of being me?
Silence asserts itself
like a wild animal
I cannot tame.
At these intervals
of being powerless
I hope I do not miss the chance
to humbly bow
in silence
and embrace my humanity
and smallness
in the cosmos
where it is utterly trivial
to just be my self.
Aug 30, 2018
Aug 30, 2018 at 9:36 AM UTC