#perfectionists
if i remember correctly,
you wrote a manual on how to swim
in this sea of disappointments
wading my way on above-me water *****
the energy, the life, the sureness out of me
**** this pressure everyone puts around me
i am naked under currents; don't peak
the water had been dyed pitch black now
the color of doubts
in their eyes they stitch words on my skin
capital letters p, e, r, f, e, c, and t
they decorate me like a diy existence
if i remember correctly,
you wrote a manual on how to drown suffocating-deep into one's sweetest dream
give it to me now
Jul 11, 2017
Jul 11, 2017 at 12:00 PM UTC
I've ******* up, I am ******** up, I can't stop ******** up because I am a ***** up.
Im a perfectionist and a procrastinator, to things I hate so deeply about myself, I've let down so many, myself included.
I'm so angry and frustrated all the time... but I know its all because of me, no one else's fault but my own.
I know I'm the only one who can fix it, who can stop it but I haven't, I can't, I need help but no one can help me, but me.
**** I've ******* up!
Mar 27, 2019
Mar 27, 2019 at 2:37 PM UTC