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It has been a while
Since that time.
You know.
That night.
My first date
And that carnival ride.
Yeah,
I'm terrified.
Tell me how you managed it,
How you remember it.
Because young sir,
I highly doubt it is the same as I.
Or do you wake up screaming too?
Because I do.
Never forgetting
Always blaming myself
For something I had no control over.
Did you enjoy my innocence?
Because I wish I could have it back.
That you hadn't done what you had
That I didn't have to see your heart of black.
It still hurts down there.
That place.
You were inside of me before I could say a single thing.
Before I could even say "No"
You make me sick.
So sick that I wanna bleed.
But everyone knows now
And trying to keep me sane.
I had told you that I was saving myself
But all you could say,
"Please Baby, Please!
I love you so much!
Just give me this much!"
Didn't know what to do,
I just freeze.
What am I suppose to say
What do I do now?
Do I talk to my mother and father
Face that judgement
Or do I block it all away with a smile
What do I do
What do I do
What do I do now?!
What the hell am I suppose to do now?!
You hurt me!
You broke me!
I'll never forget!
Pray to a God I no longer trust?!
You both were suppose to protect me and look at me NOW!
I'm ******* bleeding from my wrists!
I have no remorse.
I can't ******* sleep no more
Can't even hug my father.
What am I gonna do now...?!
Nov 10, 2018
Nov 10, 2018 at 11:34 PM UTC
Thus now the smell of funky, I'm ****** hyper,
I saw beauty in so many infinitely different hues
(of Purple) I got a kind of wink from you and it truly
Killed off my lonely blues. You say I'm so ******* up,"
Eating, got the munchies for salty, savoury treats, feeling so ****
I'm **** I swear, now rude, I'm on a level "so low" that you "would
Never go," and being so youthful and free, you must punish me,
But do you know what I have got to say?
It sure was a whole lot of harmless childlike fun getting this way!
Aug 10, 2016
Aug 10, 2016 at 2:44 AM UTC