#originalwriting
Is it necessary to stay away?
Should I be ignoring you or staying away— like I was suggested to?
Why do I need to forget you?
Why was I attacked when I was forbidden for you?
Why have you not moved when I'm totally out of my shoe?
Why are you avoiding me when all I can see is— you?
Why are you sitting still when i have completely fallen?
Why are you sitting still when i have completely fallen?
Why aren't you opposing the world like I do?
Why can't I say I love you —
When it is all true?
Mar 15
Mar 15, 2026 at 12:30 PM UTC
Did I ever love anyone?
You know, maybe
Someone was nice to me,
Maybe he took care of me.
But truly, I loved
Only one person. Only once.
His eyes - my eyes loved them deeply -
Were more beautiful than anyone else’s.
His warm hands, holding mine,
And he hugged me tightly,
So gently, like no one else.
And in that moment,
I was happy. Really.
Because he loved me
With the most honest love,
And I loved him back.
But it was all for nothing.
Now he loves someone else the same way,
And he doesn’t think about me.
She’s shorter,
A little prettier,
And she suits him better.
Or maybe I never suited him at all?
Maybe he never even liked me,
And I just made it all up?
Because how can you
Forget someone so fast?
And me? I still love him the same.
It’s hard to say this,
But there wasn’t a single day
When I didn’t think of him.
Even the lines of my favorite song
Always remind me
How stupid it all was.
All the feelings, all the touch -
Now they disgust me.
I don’t want to look into his eyes
And see that he doesn’t care.
Probably, never again
Will I love anyone.
And he will never know
How much I loved him.
I will never feel
A thing like love again.
Feb 12
Feb 12, 2026 at 10:23 AM UTC
I have retired from temptations of attention.
I’ve retired from the need to judge.
I’ve retired from feeling like I need that moment,
And I’ve retired from feeling too sad.
I have retired into a place of contemplation —
A place nearby, and where I sit.
I have retired from feeling guilty,
And I’ve retired from needing your yes.
I am retired.
Jul 20, 2025
Jul 20, 2025 at 3:20 PM UTC