#painfully
For how many times I thought
I could let her go?
How many billions of seconds I swallowed
To just lay in my bed, waiting for her to fill the hole
Very deeply inside me
So I can feel complete?
How much cigarettes did I burnt
Until my lungs hurt
For just putting my focus on that girl?
How much poems should I write
With all the creativity and the rhymes
So she noticed that already a thousand times
I already cried
From the inside?
How many romantic songs I listened
When I faced a tremendous depression
After she touched my minuscule heart
And left me apart?
How come I still adore her
After all the tortures
That she did already
By unintentionally?
How much pain
Should I gain
Just so I could see her eyes
That glows in my dreams every nights?
How much longer I can carrying this torch
The fire that burnt my feelings into ashes
The flame that harms me the most
That could traumatized me for ages?
I have no idea............
May 23, 2018
May 23, 2018 at 2:49 AM UTC
I crawl on my knees
Down to the deepest hole
Forgot the remnants of my heart
In a dark, dusky winter
Cold
I'll die slowly and painfully
If you fall apart
Pour out my soul
Never remembering me
Ghosts of lost loves
Wasting away
No one's caring
Somebody unfortunate
Lonely
Scary
You
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 2, 2014 at 7:00 PM UTC
our glass society is made of
broken girls
and
shattered boys.
Jun 15, 2014
Jun 15, 2014 at 10:57 AM UTC
i need some kind
of tune, melody,
rhythm,
so i can take my mind
off my life,
and focus on
someone else's.
i need some kind
of words, sentences,
lyrics,
to ease the pain
that has been stabbing
my heart over and
over again.
i need some kind
of genre, rhyme,
harmony,
to play in the
background,
while i slowly,
and painfully
end my life.
Apr 25, 2014
Apr 25, 2014 at 7:57 PM UTC