#partnership
As my body writes with yours
I feel the depths of the underworld
more than the heights of Heaven
that your body survived
before it met mine.
I can tell when the horrors plague your mind
because you don't look at me
when I penetrate you
kissing the pain away
on every inch of your skin,
whispering sweet things to your ear.
So I reverse the roles
putting you on top
and let you vent everything out to me.
Hell hath no fury than your scorn
when you grip my throat,
sinking your teeth into my flesh,
sketching lines on my back, my chest, and my stomach.
When I reach to cup your *******
you catch my hands pressing them into mattress
as you have me watch the beautiful sight
of you climbing the highest point of your ******
without letting me finish.
I don't complain.
I just want you to feel good.
When I'm inside you,
I close my eyes telling myself
to focus only on you
working my hips between your delicious thighs,
careful not to lose the momentum
while questions based on doubt
hang over my head like a dark cloud.
I understand you have your moments
when you're not in the mood
for me to please you.
At the same time I have to wonder.
Is my love, my touch
repulsive? Inadequate?
Is there someone else I should be aware of?
When I'm inside you,
do you see any of those men before me?
Those with and without your invitation?
You bring back to Earth
asking me if I'm okay.
Your hands brushing against my face
like a gentle breeze in the fall.
I want to tell you that I am afraid
of losing you.
But I don't know how to be honest.
I just flip you over
slapping your cheeks pink as a rose,
pulling your hair,
gripping your hips
pounding myself into you
as you claw at the sheets.
You tell me to say I love you.
Being rich would be so easy
for every time I say how much I do.
To make sure you get the hint,
I turn you on your back
holding your legs in the air
hitting that spot
that makes you break the third commandment.
Looking at you in this position
I imagine all the men
who've been in your bed
had you just like this.
Laid down.
But it ends with me.
I pick you up.
Keeping the pieces of puzzle together
with your legs around my waist
carrying your frame against the wall,
pushing us both over the edge,
breaking down the barriers
holding us back from each other.
After all those times
we rocked the boat against the current,
our ship starts sinking.
I deprive my lungs of air
for you to breathe
losing myself at sea.
And you pull me up to the surface
kissing me back to life.
A reminder that our love
is why we're still here.
We lie side by side.
Your flesh and my flesh.
Staring at each other as if it's our first meeting.
Silent, bare, exhausted.
The bedroom smelling like us.
And in that moment I know
with all my being
I got nowhere else to go.
Because where I belong is right here.
Not inside you,
but with you.
And I don't ever want to leave.
Apr 9
Apr 9, 2026 at 9:30 PM UTC
I'll write poetry about the stars in your eyes, because they give me unwavering joy.
I'll write sonnets about the love you give me, just to return it to you in black ink.
I'll stage whole plays and scripts in my sleepless mind, so I don't collapse beneath the butterflies you set loose in me.
You're my inspiration — my spark — the awakening of something luminous and ravishing within me.
You are my muse, the reason I reach into the heavens and pull down angelic words solely meant for you.
You are the pulse of my veins, the flow of life that keeps my thoughts alive to become poetry.
I have existed before you — but never so alive.
I have loved before you — but never this passionately.
I have written before you — but never with a heart that beats for two.
And like that awakening: you rewrote the way I exist.
Feb 25
Feb 25, 2026 at 11:26 PM UTC
If only we had rent
I would not yearn
Nor spur your tones
Promising in the mourn
I’d fear not your voice
Weakly in the naive
Fearing the sorrows
Paid upon the eave
Worrisome sills
Lent, and built of rage
Defiant and tired
Yet, protecting us the same
If only I had time
Longing upon your sighs
I’d speak against your laments
Given only in goodbye
Jan 31
Jan 31, 2026 at 6:05 PM UTC
I try on lives
like thrift store jackets,
like I’m always checking the mirror
for proof I can still become someone new.
Photojournalist,
lifting other people’s pain into a frame
and calling it work.
Navy EOD diver,
learning to be calm
in places that should have broken me.
Triathlete,
turning my body into a stopwatch.
Software engineer,
building logic like a house
I could hide inside.
Executive,
speaking fluent urgency.
Mountain biker,
chasing speed like a confession.
Mountain rescuer,
running straight at the worst moment
of someone else’s life.
Poet,
But we all know poetry is cheating.
Next, sailor.
Because the horizon keeps flirting with me.
Because I keep mistaking restlessness
for a destination.
And the list will go on
because the world keeps offering me costumes
and I keep believing the right one
will finally fit.
I was a husband,
somewhere in that mess.
Like a photo I can’t find
until the house is already burning.
Now I want to be a partner.
A real partner.
Not a checklist.
Not a paycheck.
Not a strong back in a room full of heavy things.
I want to be the person
you don’t have to schedule.
I want to be the place
you don’t have to earn.
Someone who exists with you,
and in you,
while the calendar bangs on the door,
while the phone screams,
while the world tries to auction off our attention
in five second increments.
I don’t know how to keep wearing
all these lives
without leaving the truest part of me
on the floor like clothes I stepped out of.
But I know this.
I choose you
the way I never chose any title.
I choose you
without trying you on.
I’m committed
to returning,
to learning how to stay.
Jan 5
Jan 5, 2026 at 7:44 PM UTC
Rely on me, you say,
like it is as simple as leaning.
Like my body has always been a place
people could rest without falling through.
No, I say.
Rely on yourself.
Because if you rely on me
you might learn my oldest religion:
the prayer that sounds like
please do not need me.
It is not that I do not love you.
It is that I love you so hard
it scares me into survival.
My fear has a megaphone.
It screams:
What if I am not enough.
What if I make a home and then burn it down
by blinking at the wrong time.
What if the only thing I am good at
is leaving first.
I learned to live like a locked door
and call it strength.
I learned to carry my own darkness
and call it freedom.
I learned to swallow the words
before they could become a promise.
And then you show up
with your soft insistence,
your ******* against my ribs,
your face saying,
I see the way you flinch from care
and I am not here to punish you for it.
I would give myself to you.
Bleed for you.
Lay everything on the table
until it looked like a confession.
Because the truth is
I am brave in the way people get brave
when the thing in front of them
finally matters more
than the fear inside them.
You say we should get tattoos that say:
Rely on me.
And I feel my mouth start to form
its familiar no.
But you laugh,
not cruelly,
just accurately.
You change it to:
Rely on we.
Because you know me.
Because you know the difference between
a rescue and a partnership.
Because you are not asking me
to be the whole roof.
Just a beam.
And you, too.
And suddenly my body understands
a new way to stand:
not alone.
Not carried.
Held,
with hands on both sides.
Dec 18, 2025
Dec 18, 2025 at 5:08 PM UTC
We sit closely at the table,
Sharing conversations about nothings
Full of friends and strangers combined,
The band begins to play
Your hand grazes mine,
You stand up tall to ask
I step, stride in gentle procession,
Your hand possessed by mine
You turn to me,
Two equals pressing slightly
Eyed but not staring,
Hungry but not starving
I rest my palm on your broad shoulder,
Feeling your familiar fingers tips gently grasping my hip
Your body whispers to mine,
Pushing it in rhythm
I respond to your queuing,
Touching your face and lips when wanting
Guiding not insisting,
Vulnerable and respected
Two people working together,
Towards a partnership perfected
May 31, 2025
May 31, 2025 at 10:13 AM UTC
To My Love,
We survived.
Through the storms, through the silence, through the ache of not being understood
we are still here. Not perfect, not untouched, but held. By something greater than both of us.
We searched for freedom, both in our own ways, and we didn’t know it then, but the search was the meaning. In that longing, we found God. And in God, we found that we were already whole.
The devil tried to break me. Tried to convince me that pain was my portion. But he didn’t see the strength of the Spirit living in me. Or the quiet, stubborn hope that still lives in you.
We pour into each other, even when we feel empty. And somehow God fills us back up.
We still hope for one another. And that hope? That’s love. That’s grace. That’s us.
I believe in who we’re becoming, not by force, not by fixing but by remembering who we already are in Him.
Apr 15, 2025
Apr 15, 2025 at 11:55 PM UTC
A flower behind the eye
Roots in the skin
Seeking water not spoiled by sweat and tears
The touch of my lover
The softening of thorns for her handling
The shade of branches for her slumbering
I grow gentle in her arms
Under her gaze
I grow further from the ground
Bloom and flourish and shriek for her
A flower behind the eye
Torn from it roots
Settled in a quiet place
Brushed softly behind her ear
Apr 4, 2025
Apr 4, 2025 at 11:48 AM UTC
I love you,
I love you not
I love you
I love y...
Wait a second...
If it's not bipartisan
Honestly
It does not matter how many peddles this flowers got
©2025
Jan 22, 2025
Jan 22, 2025 at 3:17 AM UTC
Our roots of love have intertwined over the years,
anchored deep in the earth of trust,
growing stronger with each season.
Though storms may rage,
our love stands tall, unwavering in the face of time’s passage.
Jan 10, 2025
Jan 10, 2025 at 10:26 PM UTC
Side by side,
We walk through time’s forest.
Your steps lead with confidence,
Eyes ahead, charting the way.
I trace the map,
Trust guiding us into the unknown.
We listen—
Whispers in the leaves,
One deep in thought,
The other watching the horizon,
Feeling the air shift.
When confusion clouds our path,
We lean in,
Finding solace in each other’s gaze.
In frustration, we pause—
Our hearts the roots,
Trust the steady tree beneath us.
The forest thickens,
The trail blurs.
Hand in hand,
We press forward—
Each challenge a part of our story,
A dance of give and take.
Leading, following,
Each stumble strengthens us.
Doubt does not falter us;
Our bond lies in how we work together.
Through tangled branches, broken paths,
We find joy.
Laughter rings—
Each clearing a new adventure,
Each turn, a discovery.
As the sun dips low,
Shadows stretch.
The journey’s thrill lingers—
A promise that, no matter the path,
Hand in hand, hearts entwined,
We journey on,
Forever bound.
Jan 2, 2025
Jan 2, 2025 at 7:37 PM UTC
The house smells wonderful,
Golden and buttery as this morning’s delicious sunrise on our front porch,
And your eyes twinkle as I venture a first bite.
“Pretty good, right?”
It’s a quesadilla and it’s perfect,
exactly to my preference.
Warmly brown and crisp on the outside,
Cold sour cream mingling with too much hot melty cheese and chicken and all the fixins.
A real knock out as far as quesadillas go.
I smile with my eyes and happily munch,
not especially hungry but I know you are.
You spoke this into existence,
A master of your own love language.
In many ways, I am fed.
.
Ingratitude does not become us;
I eat of your hand and rejoice the offering
As my brain whispers:
“My love, please leave me to myself.”
These days I am as two ships passing,
So rare an hour is it to shake my own hand,
Cull my own thoughts,
Breathe my silent breath unaccompanied.
Spinning sugar and spinning wheels are my god-given gifts.
I use the first to coat my tongue.
The second hangs in the air between us.
“Better than good,” I say,
Moving to rest,
To dream my silly dreams,
To paint my silly heart across the mercurial landscape of shared memory.
I am my best when I end my days like a spoiled Pomeranian:
Seated on a cushion
Worrying a bone.
.
The mysterious clicking and clacking of the HVAC tip taps merrily to the rush and whir of the electric heat.
The impression of a kiss still lingers on my cheek
In the quiet.
The house smells wonderful,
Golden and buttery as this morning’s delicious sunrise on our front porch.
It is a miracle to build a structure with your bare hands that bends without breaking,
and supports your weight without shaking.
Dec 22, 2024
Dec 22, 2024 at 10:15 PM UTC
Two marble columns
hold up the high temple roof —
Lovers holding hands
Dec 20, 2024
Dec 20, 2024 at 6:02 PM UTC
How do I make you see me?
How do I step out
From behind the one-way mirror?
You hear me,
But you talk only to yourself through me.
How do I make you see me -
Not my clothes, or hair, or *******
Not my body, sitting across from you,
Empty.
Drained by the endless hours of offering my elixir,
Hoping that when it is my turn to drink,
You will see my thirst...
Only you don’t.
You can’t.
Because no matter how much
You gulp down -
You are never satiated.
Your vessel is riddled with holes,
Leaking -
With each slurp you take from me.
How do I make you see me...
Crawling after you,
Gasping -
Yearning for us both to bathe in the elixir -
To soak it in,
Together.
Nov 19, 2024
Nov 19, 2024 at 12:58 AM UTC
In this garden of dreams, our hopes start to bloom,
We plan our harvest to each season’s sweet tune.
With seeds of intention, we carefully sow,
Planting seeds of compassion where love’s rivers flow.
We nurture our seedlings, watering with care,
Tending to growth with the patience we share.
Through sunny days and the gentle rain’s kiss,
We learn from each challenge, embracing the bliss.
When we say “I’m sorry,” it clears out the weeds,
Making space for new growth and meeting our needs.
Together, we toil, side by side, as we learn,
In the warmth of our love, our hearts brightly burn.
With each passing season, new wonders arise,
As we cultivate dreams beneath wide-open skies.
Now we’ve matured, this love that we have grown,
Reaping the sweet fruits of the care that we’ve sown.
In this sanctuary where true selves align,
Our dreams intertwined like a strong, sturdy vine.
Together, we’ll flourish as our garden expands,
Creating a haven where love understands.
With future horizons bright and clear,
We’ll nurture our journey year after year.
As time moves forward, hand in hand we stay,
Bound by a love that will not fade away.
Through life's final chapter, steadfast and true,
Our hearts remain one in all that we do.
In this eternal garden, forever we'll dwell,
A love everlasting; no words can dispel.
Nov 13, 2024
Nov 13, 2024 at 8:45 PM UTC
the world is flown
and i sleep beside you wed
our mossy appetite has become cleaved
a sleeve running between us on this bed
a warm hum the pores pipe open
intimacy issues forth traversing the gap
intelligence sliding slack and froth
like moist candy-floss icking and tearing
our shared dream
our powerful phantom
gussy travellers
ravelling in sheets of smoky sea
grey/green misting of the memory gland
gathering up dead celebrity
tuning structures to our jubilee
re-creation in a vibe theatre
we're partners conducting our behaviour
for a grand flotsam revelry
dizzed up and narcotic
no doubt ; we are unreal
it is the neon hour...
i flicker
feeling the rushing of your warm system
i feel weather speed over our bodies
striping and refreshing the energy
in the oil light blinking i see you
scar beauty over the berths' landscape
you turn the body over and illuminate the eyes
you are if to say "plug back in to our shared motion"
"we could be imperishable"
"i cannot return without my inconsiderate spouse"
you brush my hand which fizzes
and i clothe my eyes
re-enter our developing potion
within our great mouths feed alike
our dual nature is a shared gratification within
Feb 2, 2023
Feb 2, 2023 at 11:47 AM UTC
It is about the self
the two prayers
at 2.00am
longing for permanent maintenance of faith
strength
and rescue
Nov 7, 2022
Nov 7, 2022 at 9:07 PM UTC
the thought of you whispers to me
in my lonesome moments
your stride glides swiftly to me
eyes of earthly-tinged emeralds
fire-soaked whiskers brush upon me
and the slightest rosy sweetness
leaves me yearning for you
all
over
again
Sep 5, 2022
Sep 5, 2022 at 3:22 AM UTC
I am most easy to find,
but forever difficult to discover.
May 14, 2022
May 14, 2022 at 12:05 PM UTC
anything that involves him
seems to be wholly acidic;
why did I think I could be an
alkaline strong enough for this?
Feb 8, 2022
Feb 8, 2022 at 10:26 PM UTC