#portray
for badwords
how did you enter my inner streaming?
merely, me, in a momentary, I wrote of
mixed emotes when lying prone next
to a beloved,
but my inner working you invade,
comprehending my thoughts while processing,
in ways I instant recognition their total accuracy,
yet, how could this be, analysis, so close, ***********
and yet methodically betraying the processes
that lived live in on,y my inners, where though shared,
one thought, believed, my disguise would go unpenetrated,
and fear to inquire, how your
insights
can penetrate my
insides,
the very tension that drive me to compose,
the very anxiety that must be creatively disposed,
a poem is my explication, a shedding of sensations,,
and in a calculus of portrayal, you relay me to the
outsiders, in ways that leave me, naked, stumbling,
wondering have I gone too far, or not nearly far
enough, how much should I relay, is there a boundary,
wondering through which aperture, which end,
of the telescope, I should conduct, utilize for my
self-examination
Oct 24, 2025
Oct 24, 2025 at 5:05 PM UTC
My thoughts
They can get scary
It's threats, more often than not, not empty
It's hard to convey what they say
They whisper a fray of cliche self hate with 41 years to work it's way to this level of decay
It's all consuming, engulfing then removing positivity 'til it's so scarce I'm left to pretend mostly
A sparse landscape of depravity naturally
Clear cut to make way for the fear factory
The soul fractures, now solely fear so to ward off lonely I let it stay
Not knowing how to play
Leaves me in the dark on what's at play
My thoughts
They aren't worth a penny
My two cents is free
I'd pay you to take them all completely
Is there a chance it gets messy?
Abso-freakin-lutely
But oh what a hero you could be
Imagine it up on a marquee, shining brightly
"Some dumb fuuck, a heros story"
(A family movie)
I'll be the monkey in the middle, come meet me
Come greet me and see purgatory, my state of temporary suffering and predetermined misery
What I'm forced to portray is only done cause I must obey or pay some ******* up penalty
Knowing I am the game and the prey, feeding a self-righteous gluttony
How much more do you want from me?
How much more must I contort for thee?
©2024
Jan 30, 2024
Jan 30, 2024 at 3:35 PM UTC
Obviously
No one needs
Special devices to
Focus somewhere
In the unknown
And get lost
Gaze into the eyes
Of beloved
For a little more
And find
The entire universe
So much to offer
Aug 25, 2020
Aug 25, 2020 at 7:00 AM UTC
It was a sweltering sunny day on Sunday
Sitting on the wooden chair behind the Window
Painting the canvas & realizing that She's In thought of one
As if that one could portray like a Rainbow,
So that,
She tries hard
In good faith
If only her attitudes cling
Even to the small things!
Jul 23, 2020
Jul 23, 2020 at 10:50 AM UTC
I don't write poetry,
I just portray my love for you through these words.
Jul 14, 2019
Jul 14, 2019 at 11:59 AM UTC
If you peer into my heart
Completely you'd understand
How I care about your soul
I truly miss your hand
I you borrow my irrational brain
The one obsessing over you
You would discover your presence is my escape
The past haunts all I do
There is burning through my veins
Too much you and your essence
Wish you owned the same skeleton
You would feel I'm not happy in your absence
Nothing what it appears to you
I have made sure of that
Going through familiar motions
Stability only an act
I cannot be as strong as I want to
Not allowed to show real dismay
I force a smile to portray a happy face
Can't live this charade one more day
Jun 14, 2019
Jun 14, 2019 at 4:19 PM UTC
Darling
Even a single rose can
Portray a beautiful picture
As you do.
May 24, 2019
May 24, 2019 at 6:41 AM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
Beauty in the mist,
lights are sparkling,
And on earth your little dreams come crashing down like
project apartments,
while they let us lay in fear,
they make money off black inmates,
then the public sees that **** and think
that's all we're good for is crime and hate,
what did the president say?
say hes gonna make america great?
Man you ain't **** a good job,
Are you even trying anyway?
thats another display of hate?
bet you people regret it,
and there no resets,
gonna have to take it in and embed it,
we might be heading for a fake world war,
don't hear it cause I said just research it,
Guess that's why I wanna float on to another world,
I honestly think that they make God to have these strict
rules when in reality he really wants all of you up there,
aka high chair,
aka ladder,
aka stairwells express,
aka the life after.
Jul 11, 2017
Jul 11, 2017 at 10:51 AM UTC
How can you know me,
When you've only seen my skin
There is not way
I could possibly portray
More than a distorted fragment
Of the twisted universe
That resides inside my head.
I try my dear,
Oh how hard I try!
But it is futile you see,
For how can I form words
To convey who I am
When I myself
Do not even understand
Who I Have Become.
Mar 21, 2017
Mar 21, 2017 at 3:35 PM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
Sweet embrace choosing like the holy Grail,
Let the rain fall , my soul is not for sale,
Not really fun when you burn in hell,
Demons talking to you like fresh meat in jail,
Citrus feeling minds with all things not from earth,
Drawn to a love no certain than a common worth,
Even since you been a mistake on the day of your birth,
Suicide is something you don't really wanna blurt,
Nearing to the end like do you see a vision?
It was pleasant all before , don't bring any tension,
Envisioning a utopia, when they buried ya,
Riding in a silver Toyota, in a frozen tundra,
If the kitchen knives don't drop,
Dreamt of this your whole life, now you can't stop,
Don't know how I missed this part of agony , it was a tragedy,
It's your face they'll crop,
Red doors open when you see the error of your ways dying like
Obese guy laughing at athletes,
It'll take you two whole lifetimes just to get under my skin and walk
Over me,
But you are below me , I'm more of a man than any ignorant demon would
Ever Portray,
The taste of these and the taste of those will leave me immortal,
I won't die today.
Dec 9, 2016
Dec 9, 2016 at 10:37 AM UTC
I sketch a face
strong of bone
'tis my love
'tis my own
planes of cheek
line of jaw
insistent flesh
sinews raw
something female
in your long curls
but it's plain
that you like girls
I consider
as I mix the paint
I wish to render,
captivate
your sweet fleshtones
rich and warm
The tan quality
of arm
mixing pink
burnt umber, gold
I use brushstrokes
deft and bold
a touch of green
'round your eye's fire
black pupils swollen
with desire
chestnut hair
and eyes of blue
I have finally
captured you
won't put this painting
on my wall
'nor place it in
an attic small
I'll place it in
my heart's museum
a room where
I will always see him
he'll be near
I'll bring him hence
always in remembrance
in him life
I will embue
he is the imagery of
YOU
SoulSurvivor
(C) 4/10/2016
Apr 11, 2016
Apr 11, 2016 at 11:11 AM UTC
When put to words
They do not feel the same.
When said out loud,
Come across as burned out flames-
They seem as somewhat distorted,
Not what You see inside,
Rather concealed and tamed,
The intensity not quite portrayed,
On the equivalent high tide.
Jun 11, 2015
Jun 11, 2015 at 8:29 AM UTC
Age, a concept, we're doomed to portray,
to judge our virtues, which year is best,
We'll hang it and proclaim each doorway,
and **** it to hell, when the soul has to rest.
Aug 15, 2014
Aug 15, 2014 at 10:44 AM UTC