#poland
I. A City of Forgotten History
You do not shine, you remember.
Your bricks still hum beneath the paint,
their red worn thin as a monk’s sleeve.
The cranes claw upward, tired of grief,
but the dust keeps falling like unfinished snow.
They call you ruin, but they lie.
You are memory refusing renovation—
a sentence the architects cannot rewrite,
a mouth still tasting ash from a century’s fire.
Every wall a lung, each breath another ghost
sighing through cracked enamel windows.
I walk your corridors of soot and grammar,
reading what’s left between translations.
Here the new men come with their blueprints,
their sterilized optimism, their disinfectant dreams.
They think forgetting is progress,
that silence can be paved.
But the cobblestones speak when it rains;
the gutters remember what ran red.
And still you rise, not proud, not pleading—
only persistent, the way rust endures
where polish fails.
II. The Honest Lover
You never made promises, only coffee gone cold.
The morning after is your truest hour—
no curtains drawn, no careful apologies,
just daylight pressing its thumbprint on the dust.
We share the quiet of survivors,
two clocks still ticking out of habit.
Your streets smell of metal and rain,
mine of memory and mistake,
and somewhere between them — love,
if love can live without adornment.
You do not ask to be adored.
You stand there, hair uncombed,
eyes the color of industry and fatigue,
and I believe you.
Belief is rarer than beauty now.
There is mercy in the ordinary,
in the dishes unwashed, the walls unpainted.
I can trust what does not pretend.
Your pulse against my palm,
the city breathing slow beneath its scars—
that is enough.
III. The Graves Speak
Across the street the earth is crowded.
Names erode like salt on skin,
dates reduced to breath and lichen.
Some stones still speak in Hebrew,
some in silence.
Others were never marked at all.
No one comes for spectacle.
There are no tickets, no plaques,
only grass,
and the patience of the dead.
I walk between them quietly,
uninvited but not unwelcome,
their absence louder than my shoes.
The wind rearranges petals,
small offerings to impossible memory.
Each grave a door that never shut,
each unmarked mound a warning.
They lie beneath the modern noise—
the tram, the radio, the soft denial
of a city learning to forget politely.
But still, the ground remembers.
When it rains, the water carries whispers,
and I swear I hear them say:
We are the sentence you still live inside.
IV. The Child of Conflict
I was born from the noise after bombs.
My blood keeps two alphabets, two silences.
One learned to pray while the other knelt in smoke;
both survived by accident and argument.
I am the beast that carries its own making,
a cart of bones pulled by history’s hand.
Violence wrote my lineage in ink that stains—
love was the footnote, peace the errata.
From Russia’s frost, from islands of ash,
from a continent that measured mercy in ruins,
I arrived American — the empire’s afterthought,
a passport printed in amnesia.
Yet I walk with their breath in mine.
The persecuted taught me patience,
the victors taught me how to forget.
I have inherited both lessons
and spend my life unlearning each.
Call me contradiction:
a wound that tends its own infection.
Still, I carry what they dropped—
the hope that memory, if spoken,
might heal more gently than silence.
V. The Global Forgetting
We forget in comfort and in haste.
We forget with screens glowing blue over our faces,
our thumbs rehearsing oblivion.
We forget the treaties, the trenches,
the names carved shallow to fit more names.
We forget that progress was meant to serve mercy.
We forget mercy.
We forget the smell of bread shared in fear,
the way a stranger’s hand once saved a life
for no reason but defiance.
We forget in pixels,
in hashtags of remembrance that last an hour.
We forget because remembering bruises the ego.
We forget because amnesia is cheaper than apology.
Poland forgets, America forgets,
the world edits its own obituary for clarity.
Every nation hires new narrators,
smoother voices for the same mistakes.
The forgetting is polite now,
marketed as modernity,
sold with a subscription plan.
The children learn history like wallpaper—
a pattern, not a warning.
And I, too, am guilty—
I look away when it burns too long.
But the graves across the street
still whisper through the data storm:
You are not innocent; you are next.
VI. Who Are We When We Can’t Remember?
Who are we
when the mirrors go blind,
when every scar is airbrushed into skin?
Who are we
without the rust,
without the names beneath our feet?
Who are we
when memory is only a story
told by those who cleaned the blood?
Who are we
when the voice that warned us
has been translated out of existence?
Who are we
but the next forgetting,
waiting for a name?
VII. The Hope in the Ugly
Hope lives in what refuses polish.
In rust that keeps its orange pulse,
in brick that bleeds beneath the rain,
in faces too tired to lie.
I have seen the future try to shine—
chrome facades, plastic suns,
the sterile gods of progress humming in LED.
They forget that the first light came from fire,
and fire remembers ash.
Let the city stay imperfect.
Let the walls show their scars like medals.
Let art stink of hands and hunger,
of what it cost to stay alive.
Ugly is only honesty without translation.
The wound becomes the window
when we stop pretending it is gone.
I am septic embodied,
a child of ruin choosing mercy.
The graves have taught me gratitude,
the city has taught me grace.
If we must carry the past,
let it stain our palms.
Let the living remember aloud,
so the dead can rest at last.
You do not shine, you remember—
and I am learning how.
Oct 30, 2025
Oct 30, 2025 at 11:23 AM UTC
Nothing changed,
Their world hasn’t been rearranged.
The children still go to school.
One of them is dressed uncool.
Mourning, only wearing black,
There is no way back.
Another kid comes in—
laughs and mutters: **** it! we never win.”
There is a boy in the hallway,
Crying because he doesn’t get a say.
Karol Tadeusz Nawrocki is now,
THEIR president,
THEIR leader,
THEIR ruler,
THEIR FATE.
They lost.
They heard Magdalena Agnieszka Biejat—
her name sadly couldn’t make it.
Rafał Kazimierz Trzaskowski?
another face on the losing ballot.
PiS won,
but at what cost?
A corridor of silent tears.
A playground where laughter dies.
A future stolen from poor kids.
Jun 2, 2025
Jun 2, 2025 at 12:44 PM UTC
She cannot vote
She’s just fourteen
Others decide who keeps the country afloat
Her voice unheard, her face unseen
She will turn eighteen soon
No time to snooze
Whether she is dutch or votes in June
How could you ask a teenager to choose?
She is Polish. She is Polish. I am.
You have your marches with OUR flag
But you don’t give a ****
About us. Just go and brag.
That flag—it’s mine too.
Red and white,
Light.
But it’s the only one
Navy with yellow stars,
It’s ours.
May 31, 2025
May 31, 2025 at 5:50 AM UTC
The day begins with a friendly voice,
a companion unobtrusive
plays that song that's so elusive
and the magic music makes the morning mood.
A rider hits the open road,
there is magic at his fingers
for the spirit ever lingers,
undemanding contact in his solitude.
Invisible airwaves crackle with life.
Bright antenna bristle with the energy.
Emotional feedback on timeless wavelength.
Bearing a gift beyond price, almost free.
A familiar song plays,
and he starts thinking to himself:
It was a long, long time ago, wasn’t it?
I can still remember how that music used to make me smile.
And I knew if I had my chance
that I could make those people dance,
and maybe they'd be happy for a while.
But February made me shiver
with every paper I'd deliver,
bad news on the doorstep
I couldn't take one more step.
I can't remember if I cried
when I read about their widowed brides,
but something touched me deep inside
The day the music died.
I see the bad moon a-rising.
I see trouble on the way.
I see earthquakes and lightnin'.
I see bad times today.
There's a bad moon on the rise.
So bye-bye, Miss American Pie.
Drove my Chevy to the levee but the levee was dry.
And them good old boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye
singin', "This'll be the day that I die,
this'll be the day that I die."
They’re modern-day warriors
mean, mean stride.
Today's Tom Sawyers
mean, mean pride.
Though their minds are not for rent.
Don't put them down as arrogant
their reserve, a quiet defense
riding out the day's events.
And what you say about their company
is what you say about society.
Catch the mist, catch the myth
catch the mystery, catch the drift...
“Who are you?”
The tap drips,
the rider finishes his whiskey,
“I've looked under chairs,
I've looked under tables,
I've tried to find the key
To fifty million fables.
They call me The Seeker.
I've been searching low and high.
I won't get to get what I'm after
'til the day I die.”
They look at each other, then back at him,
“Who? Whaddya here for?"
He turns his glass upside down,
slams it on the bar
and says on his way out,
“I like smoke and lightnin'
heavy metal thunder
racing with the wind
and the feeling that I'm under.”
He gets his motor runnin',
heads out on the highway,
looking for adventure
in whatever comes his way.
Yeah, darlin' gonna make it happen.
Take the world in a loving embrace.
Fire all of your guns at once
And explode into space.
Like a true nature's child
we were born,
born to be wild.
We can climb so high,
“I never wanna die.”
Company, always on the run
destiny is a rising sun.
Oh,
he was born, 6 gun in his hand.
Behind a gun,
he'll make his final stand.
That's why they call him
bad company,
and he can't deny.
Bad company
'til the day he dies.
Screams break the silence,
waking from the dead of night.
Vengeance is boiling,
he's returned to **** the light.
Then when he's found who he's looking for
listen in awe and you'll hear him
bark at the moon.
Years spent in torment,
buried in a nameless grave.
Now he has risen,
miracles would have to save
those that the beast is looking for.
Listen in awe and you'll hear him
bark at the moon.
It's all the same, only the names will change.
Every day, it seems we're wastin' away.
Another place where the faces are so cold.
He'd drive all night just to get back home.
He’s a cowboy.
On a steel horse he rides.
He’s wanted dead or alive,
wanted dead or alive.
In the day he sweats it out on the streets
of a runaway American dream,
at night he rides through the mansions of glory
in suicide machines
sprung from cages on Highway 9.
Chrome wheeled, fuel-injected, and steppin' out over the line,
oh, baby this town rips the bones from your back
it's a death trap, it's a suicide rap
he gotta get out while he’s young.
Time keeps on slippin', slippin', slippin'
Into the future.
He wanna fly like an eagle,
to the sea,
fly like an eagle, let his spirit carry him.
he wants to fly like an eagle
'til he’s free,
oh Lord, through the revolution.
But a storm is threatening
The Seeker’s very life today,
“If I don't get some shelter
I'm gonna fade away.
War, children!
It's just a shot away.
War, children!
It's just a shot away.
See the fire is sweepin'
our streets today,
it burns like a red coal carpet
and a mad bull lost its way.”
Out there in the fields
they fight for their meals,
they get their back into their living,
“We don't need to fight
to prove we’re right,
we don't need to be forgiven.”
The seeker feels around for his honesty,
“So, so you think you can tell
heaven from hell?
Blue skies from pain?
Can you tell a green field
from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
Did they get you to trade
your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
Did you exchange
a walk-on part in the war
for a leading role in a cage?”
“There must be some kinda way outta here.”
Said The Seeker to his radio,
“There's too much confusion
I can't get no relief.
Businessmen, they drink my wine,
plowmen dig my earth,
none will level on the line
nobody of it is worth.”
Invisible airwaves crackle with life.
Bright antenna bristle with the energy.
Emotional feedback on timeless wavelength.
Bearing a gift beyond price, almost free.
“No reason to get excited.”
The radio, it kindly spoke,
“There are many here among us
who feel that life is but a joke.
But, uh, but you and I, we've been through that
and this is not our fate,
so let us stop talkin' falsely now
the hour's getting late.”
But he knows
that we'll be fighting in the streets
with our children at our feet.
And the morals that they worship will be gone.
And the men who spurred us on
sit in judgment of all wrong,
They decide and the shotgun sings the song.
We'll tip our hats to the new constitution,
take a bow for the new revolution,
smile and grin at the change all around,
pick up our pens and poems,
Just like yesterday,
then we'll get on our knees and pray
that we don't get fooled again.
After this thought, he promises himself,
and any who’s listening,
“Well, I won't back down.
No, I won't back down.
You can stand me up at the gates of hell,
but I won't back down.”
Carry on, my wayward son,
there'll be peace when you are done.
Lay your weary head to rest,
don't you cry no more.
Once he rose above the noise and confusion
just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion.
He was soaring ever higher
but he flew too high.
Though his eyes could see, he still was a blind man.
Though his mind could think, he still was a mad man.
He hears the voices when we’re dreaming,
he can hear them say:
“Carry on, my wayward son!”
He hears! riding off he says,
“Don't stop me now,
don't stop me.
'Cause I'm fighting for my country, fighting for my love.
I'm a shooting star leaping through the sky,
Like a tiger defying the laws of gravity.
I'm a peaceful man who must fight
so I'm gonna go, go, go!
There's no stopping me.
I'm burnin' through the sky,
200 degrees,
that's why they call me Mister Fahrenheit.
I'm traveling at the speed of light!”
There's a place up ahead and we’re goin'
just as fast as our feet can fly.
Come away, come away, if you're goin'
leave the sinkin' ship behind.
Come on the risin' wind,
we're goin' up around the bend.
Bring a song and a smile for the banjo.
Better get, while the gettin's good.
Hitch a ride to the end of the highway
where the neon's turn to wood.
Come on the risin' wind,
we're goin' up around the bend.
In a place he only dreamt of,
where his soul is always free.
Silver stages, golden curtains
filled his head, plain as can be.
As a rainbow grew around the sun
all his stars of love who died
came from somewhere beyond the scene you see,
these lovely people played just for him:
“Green grass and high tides forever.
Castles of stone souls and glory.
Lost faces say we adore you
as kings and queens bow and play for you.
Those who don't believe us,
find their souls and set them free.
Those who do believe and love,
this time will be their key.
Time and time again we've thanked you
for peace of mind.
You helped us find ourselves
amongst the music and the rhyme
that enchants you here.”
Then the door was open, and the wind appeared.
The candles blew and then disappeared.
The curtains flew and then he appeared,
Saying, “don't be afraid.
All your times have come
here but now they're gone.
Seasons don't fear the reaper
nor do the wind, the sun, or the rain.”
We're leavin' together,
but still, it's farewell
and maybe we'll come back
to Earth, who can tell?
I guess there is no one to blame.
We're leaving the ground,
will things ever be the same again?
It's the final countdown,
it’s his final breath,
and with it
The Seeker finds his mark,
“We all hear the call of a lifetime ring,
felt the need to get up for it.
You cut out the middleman.
You got no time for the messenger.
Got no regard for the thing that you don't understand.
You got no fear of the underdog.
That's why you will not survive.”
Mar 15, 2022
Mar 15, 2022 at 8:55 AM UTC
I told her: I know of such a place,
where the cats all come to die.
I asked her: do you want to see it?
She answered: no.
I told her: it's clean and it's important.
I told her: it's bright and it's first.
I asked her: do you want to see it?
She answered: no.
She said it in such a way
that I had to turn away from her.
Ever since then
I am slowly
approaching the exit.
Aug 16, 2021
Aug 16, 2021 at 3:44 PM UTC
Lithuania! My homeland! You are like vigour.
How invaluable you are, only he can figure,
Who has lost you. Today your beauty wholly I view
And seeing, describe it, because I long after you.
Holy ****** who guards Luminous Czestochowa
And shines in the Gate of Dawn! You, who watches over
Strongheld Novogrudok and its faithful populace!
As once you healed me, a child, so miraculous
(When into your care from my despondent mother bid
I lifted my already departed eyelid,
And soon could make my way on foot to your temple's door,
Having gone to offer thanks to God for a life restored),
So too you shall restore us to our homeland's womb.
Meanwhile, may you convey my soul from its longing's gloom
To those aforrested hills, those evergreen meadows,
Stretched wide across the space where the azure Neman flows;
To those vast fields, painted in varicoloured grain-dye,
A landscape gilded with wheat, silver-plated with rye,
Where the runch is amber, and the buckwheat white as snow,
Where like a maiden's blush the red clover overgrows,
And all's interwoven, as if by a ribbon, green
balk, within which a wild pear tree can sometimes be seen.
Aug 11, 2021
Aug 11, 2021 at 4:06 PM UTC
The summer breezed in Kraków field,
The fresh air that lingers in my hair
Watching the nuthatches safely arrived in their bield,
While we are holding our hands sitting on the chair.
At night, we were stargazing
You said, "what a starry night",
Like van Gogh's painting is so amazing
That I light up your world without your sight.
Then, You smiled back at me like how Mona Lisa smiled,
It gives me an impression
And that night my world become wild
I knew that You are my dedication and inspiration.
I need a love that grows
That your sweet and tenderness in my veins flows.
Last time, I made pączki for your birthday,
You're so vivacious
Oh dear, a week is not enough to see you everyday
Your love is contagious
We went to the beach for a night,
That day, You and I collide
You will be forever my knight
Please stay by my side.
Fifth of November, you dressed up like van Gogh,
I stared at you like how Frida kahlo fierce,
Honey, I want you to stay by my side everywhere I go.
I love for a thousand years,
I can't stop thinking 'bout your face,
You can never be replaced.
Our relationship has different strokes,
As I painted our love story in Tatra mountain,
Here, under the oaks,
Dear, No one could ever erase you in my memory nor stain,
Were at the terraces, spending my christmas with you,
The smell of potato pancakes are so nostalgic,
And also the spices that is in the barbecue,
Spending holiday with you is so romantic,
Before the year ends,
We waited to power up the fireworks,
moja miłość, we are more than just friends,
And that's how our love works.
How lovely and amazing,
Now, I'm just reminiscing.
Jan 7, 2021
Jan 7, 2021 at 2:25 AM UTC
tesknie za domu.
Chcę być w domu
gdzie czuję zapach drzew
co jest obok domu,
motyle zaplątały się w moje włosy
ciocia gotuje kotlet schabowy z mizeria,
i ciasto
do wielotowie szlismy pieszo, na lody ze swiezymi owocami
takie fajnie mm
gdzie osy latały i zjadły wszystko, co plamiło drewniany stół. :)
Jul 3, 2020
Jul 3, 2020 at 3:04 PM UTC
You’re a disembodied voice
only appearing in mirrors
like the Candyman.
Sometimes I look into the mirror
and say your name three times
then finish jerking off.
Jun 24, 2020
Jun 24, 2020 at 1:55 AM UTC
Sonnet: The Ruins of Balaclava
by Adam Mickiewicz (1798-1855)
loose translation/interpretation by Michael R. Burch
Oh, barren Crimean land, these dreary shades
of castles―once your indisputable pride―
are now where ghostly owls and lizards hide
as blackguards arm themselves for nightly raids.
Carved into marble, regal boasts were made!
Brave words on burnished armor, gilt-applied!
Now shattered splendors long since cast aside
beside the dead here also brokenly laid.
The ancient Greeks set shimmering marble here.
The Romans drove wild Mongol hordes to flight.
The Mussulman prayed eastward, day and night.
Now owls and dark-winged vultures watch and leer
as strange black banners, flapping overhead,
mark where the past piles high its nameless dead.
Adam Bernard Mickiewicz (1798-1855) is widely regarded as Poland’s greatest poet and as the national poet of Poland, Lithuania and Belarus. He was also a dramatist, essayist, publicist, translator, professor and political activist. As a principal figure in Polish Romanticism, Mickiewicz has been compared to Byron and Goethe. Keywords/Tags: Mickiewicz, Poland, Polish, Balaclava, Crimea, war, warfare, castle, castles, knight, knights, armor, Greeks, Rome, Romans, Mongols, Mussulman, Muslims, death, destruction, ruin, ruins, romantic, romanticism, sonnet, depression, sorrow, grave, violence, mrbtr
Jun 13, 2020
Jun 13, 2020 at 8:56 PM UTC
Ragged, flimsy, thin, spotted card.
Creased with the tales of time.
Jaws equipped for a blow,
Ears higher than the mouth, just as God placed them.
Face structured like stone,
On the narrow shoulders of a boy, we lean.
And of all the 'siła' endowed to our name,
The windows gently lead to the soul inside.
Carry, drag, and crawl.
But never let an utter of hardship leave thy chest.
Like a ‘Schnadel’,
More gold surfaces, as time does what it does.
"Spread your wings as I have told you,
God bless you, I love you."
Love from 'Polska' is different than words,
More doing than talking, build a house like the birds.
Stay true to 'Wiara' like a true ****** would,
John Paul set example, follow, do good.
"Fight like you’re dying, please lose the sad frown,
‘cause you can’t let the ******** get you down."
What a name you uphold,
Humble pride that is shown,
And like a good yellowhammer,
'Papcio' always returns home.
Sep 11, 2019
Sep 11, 2019 at 11:06 PM UTC
Once upon a time and tide
When many trees grew tall and wide
And sunny days were snuggly warm
When people walked with happy face
And giggle mouth among the ferns
And shrubs and lavender
And hollyhock and hunnysuckle
When all the light was dappled
When bellies were pie-appled
And hunnytree was for hunnybee
And daisies gently stroked our knees
And buttercups were twelve foot three
And mushyrooms turned upside-down
Made lovely boats for sailing round
The lake on a summers day
Oh once upon a time and tide
When many trees grew tall and wide
In wintertime the Leshy died
Or so it seemed to those indoors
Who'd forgotten how to walk
Because come the spring
The woods shall ring
With the laughter of the Leshy
They never die, just return anew
To make the forest sing
Oh once upon a time and tide
Oh once upon a time and tide
Leshy looked like me and you
Except of course their skin was blue
And their hair was of a greenish hue
Which hung in matted locks it grew
Oh once upon a time and tide
Oh once upon a time and tide
The Leshy walked on earthly mother
Guided by their heavenly fathers
Drawn along by sista moon
And the secrets of the stars
and once upon a time and tide
when many trees grew tall and wide
when everybody lived outside
then everyone was Leshy
Oh once upon a time and tide
Oh once upon a time and tide
Now migration paths have all but gone
To people who decide what's wrong
Who make the laws for standing still
And legislate which slaves may ****
Oh once upon a time and tide
Oh once upon a time and tide
Now every where’s a prison coz it has a door
And the closest place to heaven is lying on the floor
Outside of doors
Inside the world
Inside your head
The softest bed
Where you can lie
And learn to fly
And float and fall
And remember it all
And remember it all
Oh once upon a time and tide
Oh once upon a time and tide
When many trees grew tall and wide
And everyone lived outside
And buttercups were twelve foot three
And we were children you and me
And all were children you must agree
That there never was any "poverty"
Till lazybones invented "property"
Plus building houses and staying put
And chopping trees and hoarding loot
Till there's nothing left that looks like wood
There's no out side
Its inside out
And upside down
And back to front
So there's nothing better left to do
Than swap your shoes and take your cue
Then turn your clothing inside out
And show your labels as you shout
For more and more of less and less
And more and more of less and less
Means less and less for evermore
And no more trees means no more bees
And no more bees means no more seed
And no more seed means no more home
And no more home means you and me
Have got to see
If you want to live with trees
Then a nomad you must be
If you want to live with trees
Yes a nomad you must be
If you want to live with trees
And if you want to see the trees
Grow tall and strong and wide
You'll have to learn to live outside
And once upon a time and tide
When many trees grew tall and wide
Your giggle face you'd never hide
Your chuckle tum will ever show
So everyone shall ever know
That inside out is where you are
And life outside is best by far
And happy on the outside
Means happy on the inside
Oh once upon a time and tide
Oh once upon a time and tide
Jun 6, 2019
Jun 6, 2019 at 1:04 PM UTC
Over Silesian mountains
Somewhere beyond black seas
There is a forgotten dream
Conjuring visions of peace
Go your own way, go now, go
You are meant to lead, not follow
Walk on, fly by, sail ashore
To the land that you adore
Go your own way, go now, go
You are meant to lead, not follow
Walk on, fly by, sail ashore
Go your own way, go now, go
Many lives faced the dream
More of them fade to black
But in the eyes of the eagle
There is no turning back
Go your own way, go now, go
You are meant to lead, not follow
Walk on, fly by, sail ashore
To the land that you adore
Go your own way, go now, go
You are meant to lead, not follow
Walk on, fly by, sail ashore
Go your own way, go now, go
Their hearts are worn on sleeves
Determination so earnest
Merely calm before the storm
Quiet before the Tempest
Go your own way, go now, go
You are meant to lead, not follow
Walk on, fly by, sail ashore
To the land that you adore
Go your own way, go now, go
You are meant to lead, not follow
Walk on, fly by, sail ashore
Go your own way, go now, go
Inside the city walls
The static is meant to frighten
Those who await the call
In the echoes of the siren
Go your own way, go now, go
You are meant to lead, not follow
Walk on, fly by, sail ashore
To the land that you adore
Go your own way, go now, go
You are meant to lead, not follow
Walk on, fly by, sail ashore
Go your own way, go now, go
There are many roads to follow
Some of them are painted red
Yet as long as we march on
No one can declare us dead.
Mar 24, 2019
Mar 24, 2019 at 5:29 PM UTC
Things are hard in this fazy
Coz this fantasy is hazy
The love I express is crazy
More because I didn't get any of it razy
And now I get pulled being so lazy
The whole world seems so glazy
Oh, I'm trapped here - this place is mazy!
But I shall now be pacjent
Coz this love is so true
The way she's here, she'll stay
More because she loves me realnie
And now I hope that it blooms
My world and her world too
Oh, I want her here - her love is my Zahir!
My lover is very plochy
Coz she's very simple
The ideal match I've wanted
More because she's so wozniacki
And now I know what love is
My Lover loves me too
Oh, I have her now - I want her forever!
Dec 17, 2018
Dec 17, 2018 at 11:31 AM UTC
Panic.
The final sound of the door being locked from outside.
Mothers crying for children. Children crying for Mothers.
Hundreds of people shoving you into corners trying to reach loved ones.
A young boy falls to the floor, the mother watches him being trampled, unable to move, unable to breathe.
My lungs are screaming for air.
Where? Why?
Fear.
Stumbling into an unknown darkness.
The fear of falling asleep and never waking up.
Contemplating whether death is better than this.
The terrifying crack of a shotgun.
A silence howling with anxiety.
The beating of the engine counting down minutes perfectly synchronised with my heart.
The lady next to me has her eyes closed, I shake her, silently praying for her to be asleep, she doesn’t stir.
Despair.
I’ve lost track of time, two days, three days, a never ending eternity?
Death surrounds me, trying to pull me in to envelop me, it’s so hard to fight, so easy to welcome.
I am surrounded by people, but have never felt so alone.
We are running on animal instincts, whatever food we have we don’t share.
On this train, good morals ****
Agony.
The heat, the stifling heat. It is dizzying, nauseating.
The air is too thick to breathe, to live.
There is an overpowering stench, caused by the heat, the absence of a toilet and death.
There is not much space, but what space there is, is filled by a suffocating heat, a choking smell and burning grief.
Pain is soaring through my veins, a toxic predator pouncing on every fibre of hope in my exhausted body.
Embarrassment.
They have reduced us to animals.
I am embarrassed, embarrassed of my hygiene, embarrassed of my inability to do anything, embarrassed of my selfishness.
Embarrassment is no worse than ****** as when a person is embarrassed they wish to be dead.
It is emotional homicide.
Exhaustion.
I am so tired.
My body is crumpled, being held up by others, some dead, some wishing to be dead.
At first I was focused on surviving, my body was fighting, but now I’m too tired to fight.
My hunger is now just a numb aching, but my thirst seems to be pounding every cell in my body, a constant beating.
I am tired of crying, tired of praying, tired of hearing other people’s cries, tired of hearing other people’s prayers.
Hope.
I hear a voice, singing.
A mother to her child.
The sweet sound of her voice seems to dissolve the clouds of pain and misery hanging over us.
Another voice joins in, a man’s voice.
Two more people join in; gradually the whole carriage starts to sing, united.
I join in grasping for the shreds of energy I didn’t think I had.
We sing louder and louder, our voices drown out the protesting orders to stop.
The train slows to a stop, and the doors slide open.
I breathe, and for the first time in too long, my lungs are satisfied with the oxygen that reaches them.
As our bodies rush out of the carriage, still singing, I am filled with a new sense of hope that whatever is coming next couldn’t possibly be worse than what I’d just been through.
Could it?
Aug 17, 2018
Aug 17, 2018 at 7:03 PM UTC
_1981_
They came in like diseased eagles; mutated
forms of those they wore on their chest and
with the change once again in the weather,
the ZOMO swooped in to quell what was
‘wrong’, what would bring them down. They
run in the streets as well as the miners,
running for different reasons and different
aims. I look down, out my window and see
the army helmets littering the street like rats.
Police. Rats.
I could no longer see a difference. My father
went to work that morning. I clutch my doll
knowing the chance of seeing him again is
Miniscule. Poor.
There is no more cereal in the cupboard;
there is no more cereal in the shop; there is
no more shop. The ZOMO set it on fire when the word
Solidarity
appeared in the window.
“We are closing the border for the safety of the People”
Incorrect. Unjustified.
For the safety of You, the Elite.
“Nine killed in mine shooting”
Which side?
Only the ZOMO carry guns.
Fascism. Communism.
I could no longer see a difference
Apr 9, 2017
Apr 9, 2017 at 9:40 AM UTC
They took something out
of a Polski Fiat 126p.
They dragged it in
and plugged it in
while the neighbours' kids
gaped in wonder.
They went well into the night
watching Teleexpress
on the new colour TV in town.
Some kids got bored.
Went down to the playground.
Parents sat on their balconies
looking out for them.
But it was too dark.
They could not see them.
They could not see them.
Dogs scour the remains
of post-Communist streets.
I go to the shop
next to the post office.
Buy a snack.
Read a magazine.
Leave.
We go to the park.
Play some football.
Sit down on the bench.
We sing the Mazurek Dąbrowskiego
and watch the sun set
over grey apartments.
Apr 9, 2017
Apr 9, 2017 at 9:22 AM UTC
Run little Polish boy
Run in your field
Learn of your great land
And what it may yield
Learn little polish boy
Learn how to fight
Soon you will grow up
And protect what is right
Know little polish man
Know about freedom
Go to the foreign land
And do what must be done
Fight now you polish man
Fight for the cause
Even if you might die
They have freedom in their jaws
You fight for America
Right on freedom's side
You fight for what you believe in
As you risk your hide
You make friend with founding fathers
As you fight for their home
You construct an army fortress
To protect them as you roam
When the war is over
they give you riches when you go
But you spend it on freedom
That you've come to know
You give it to a founding father
To give up all his slaves
Then you get on the boat
And face Atlantic waves
Fight now you polish man
Fight for where you where born
Fight hard polish man
Charge at the bleeding horns
You die now old polish man
You can not fight no more
Dead is the polish man
With freedom in his core
This is a Tribute to Tadeusz Kouzico a polish war hero who fought in the American revolution
Jan 10, 2017
Jan 10, 2017 at 2:01 AM UTC