#osmosis
I have never understood
how some people can kiss
and remain continent,
no coastlines redrawn,
no tectonic surrender.
For me, every mouth is a monsoon.
Every pair of hands
leaves behind
a residue of constellation.
I am porous as pumice,
cathedral-thin,
a lung taking in
more than air.
The boy who wore cedarwood cologne
still lingers in the sleeves of my sweaters.
The girl who hummed old jazz
braided herself into my playlists.
Someone else taught my fingers
the delicate angle of a cigarette,
how to hold it
like a secret
between two trembling saints.
I cannot touch without absorption.
Cannot leave without sediment.
My closet is a reliquary.
My throat, an archive of borrowed laughter.
My tears taste faintly
of other people’s salt.
Some call it attachment.
I call it osmosis:
the quiet migration of essence
through the semipermeable membrane
of my ribcage.
How could I survive
a carousel of strangers,
when each goodbye
is an amputation
performed without anesthesia?
I would rattle,
a wind chime made of fingerprints,
clattering with borrowed ghosts.
No,
I am not built for the revolving door.
I am an estuary,
where every river I have loved
empties itself into me
and stays.
I would rather be solitary shoreline
than carry
the brine of a hundred
meaningless seas.
Feb 11
Feb 11, 2026 at 4:54 AM UTC
one day we had:
winter days and dark jackets,
tea in beige cups,
talks about advertisements,
touches that went nowhere.
now it is only the air between us.
every thought of mine is on the table,
but i cannot arrange it
in a china dish—
it spills beyond the edges.
i remember
we would scrunch our noses
when our eyes met—
veins rising,
a reflex that was ours.
you, the lotus print
on your wall,
turning toward the sky.
a quiet shadow along my margins.
all i type these days are your habits,
more than i ever knew you:
black coffee, anytime.
the hannibal series you mentioned once.
watering plants at 6 pm.
my feet remember
the vibration of your fidgeting
under the table.
my margins, these days.
i can't quite talk to you.
your name fills the page instead.
even when i backspace,
it stays somewhere.
Jan 22
Jan 22, 2026 at 9:15 AM UTC
a bloom not I sniff on its wax
yet soap in its name.
Is chime an echo
shuttling between shores clenched and surfs wrinkled?
Forthcoming. Impending. Violating.
Could thou help me to say this?
that I was in out of my depth.
Over-night granola, Mixed-berry fizz, Planet-Traveler hues.
Could thou let me shelve vacancy?
that I’d be sobbing for its mess.
Signature Choco cake named here sole with latte all around globe
some taste brewed here sole.
How hot and heavy and hazy
this existence savors.
But—
there is Thank you, the simple words that turns us into lamplighters
who walk each other home, through the night never seems to end
fluxing, always, always. after all.
before all.
A beam of apathy.
Hithernay I lapse in the liquid fear
of drifting afar from all flowed through me, a terrifying truth
that strikes, falters, and aches.
On shaft of daylight I look fine
but look behind my eyes, everything
is new until it’s old.
An osmosis of remembrance wafts across the lake frozen
I gazed tears streaming down its face
and was told: every metamorphosis a co-passenger brought you
continues the voyage with you on behalf of him.
Would I get over it?
Anon I find the galactic city model of the mind
too cold to defy
as I expend three minutes hesitating shall I do it or not
that could be done within the three minutes
so it’s left undone, with an ongoing groan.
I yearn for rationality is too spiny and messy and illusory
like a broadcast of self-deed that never ever pitch a well guess.
But—
nothing come decipherable until I seek
to return with hands empty of dictions indecipherable.
I love the debris of word that I don’t understand, that
I build brick by brick.
Euphoria stumbles in what is
and what isn’t here.
Chimeric.
This time, at ease I walk into the place scrawled by unfamiliarity
of all kinds, giddy, amorphous, variegated,
not without my muse.
Hovering, the Wayfinder exhales
an attuning overture,
an astringent taste of cacophony.
“Free is the feeling they can’t take from thee.”
a rustle not I shivered in
yet took a leap towards.
Through the bullet-spiked walls of unseen wars
analogy hums a thousand suns
as warriors bury a thousand letters.
Sep 25, 2025
Sep 25, 2025 at 2:11 PM UTC
There's a mansion on a hill
I've seen it numerous times
But,
I've never been inside
It's said to belong to an old woman
Who is very selective
in who enters her domain
Either you're an insignificant servant
And you slip inside
Through a back door
A tiny molecule diffusing
from high to low concentration
Or, you're a personal servant
Then, you gain special access
Still, through the back door
Water molecule
Diffusing through osmosis
After that are ordinary guests,
aided by the butler
through the front door
Facilitated diffusion
Molecules carried or channeled
And finally,
the VIP's
Welcomed by a great procession
Through a special VIP door
People,
invited by the madam
with great effort
Active transport
From low to high concentration
Requiring added energy
But despite this selectivity
of who can and cannot enter
That old mansion on the hill
And the jobs it provides
Is essential to the livelihood
Of the people in this town
Just like the cell membrane to our bodies
Sep 23, 2018
Sep 23, 2018 at 1:43 PM UTC
*Every night crawling
into bed beside you
Wrapping my arm around you
Drawing you closer
Into the perfect spoon
Our skin to skin one caress
Comforting one another as we fade into dream
every morning
Waking
before the alarm sounds
To the feel of your arm
Out-stretched & Searching
for me beside you
Finding me, finding you
the safety, the joy
The serenity of feeling Home
In our bubble
At the peak of the mushroom
free of anxiety, ego dissolved
A familiar peace abounds
Amid the chaos of the mind fray
Our souls dance
Together and free
Simultaneously lost and found
in your emerald gaze
Peering endlessly as
the periphery fades to blur
and all that exists is We
All is you and me
We are All
Feeling every molecule
of You
As we merge our physicality
The Gnosis in the mushroom
Illuminating the Archaic
Gnosis in our beings
Reigniting and fuelling our twin flame
the magnetic synergy of our Souls
Sharing time
Sharing space
In your intoxicating presence
In your nourishing embrace
Engaging in ceremony with you
Honouring spirit
Of the Earth, of ourselves
Casting intentions to the four winds
Through the cleansing of raging fire
Discovering the rhythm of personal expression
Under the full blood blue moon
Our spotlight on the stage of surrender
Hanging effortlessly in
the star-speckled Black of Night
Finding the circular beat
Of your two drum-heart-beats
Through the noise
of solo djembes on their own tangent
Desperate to find the momentum of song
Our trio in unison
Our drums in harmony and rhyme
Synchronised in time
A voiceless song of the divine
These and many more
moments you've given to me
We created the space and
seized the opportunity
I hold them in memory immemorial
And the feelings they inspired
Infused forever into my "me-ness"
I thank You
I miss You
I Love You
Forever my Moon
And one day my Sun*
Feb 9, 2018
Feb 9, 2018 at 9:58 AM UTC
Matter can not be created nor destroyed.
Is it the same with love? I wonder.
Perhaps just our love.
One does not create it,
rather falls into it,
proving it's existence.
Love is never lost,
changed only.
It is a chemical reaction,
serotonin
and oxytocin.
The dynamics of our love have shifted.
Once drowning in a volatile sea,
I was obsessed.
Then lying on a dry cracked bed
just as damaging.
Where did the love go?
Into you.
Osmosis of love
through parted lips,
gyrating hips.
Nov 20, 2015
Nov 20, 2015 at 10:53 AM UTC