#placeholder - Hello Poetry

the ballot is back, and for the first time, it’s not a "no-decision." it’s a box I didn’t know how to carry, but somehow, we’re moving trophies together. 🏆 leans against the wall, calling her what she is— a district-wide punchline, a "cookie" that’s been sampled by every boy with a ballot and a lack of taste "You can just say she’s a whore," and for a second, the clinical walls of this chamber feel like they’re finally cracking. 🏆 sees the joke for the punchline it is, while 🥭 is out there buying a boutonniere for a girl who treats a **** salute like a casual Friday. 🏆 doesn’t hide behind the word "obligation." he hides behind apathy and teasing until i’m just a girl apologizing for not carrying the weight—not realizing he’s been trying to carry it for me all along. i’m standing in the middle of the floor, and I’ve lost my flow i thought i wanted the orange from the boy with sticky fingers who chose the ***** but now I’m looking at the boy with the legal pad who’s too terrified to choose anything at all. 🏆 isn’t a placeholder I’m using; he’s just a no-decision that refuses to resolve he sits at the judges' table and calls her a ***** with one breath, then stares at his flow with the next— too paralyzed by his own framework to actually sign the ballot. one is loyal to a mistake, and the other is loyal to a legal pad it’s a double-loss, and I’m the only one left standing on the flow. 🏆 has his own "shoulds" sitting at home. a girlfriend who is a line on a legal pad, a pro-con list that feels like a cross-examination I didn't ask to join. he says it’s platonic, but in this league, we know that every word is a tactic until the final round. 🏆’s weighing impacts to see who gives him more speaker points, but I’m not a round to be won- i’m the girl who held him when he cried because i was the only one standing here- now he sees that ballot as a debt, and he's checking how much prep he has left. i’m looking at 🥭 and seeing the "obligation," the "maybe," the girl who is a snack the whole district has sampled —and I feel gross. i don’t even need to say the word, because 🏆 already said it for me it’s a strange kind of whiplash— hearing him call her that with so much certainty, only to watch him hesitate over a three-month-old letter. like he thinks that if he just ruins her, i'll have nowhere to run but him. meanwhile, the boy I actually want stays busy upholding a contract with a girl who is nothing but bad evidence, choosing a six-month-old word over the person standing right in front of him.

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Mar 24

Mar 24, 2026 at 6:02 PM UTC

sd_nerd27

A Boy with Sticky Fingers: i'm taking prep time (3.5)

the ballot is back, and for the first time, it’s not a "no-decision." it’s a box I didn’t know how to carry, but somehow, we’re moving trophies together. 🏆 leans against the wall, calling her what she is— a district-wide punchline, a "cookie" that’s been sampled by every boy with a ballot and a lack of taste "You can just say she’s a whore," and for a second, the clinical walls of this chamber feel like they’re finally cracking. 🏆 sees the joke for the punchline it is, while 🥭 is out there buying a boutonniere for a girl who treats a **** salute like a casual Friday. 🏆 doesn’t hide behind the word "obligation." he hides behind apathy and teasing until i’m just a girl apologizing for not carrying the weight—not realizing he’s been trying to carry it for me all along. i’m standing in the middle of the floor, and I’ve lost my flow i thought i wanted the orange from the boy with sticky fingers who chose the ***** but now I’m looking at the boy with the legal pad who’s too terrified to choose anything at all. 🏆 isn’t a placeholder I’m using; he’s just a no-decision that refuses to resolve he sits at the judges' table and calls her a ***** with one breath, then stares at his flow with the next— too paralyzed by his own framework to actually sign the ballot. one is loyal to a mistake, and the other is loyal to a legal pad it’s a double-loss, and I’m the only one left standing on the flow. 🏆 has his own "shoulds" sitting at home. a girlfriend who is a line on a legal pad, a pro-con list that feels like a cross-examination I didn't ask to join. he says it’s platonic, but in this league, we know that every word is a tactic until the final round. 🏆’s weighing impacts to see who gives him more speaker points, but I’m not a round to be won- i’m the girl who held him when he cried because i was the only one standing here- now he sees that ballot as a debt, and he's checking how much prep he has left. i’m looking at 🥭 and seeing the "obligation," the "maybe," the girl who is a snack the whole district has sampled —and I feel gross. i don’t even need to say the word, because 🏆 already said it for me it’s a strange kind of whiplash— hearing him call her that with so much certainty, only to watch him hesitate over a three-month-old letter. like he thinks that if he just ruins her, i'll have nowhere to run but him. meanwhile, the boy I actually want stays busy upholding a contract with a girl who is nothing but bad evidence, choosing a six-month-old word over the person standing right in front of him.

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is it placeholder or place holder a placeholder is a dash that holds the content my ex used me as a placeholder my singing monsters placeholder was i just a placeholder to fill the hole inside you placeholder - in the bible in the field in the calendar in italiano am i a placeholder for him am i a placeholder for her placeholder vs dream girl placeholder vs stakeholder placeholder in python {} placeholder - business meeting engagement ring disney cruise east of england

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Jun 8, 2025

Jun 8, 2025 at 8:42 AM UTC

leehollowaytowers

Lorem Ipsum

is it placeholder or place holder a placeholder is a dash that holds the content my ex used me as a placeholder my singing monsters placeholder was i just a placeholder to fill the hole inside you placeholder - in the bible in the field in the calendar in italiano am i a placeholder for him am i a placeholder for her placeholder vs dream girl placeholder vs stakeholder placeholder in python {} placeholder - business meeting engagement ring disney cruise east of england

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A placeholder ring Temporary meaning I vow in-between. Hold my spot Til better comes along Who is going to tie the knot. A lady in waiting, Eternity does not come easily Or swiftly. One who seeks a definite answer Needs patience indefinitely. Does Mr. Right Promise all the right things Right now, Enough to keep me hungry? A short-term solution When I dream of a Permanent situation A preview of what is real All I see Is intention to commit, When does forever start If not today?

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Apr 24, 2024

Apr 24, 2024 at 8:44 AM UTC

nicole-bataclan

Breadcrumbs

A placeholder ring Temporary meaning I vow in-between. Hold my spot Til better comes along Who is going to tie the knot. A lady in waiting, Eternity does not come easily Or swiftly. One who seeks a definite answer Needs patience indefinitely. Does Mr. Right Promise all the right things Right now, Enough to keep me hungry? A short-term solution When I dream of a Permanent situation A preview of what is real All I see Is intention to commit, When does forever start If not today?

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Do you ever feel like you’re the one Who always starts the conversation? Like you’re the one people only hang out with because they are bored? Do you ever find yourself wondering what part you play in your favorite person’s life? Do you ever wonder if you’re just a placeholder?? I do... I do...

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Apr 26, 2020

Apr 26, 2020 at 3:51 PM UTC

eitten-s

Ever feel this way??

Do you ever feel like you’re the one Who always starts the conversation? Like you’re the one people only hang out with because they are bored? Do you ever find yourself wondering what part you play in your favorite person’s life? Do you ever wonder if you’re just a placeholder?? I do... I do...

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