#polaropposite
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It means nothing because it is only a group of letters
It means something because a name names a real thing
It means permanent because we don't name what will soon go away
It is the number 6
It is graphite on a plain white backdrop
It represents all my memories,
Every night I swim through
Every day I face
It represents recollections of people
Whose names fill those memories
Represented by their own names and their own sets of memories
People who are teaching me freedom and trust
Like when I let Polar Opposite have my heart
And KRD have my secrets
To keep
It means I am a person of memories
But it is also whatever you dream of when you hear it
Feb 9, 2015
Feb 9, 2015 at 6:06 PM UTC
Some one should have told me not to go this far.
At the first stages of this obsession, It was just the same
Just the same as any pre-teen curiosity
I was a curious little one, I suppose.
But as usual, I have to work for what I want,
Nothing ever comes easy
But I suppose I like it that way
Or I did
I wanted this
Wanted it so badly
Just like any other human
I wanted to be special
How disgustingly selfish
I wanted the titles
The magic
"Witch,
Psychic,
Magic,
Medium"
I read the books
I tried and tried
And then I fell in love
I guess that was the key
I got what I wanted
Now all I have to do is protect it.
**But no kid should have to suffer through this
Cry at night because the world is so pointless
Hate being human so much**
**I never thought
That all I would long for
Is to be selfless
To love unconditionally
**No matter how hard I fight
I will always be
A *selfish
Hateful
Lusting
Malicious
Worthless
Pointless human
Just like everyone
Living life for their own satisfaction
Nothing else***
*I hate myself.
I want to stop existing.
I want to go back to blissful ignorance.*
I am so ashamed
I should have known
I cannot control human nature
**I am so ashamed
That I am so weak
I can't control my desire to be special
Or my "dark side"
Or admit that that dark side is just a figment
So people will pay attention to me.
Jan 2, 2015
Jan 2, 2015 at 11:49 PM UTC
I'm addicted to
Mourning
Laughing
Crying
Colors
Music
Him
Love
Poetry
Books
Imagination Situations
Stars
Dreams
Nightmares
Thoughts
Dec 16, 2014
Dec 16, 2014 at 11:32 AM UTC
Your warming touch
Penetrating stares
Filled with such
Love and care
I lose myself
I'm out of sight
This I have felt
This freezing night
I met your gaze
*I'm filled with Light*
In a daze,
But that's alright
I fight to keep
My heart from Pounding
Breath from Sounding
Feet from Fleeing
Body from Freezing up
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 3:52 PM UTC
Do you see it yet?
the you inside of me?
or have you seen it all along?
Making you want to destroy me, and leave you
I saw it so long ago
the me inside of you
he was the reason we didn't get along
Making me want to destroy myself, and leave you
You destroyed yourself though
leaving me all alone
now i feel like half of a person
Thank you for making the sacrifice, and bless you
I feel like a heel
knowing now, that the other half of me is out there
in a parallel world, with a parallel mind
Walking by myself, looking for you
just so i can find me
Oct 12, 2021
Oct 12, 2021 at 10:34 PM UTC
Leave me alone,
Even though you say you love me,
"Together forever," yeah right, even in the heat of things I knew this was coming
Meddle with my heart again, I promise you're slowly killing me
Every person who looks at me sees a half, thanks to you
Give it up baby, before I change my mind 'cause I don't wanna love you anymore
Oh it makes me sick thinking of what's gone on between us
Dec 10, 2014
Dec 10, 2014 at 3:22 PM UTC
-You impress me in so many ways
No, the only thing that impresses me now days is your closed mind and your closed imagination
-You never intend anything bad; you're pure hearted
Sure, Unless it's an authority figure in your way, and with your nasty comments you aren't pure
-You never give up on the things that count
Except grades and morals, not to mention my beliefs.
-You're modest, smart, funny, a good talker, and a great person. This is why I love you unconditionally as a human being.
**You're an idiot most of the time, I can't text you for 5 minutes without getting bored, but I remember how I loved you.
-You're polite, not critical unless you need to be
To me, at least
-You have a sense of humor
-You're not fake and you don't pretend to be what you're not
-You own up to your mistakes
Jan 15, 2015
Jan 15, 2015 at 8:16 PM UTC
I feel
A bit
Narcissistic
Right now
But I'll go on
Anyways
I'm so over
Thinking of Polar
And playing these stupid games
It's too bad for him
But he needs to see
I'm living a life
And I need to be free
Dec 4, 2014
Dec 4, 2014 at 11:46 AM UTC
Why should I tell you my secrets
Why should I impart you with dreams
You don't give a ****
Unless I throw a fit
And even then
You never remember.
Dec 8, 2014
Dec 8, 2014 at 10:55 AM UTC
I wish
People gave
**Two *****
One ****
A ****
I know
If I was dead
You wouldn't miss me
Two bits
And if you cared,
You're out of luck
Your heart can't hold me
I'm like water
Through sand
Dec 10, 2014
Dec 10, 2014 at 3:56 PM UTC
How I love your company
Love sitting here, just you, just me
In holding me you set me free
And in your arms I'm only me
Nov 16, 2014
Nov 16, 2014 at 6:06 PM UTC