#phones
Our bones tied to the bed,
Our will chained to the frame,
Our wanting began to fade
As it withered into the shade.
Yet, facing our heads, inside our rooms,
A cold light loomed
A beacon in the night
Coloured our faces white.
Its hue did call
Again and again
Amidst the neglect, the mold
That gathered in our nests.
Cramped by the mess,
Too sedated to fight,
We abandoned the world
For the light of another.
At our minds it clawed,
Kept our eyes opened
Like a speculum hooked our gaze
And in a daze
Kept us in the haze.
Alone in our lairs,
Connected by air,
We morphed to larvae
Inside our cocoons.
We spent our days
Watching the clock
That, on the corner,
Ticked as we knocked
Thumbs on the letters
That spelled the notes
Of prisoners
Who gripped with lust
The bars of their own cells.
Yet we cursed, we screamed
For answers to our disarray.
Silence was all there seemed,
Yet, inside the screen,
Hundreds of answers
Split us a hundred ways.
I'd read it, I'd see it
Into the light so neat
The reasons for our state
The causes of our fate
Our existence bled the pus
Of their greed and lust,
They, who injected us
With a digital drug
That curved our backs
Forward as we walked.
Our necks stretched
As if trying to syphon
Pixels from reality,
Pixels from the trees,
Pixels to fill the cavity
They drilled inside our heads.
Like snails that crawled the rust
And left their slime across the dust,
Our lives moved slow
As we struggled to grow.
Their good word, their trust...
Like coins they'd toss
At us, tramps, workers,
Whipped by day
Hooked by night.
And into the light we'd ******
Our heads and our hearts
Fattened by the stream
That fed our ruin
An umbilical cord
That kept us alive
Comatose.
Apr 24
Apr 24, 2026 at 7:52 PM UTC
Googled a bit, man I feel smarter
Spray can painting, operation of a lumber yarder
It showed everything, from shopping to the Walmart farter
How to be you, where to use cream of tarter
Google is so smart, it always answers back
Even us old folks don’t mind giving it a wack
Once we learn to point and click enough
We can actually remember a whole lots of stuff
Google got pictures, more shopping and life advice
All at our fingertips, isn’t that so nice
If you don’t get it, you can always ask twice
AI tightens its grip, now we’re in a smart vice
Google me this and search for all that
Sit in your chair and research why your fat
Learn to tie your shoes, how to wear a hat
Check out funny videos of some **** cat
Google didn’t help Papa talk to his friends
He didn’t need cell phones, dots and dashes he sends
Mamaw never used it to know how to make ends
Now we just all believe, whatever posts then trends
p.s. I” HAVE TO” use it all the time, that’s why I can write ***** about it.
Aug 15, 2025
Aug 15, 2025 at 1:19 AM UTC
God will return when there's nothing new to see anymore
Right when you're about to dissolve into "all knowing" hubris
You shunned all experiences you couldn't mindlessly scroll through
So the mission to enrich part of the universal with unique temporality
has ended
Both God and man incapable of judging this as good or bad
Jul 22, 2025
Jul 22, 2025 at 12:03 AM UTC
The nostalgia trap we're in is condensing
all the freedom and choice they'd give us consumers
as they squeeze more profit and
cover for risky revolutionary rumblings
Do we forget the time saving value?
Less commercials, 30 second shorts,
having access to so much at once
We want to say we weren't prepared but
perhaps that's to cover for freedom and individuality
we didn't want
We like freedom to leave your house, to chase
grand destinations, and define ourselves by contemplating
all the people
I am them
this is where I am
Out here we're not apparitions going up and down the stairs
or flat shadows on our picture screens
We had to buy the DVDs
and pay for CDs and magazines
How much of our tastes back then were the result of
avoiding buyer's remorse?
Celebrities don't need to say who they're voting for
but hopefully they embody ideals that move society forward
or at least away from life denying tendencies, restricting freedom
both negative and positive liberty
Alms for freedom at every level
A still well-to-do poor
You sadomasochist fascists just want your big daddy
to punish your brothers and sisters even more than you
and he even lets you watch
Jul 17, 2025
Jul 17, 2025 at 9:17 AM UTC
buzz, buzz
the bees used to sing
tweet, tweet
the birds would call
media does buzz
twitter does tweet
the worthless leader
who's would does crumble
with one critic
to their fragile identity
buzz, tweet
phone, twitter
the old World does know
simplicity has power
gone will it be
just as the bees
Jul 15, 2025
Jul 15, 2025 at 8:55 AM UTC
It's not that I want you gone
I appreciate you
I really do
But it's hard to believe you're sincere
When you're also scrolling through shorts at the same time
Apr 22, 2025
Apr 22, 2025 at 4:53 AM UTC
i press the button, nothing, shake
it, nothing still, press and hold, nothing,
nothing but black screen, try again,
plug it in—where’s my plug?
no plug, no plug, it’s gone and
all that’s left is the darkness…how will
they know? how will they know i’m alive
and i care? how will they survive if I
cannot reply 24/7, 400 days a year? how will
they know i exist and i matter if i cannot remind
them, remind in a buzz and a banner,
remind them that i am still here? just a
few hours but in those few hours i will cease
to exist because i do not exist unless you
see me.
it’s the sound of a city if everyone died,
as empty as pity in pitiless eyes.
Mar 12, 2025
Mar 12, 2025 at 10:20 AM UTC
I renamed him "Were You Sent by Someone Who Wanted Me Dead?"
because the damage didn’t feel accidental.
Now his name sits like a warning—
a lighthouse in reverse,
pulling me toward the rocks instead of away.
The boy who made me feel alive but ruined me
is "Can’t Go Back, I’m Haunted,"
because that’s what he was—
a shadow teaching me how to crave the dark.
Even now, I catch myself looking for him
in rooms I swear I’ve locked.
The one who left quietly got
"Stood on the Cliffside Screaming ‘Give Me a Reason,’"
because that’s what I told myself:
he wasn’t cruel, just lost,
just a plane circling the runway,
never meant to land.
I scroll past his name
and wonder if he’s still searching.
The fling that burned too fast
became "She’s Gone Too Far This Time,"
because I warned him—
I’m no one’s redemption arc.
He wanted fire to keep him warm,
but I only know how to burn.
The boy who was almost enough is
"I’ll Tell You the Truth but Never Goodbye."
His kindness felt like sunlight on bare skin,
but I couldn’t stop chasing shadows.
His name glows softly—
a reminder of the light I couldn’t hold.
Another became "Back When We Were Still Changing for the Better,"
because that’s all we were—potential,
the kind of almost that stays caught in your throat,
a song you never finish writing.
I left him there in my phone,
a name too soft for the edges we’ve grown into,
but sharp enough to remind me
how hope always dies in the details.
There’s comfort in cataloging heartbreaks this way—
turning them into lyrics instead of people,
letting songs hold what I can’t.
I swipe past "Forever is the Sweetest Con,"
"If a Man Talks **** Then I Owe Him Nothing,"
and "Old Habits Die Screaming."
I laugh at my own theatrics
and wonder if they deserve immortality.
If one of them calls,
I’ll watch the name flicker on the screen,
smile at the poetry of it all,
and let it go unanswered.
Because some names
only deserve to live
in someone else’s song.
Dec 27, 2024
Dec 27, 2024 at 2:53 PM UTC
How close we are now,
your face on my screen,
My arm seeking your back,
A kiss, pout, thousand gestures,
Typing texts bestowing wide smiles
and staring screen in hope
to never end this moment,
Miles apart yet so close that
the warm breath reach me
Soon you exhale, or at least sound
of it,
How gorgeous these inventions are
making lovers life easy,
sighs cut to half, tears reduced to zero.
I thank that human God
who invented the phone,
And glory to all those
shadowed by the mythical ones.
Feb 17, 2021
Feb 17, 2021 at 5:36 PM UTC
Shining bright,
Leaving me
Fooled.
It's a vortex
And it feeds off of my light,
kind to be
Cruel.
It taints and slithers into
Every life's necessities.
Now it wears a crown saying:
"You cannot go on,
You cannot survive
without me!"
It has become
The Judge,
Jury
And executioner
Without
Authority.
It has become
Our only means of
Expressing beauty and
Creativity
In the most perverted of ways
As it tries to
Simulate an alternate reality
Making me
A fool
Who’s Kind to be
Cruel.
Nov 9, 2020
Nov 9, 2020 at 8:22 AM UTC
No Phone, No phone, No phone's today
you have to put your phone away
No looking down at screens all-day
You have to put your phone away
Look up, look out, engage, be free
Without your phone now you can see
See me...
See here and now
Be here and now...with me
Real-life not fake
No phone today
Give it a break
Oct 15, 2020
Oct 15, 2020 at 3:48 PM UTC
THESE GADGETS I DESPISE
TOLD I NEED THEM TO SURVIVE
AS THEY ARE GETTING FLATTER
SO IS OUR MOOD
WHERE IS THE INSPIRATION
NATURE EFFORTLESSLY SHARES
YET DEVICES MUST HAVE
ONE MILLION FEATURES TO CAPTURE OUR
ATTENTION!
FOR ONE SECOND
A CHARGE OF LIGHTNING WOULD CAUSE ME LESS PAIN
YET WHERE IS MY APOLOGY?
SORE FROM THIS TECHNOLOGY
IN AWE OF THIS ENVIRONMENT
STILL, IT'D BE AN HONOUR TO BE STRUCK BY
YOU. MOTHER GAIA
Aug 20, 2020
Aug 20, 2020 at 1:47 AM UTC
I've got numbers that never show.
I'll never see another text
From those asleep in an oak box.
I screenshot them; kept like dead leaves
I hope it never ends
I hope it never .
Jul 18, 2020
Jul 18, 2020 at 3:44 PM UTC
Nobody cares anymore.
Money makes the world go round
Not the orbit of the sun.
The universe doesn’t matter anymore.
They say that we should keep our eyes wide open
But their eyes are glued down
At the screens that feed them information
Whether it is true or false
We don’t know anymore
We just go with it since we know no better.
As you get older
You accept the world
Instead of questioning it like you should.
So many things you could do
But you are cut off from it
Your eyes are blocked off behind the mask.
I wonder how many miles
Our thumbs must have scrolled
On our screens.
“Look at the moon,” they say
“Of course,” they reply but once they sit outside
They are back to scrolling through their phones.
“Slow down,” I want to say
“Everything will be okay.”
But everyone keeps rushing all the same.
They ignore the skies
And instead find their gold
In cheap, plastic, machine-made stars.
Jun 26, 2020
Jun 26, 2020 at 7:41 PM UTC
laying in a bed of wild flowers in a clearing in a wood
calms me
a gentle breeze brings the scent of the flowers
cleansing me
the silent sound of the wood
awakens me
and a flap of a bird, the cry of an animal
heightens me
sunlight breaks through the leaves to
enlighten me
and peace washes
over me
THEN the music from my phone
disturbs me
Apr 24, 2020
Apr 24, 2020 at 5:49 AM UTC
before these buttons strolled
by fingers
or legs
that look like one...
people switch their bones
and lick each others' flesh
they ask questions
as to why nails aren't pink
when it isn't
they laugh
when ****
isn't as loud
as the ones from horses
before these tabs came
it was the sky
that enjoy stares
as if eyes know
battles between busy stars
before these batteries came
people sit too close
to warmth from fire
while their teeth
enjoy the silence
that munch meals
just before bed time
alone
very alone.
Feb 8, 2020
Feb 8, 2020 at 4:49 AM UTC
I look around and all I see
are people staring, not at me
Instead they stare into a void
A small white light
their brains destroyed
This small white light holds evil power
Your mind it can control
The device of reckless, lifeless nothing
So leaving is the soul
Dec 4, 2019
Dec 4, 2019 at 9:27 PM UTC
As the call ended
So did we
Between our phones
Not only the connection broke
But also the hearts,
that were connected as well
Nov 20, 2019
Nov 20, 2019 at 10:31 AM UTC
Technology marches forward,
Never stopping,
Technology marches forward,
Always progressing.
It permeates our homes,
It resides in our pockets,
The big company's own Sherlock Holmes,
Seeing deep within our lockets.
It gets us where,
We want to go,
Through the air,
Or through the traffic flow.
It runs our lives,
Leading us along,
Like bees in hives,
We follow it's rhythmic song.
Technology marches forward,
Not caring for its creators,
Technology marches forward,
As humanities technological dictators.
Nov 4, 2019
Nov 4, 2019 at 2:08 PM UTC
Screen Crack [16]
Jesus!
What the fck,
wait, Jesus, has nothing to do with this,
your hands glued to the latest PDA device,
hands glued along with your eyes,
seems you cling to your PDA for dear life,
like it’s as important as a TAH, what’s a TAH look it up,
it’s a Total Artificial Heart,
you are the “art” in artificial,
since when did Personal Displays of Affection PDAs,
get replaced with Personal Digital Assistants,
no way phones could be the new PDAs I can’t accept that,
oh well I guess it’s the perfect sign of the times,
people used to show affection & kiss in public,
now they don’t even notice & the only kisses given are emojis,
no romance they don’t even hold hands show love or show up,
would rather ********** in silence than deal with this,
& maybe that makes me part of the problem,
see I could go out & try to socialize but I stay inside instead,
& don’t even mind ‘cause most people aren’t worth the stress,
plus it’s been so long since I’ve been in a relationship,
if I met someone I wouldn’t even know what to say anyways,
we replaced Empathy with Apathy eye contact with iPhones,
now we’re all bored Cyborgs & alienated Androids,
we keep avoiding each other instead of enjoying each other, we keep assuming we are annoying each other,
which prevents us from successfully joining each other,
so we effectively self isolate ourselves from one another,
one step closer to an Anti-Social New World Order New Age,
every time we become afraid & walk away instead of engage,
would rather scatter than talk to someone,
in a way that could be construed as rude,
so we just walk-on & ignore every single someone,
even though one of those someones is you,
in the Narcissistic Network of this Sociopathic Society,
where the only certainty is that this cycle of denial is ******
what the fck, totally stuck, mind fckt & ******
into that lil cancer causing PDA your hot little hands hold,
Steve Jobs got cancer,
you think that’s a random freakin’ coincidence,
people that work with electronic devices their whole lives,
get sick & this is not just a few examples of isolated incidents,
it’s not a rumor that consumers get tumors from electronics,
even Stevie Wonder could see how Stevie Jobs got sick,
died in his mid 50’s alone & in bed thin as a stick,
all those billions couldn’t save him,
so what makes you think you’ll survive,
why should I care how you live if you don’t care how you die,
think you’re saving time on that portable electronic device,
but you’re living a lie wasting your life not saving your time,
because no one ever regrets spending less on screen time,
but people often regret not spending more time,
in nature attention undivided with loved ones by their side,
before they die, going to do you a favor, save you the trouble,
of spending your whole life chasing things on a digital screen,
I’m going to quote Steve Jobs’s last words here,
so you can start making changes now before it’s too late.
“I have come to the pinnacle of success in business.
In the eyes of others, my life has been the symbol of success.
However, apart from work, I have little joy. Finally, my wealth is simply a fact to which I am accustomed.
At this time, lying on the hospital bed & remembering all my life, I realize all the accolades & riches of which I was once so proud, have become insignificant with my imminent death.
In the dark, when I look at the green lights, of the equipment for artificial respiration, feel the buzz of their mechanical sounds, I can feel the breath of my approaching death looming over me.
Only now do I understand that once you accumulate enough money for the rest of your life, you have to pursue objectives that are not related to wealth.
It should be something more important:
For example, stories of love, art, dreams of my childhood.
No, stop pursuing wealth, it can only make a person into a twisted being, just like me.”…
See, now you’ve heard it directly from a genius,
so there you go don’t say I didn’t tell you so,
still you hear the final words of a brilliant billionaire,
& instead if take his advice you say “Who cares?”,
& that is actually a serious question, who cares?
Probably not me or you so why would we heed a warning,
no matter how wise the words were that were wrote,
we’re too busy trying to find fake treasures on Pokemon Go,
or read the latest news or scroll the latest posts,
seems all those Apples & Androids, have made us apathetic,
bit the forbidden fruit, in The Garden of Electronic Eden,
**** streaming has replaced actual *** it takes less effort,
exchanged intimacy for IoT, replaced *** with EMFs,
no *********** just internet no farmer’s markets on weekdays,
just products on eBay & freebased sympathy that’s synthetic,
so we don’t feel the vibration of our brothers & sisters,
we just feel the vibration of our phones in our pocket,
we don’t notice the signs of our civilization in decline,
we just notice our phone’s notifications when they go off,
see the more connected we become to the virtual world,
the less connected we become to the actual world,
& I’m having a melt down,
witnessing everyone on their cell phones,
& I want to find a reason to believe in a real person to love,
but I feel like hope is gone & we’re all just lost without a home,
& I’m just as guilty as the rest of us,
‘cause I’m often also lost in the zone on my phone like a drone,
& I’m not religious but maybe we really do need Jesus,
maybe I really do need Jesus,
what the fck, wait,
Jesus, has nothing to do with this,
a whole new generation of users has been created,
through the use of new additions of cell phones & laptops,
& some of the users are as young as 8 years old,
computers are the new & improved evolution of crack rock,
but family’s are so used to their kids using that they just shrug,
even though their kids are so addicted that they can’t stop,
some even enable kid’s addiction by buying them new editions,
cracked screens from dropping your phone,
gives you a minor heart attack,
oh how attractive cancer seems when it’s attractively wrapped,
in the form of an impersonal personalized phone case artifact,
Silver, Gold or Grey, SnapChat is the new black.
What the fck, hands glued to the latest PDA device,
hands glued along with your eyes,
seems you cling to your PDA for dear life,
like it’s as important as a TAH, what’s a TAH, look it up,
look up look up,
you are alive in a body on these beautiful lands,
mathematically a 1 in 400 trillion chance of being born,
you’re literally the most amazing miracle you could ever have!
There’s a whole world out there,
please find someone to get to know & love,
because there’s probably someone right next to you right now,
that’s willing to give you their all & it’s obvious,
all you have to do to see is set down your phone & look up!
If you’d only just look up!
But, you’re too busy playing Pokemon Go to notice love,
I know, we’re part of a 1st World society,
& we all play our part by being passively compliant,
in order to be an accessory to our country’s atrocities,
so we get dressed up with the latest techno accessories,
I know,
you don’t want to think about it too much,
because then you might feel guilty, so you stay out of touch,
keeping your head down like you’re mourning a lost love,
there’s an actual psychological condition for this,
Cognitive Dissonance is what it’s called,
so you stay on your phone, not wanting to get involved,
because it’s easier to simply not feel,
won’t even make eye contact just want to be left alone,
because you’re conditioned to fear anything that’s real,
insecure & scared of the unknown you cling to your phone,
even though,
it’s the things we’re most comfortable with that usually **** us,
cars cigarettes alcohol cell phones,
I’m telling you addiction to technology is a serious illness,
as we begin to decay into a mediated medicated mental illness.
Do you even remember,
what you did on your phone yesterday,
do you even remember,
what you did with your emotions yesterday,
do you even remember,
when the last time was you felt real emotions,
do you even remember,
the last time you did anything to help the world?
What is there left to believe in when nothing feels right?
Feels like,
we are losing touch with everything that makes us human,
emotions experienced in artistic expressions are leaving,
we have no attention span & cyborg robots do most thinking,
as we steadily slip into an artificial abyss remember this,
I Love You,
& it scares you when I tell you,
like all real emotions scare you,
& then I tell you I want to take that phone you hold,
& throw it into the ocean,
& you finally look up from your phone after all this time,
stare me in the eyes glare & say, “How dare you!”,
like you’re defending your phone,
as if it’s a part of your very existence you were born with,
like you’d hate a fellow animated human,
for destroying an inanimate object, that’s the Devil’s trick,
because when we’ve lost all emotions only hatred lingers,
desperate I’ll take hatred over nothing if that’s all that’s left,
& I’m the biggest hypocrite of all,
because I say all this about technology,
but here I am writing these words on this laptop,
& offering advice but not offering apologies,
maybe I’ll really realize someday,
when someone shakes me & wakes me from my digital daze,
either that or when I’m all alone about to go home in the sky,
on that death bed quoting the last words of Steve Jobs,
“Stop pursuing wealth, it can only make a person into a twisted being, just like me…”,
Wow.
Can you hear me now?
No you probably still don’t hear me,
because you’re likely on your phone reading this right now,
your hands glued to the latest PDA device,
hands glued along with your eyes,
seems you cling to your PDA for dear life,
like it’s as important as a TAH, what’s a TAH look it up…
∆ LaLux ∆
poem #16 from THHT3: The Hollywood Hills Trilogy 3
available worldwide here: www.amazon.com/dp/B07XJRBSKD
Sep 18, 2019
Sep 18, 2019 at 8:15 PM UTC
I wanted to say something with some significance urgently,
but like usual, I just bit my tongue & swallowed my words,
washing my words down unwillingly with plural rounds,
of complimentary shots from the open bar,
she didn’t even notice, because, as usual she was,
stuck on her phone, serving it more than it served her,
I wanted to remind her urgently, that I was there,
that she was there as well, that we were there,
I wanted to remind her urgently, to remember the memories,
before they were permanently gone, & forgotten forever,
lost in the sands of time, stuffed in the depths of our minds,
gone like skeletons in closets, faded like colors in sunsets, washed away like sand castles by the sea,
she was only ever there during ***
only then would our souls connect & our eyes meet,
only then would she be present, without interference,
& our *** was the best, no debate, carnal yet caring,
physical yet spiritual, gentle yet rough, selfless yet selfish,
still as good as the *** was, I wanted more,
I wanted more of her, I wanted more of her there with me,
for I felt that all too familiar feeling of impermanence,
that this too would pass, as everything does,
that we too wouldn’t last & that time was our nemesis,
this gave me anxiety & anguish, so bad I wanted to speak up,
but I just clammed up, I bit my tongue, swallowed my words,
& swept all these underlying emotions under the rug,
see we were doing good, good enough to not make a scene,
or at least it seemed, & I didn’t wish to mess things up for us,
didn’t wish to arouse her inner child,
for that child was fierce, that child was a terror,
that child could be sweet but also bitter,
that child was sometimes a dream, but mostly a nightmare,
life is, sometimes a dream, but, mostly a nightmare,
so I didn’t make current waves, I just rode surfer waves,
as we rode in Uber cars, driven by newer slaves,
wanted nothing more for us than a way to escape,
wanted nothing more from her, nothing except her time,
how silly am I, to want the only thing that money can’t buy,
I wanted to say something with some significance urgently,
but like usual, I just bit my tongue & swallowed my words,
washing my words down unwillingly with plural rounds,
of complimentary shots from the open bar,
after a decent amount of time, maybe a few months,
I finally spoke, words which to this day I still regret,
words that would set in motion our end,
even though I didn’t know it yet,
I said,
“You love that phone more than you love me, so I’m leaving!”,
this sentence, like all the most hurtful sentences are,
was made up of a combination of truth, anger, & passion,
was made out of a sense of desperation, hatred, & love,
& I don’t know if you can actually witness a heartbreak,
but if you can, if you can witness & actually recognize it,
then I saw her heart break in that moment,
& it signified the beginning of our end catalyzing,
her heart broke for all the reasons a heart breaks,
she felt betrayed, attacked, misunderstood, & neglected,
she felt she had given me her everything & that I rejected it,
that I’d disrespected it & worst of all felt I didn’t detect it,
there were no tears, there was no explanations,
no reaction, no pleading, no reasoning,
there were only misinterpreted intentions for no reason,
& an escalation of arguments used as excuses for our abuses,
the truth is, I loved her,
more than any girl before, or any girl after,
but you know what they say,
you never really miss what you have until it’s gone,
you never really miss who you have until they’re gone,
you never get a chance to say goodbye once they’re gone,
“c’est la vie” life goes on, even when account’s overdrawn,
morally bankrupt, we broke up, as most couples eventually do,
going our separate ways with severed ties & broken hearts,
each of us holding separate parts of each other’s lies & truth.
We went cold turkey, no calls, no emails, no text.
We didn’t speak for months, still I thought about her every day.
It’s strange how close someone can feel,
even when they are so far away,
it’s strange how far someone can feel,
even when they are right there with you,
sometimes I feel closer to someone, when they are not there,
if you love someone let them go,
the heart only grows fonder with time,
& if they return some day you know that they’re there to stay.
One day, I don’t remember the exact day, I called her,
craving to hear her soft tones in my ears once more,
to my surprise she answered, “Who’s this?”
“It’s me.”, I replied to remind her,
there was a long pause,
“Oh, my Love, it’s been months!” she exclaimed excitedly,
months in this city can feel like years,
“So good to hear from you Babe, can I text you later?”,
the sentence didn’t make sense,
I didn’t desire another text conversation,
I desired to hear her voice, to see her face,
still, it had been months,
& I didn’t want to scare her off with overt emotions,
it’s a strange time when people are scared of love letters,
I wanted to tell her,
that time is passing faster than any of us realize,
that life is too short,
to not spend every living moment with someone you love,
that we should be celebrated as miracles,
not neglected as mistakes to be ignored,
I wanted to say something so bad, but like usual,
I just bit my tongue & swallowed my words,
reminding me of all those nights we’d spent at the bar,
so in order not to startle her I only said “Ok.”,
she said, “Thanks!”, & we both hung up our phones,
thinking she wouldn’t text back, & I’d again be left alone,
to my surprise, she called me that same night,
& confessed she loved my madly,
& that us being together in this world of wrong,
seemed like the only thing that felt right anymore,
so we made a plan, to have dinner the next day,
& every moment in anticipation, felt like forever to wait,
we were to meet at this little bistro on Sunset,
I arrived a bit early just in case & shot her a text,
she texted me back instantly saying she was on her way,
felt as eager sitting there as a high school kid on his first date,
to my shock & surprise she stood me up, at first I was upset,
until I learned that in her defense it wasn’t her fault,
see she’d died in a car crash on Crescent Heights & Sunset,
cause of death a text she was sending me before she crashed,
in that last moment, she’d sent me a text that was never sent, & I later found out when I read it that this is what it said,
“Baby I love you, sorry I’m late, I’m on my way, see you soon.”.
& we’re still waiting,
but now the tables have turned,
now she’s waiting for me to get off my phone,
& come back home.
So I send this message to her in Heaven in hopes it’s received,
“Baby I love you, sorry I’m late, I’m on my way, see you soon.”..
∆ LaLux ∆
Poem #55 from the best selling poetry book
THHT3: The Hollywood Hills Trilogy 3
available here: www.amazon.com/dp/B07XJRBSKD
Sep 17, 2019
Sep 17, 2019 at 11:13 PM UTC
the feeling of emptiness fills my chest
watching it play out on my screen
the sound of laughter echoes
and all i want to do is scream
a simple, "hey, wanna hang?" would've sufficed
but recording the fun we have seems pretty nice
"we were thinking of you the whole time"
you uttered when confronted
such ********
the chills ran up my spine
i hate this feeling
i want it to go away
maybe i just have to start leaving
the ones who hurt me today
Aug 30, 2019
Aug 30, 2019 at 11:48 PM UTC