#onlyone
I think loyalty became painful for me
the moment I realized
how rare it is to be loved
without feeling like you’re competing
with the rest of the world.
Because I don’t just want attention.
I want devotion so natural
that nobody could ever question where their heart belongs.
I want to hear my name
leave someone’s mouth
like it carries warmth instead of uncertainty.
I want them to talk about me
like I’m the safest thing they’ve ever held, like loving me is something they’re proud of, not something they hide in pieces.
And maybe that’s why betrayal hurts me so deeply ..
because when I love,
I love with the kind of loyalty
that removes everyone else from the picture.
So when someone makes me feel replaceable ..
it doesn’t just bruise my heart.
It ruins the way I see myself.
It makes me wonder why I’m never enough to be chosen loudly.
Why I’m always loved quietly,
temporarily,
carelessly.
I want someone who speaks about me
like I’m the only girl their soul has memorized.
Someone whose loyalty is so obvious
I never have to search for it
in hidden messages,
dry replies,
or the way their eyes linger too long on somebody else.
Because I’m exhausted.
from giving people the kind of love
I secretly beg for in return.
And maybe the deepest wound isn’t heartbreak ..
maybe it’s realizing
you would’ve never done to them
what they did so easily to you.
🖤
May 22
May 22, 2026 at 7:12 PM UTC
you were orange
and all the peach shades
of the setting sun
I knew right away
when I saw your glow
you’d be the only one
May 9
May 9, 2026 at 4:19 PM UTC
You are the one who
could hurt me so much,
because you are the only one
I ever loved that much.
Aug 31, 2025
Aug 31, 2025 at 5:28 AM UTC
Sliding through salty waters,
Spray hitting my face
Each time I dip the paddle
Into the murky creek.
it’s so serene,
No people,
No yelling,
No sirens,
Just me and the geese,
And the wind.
Even though I’m thinking
About my next move,
You’re still there,
Lying, beautiful,
In the back of my mind.
Jun 4, 2020
Jun 4, 2020 at 5:16 PM UTC
Slipping on the ice,
And crashing through the glass.
Floating shards
Hovering in prismatic wonder,
Lighting my darkened mind
Like the thousand stars
Guiding me to
My long lost dreams.
Jun 1, 2020
Jun 1, 2020 at 1:30 PM UTC
Second chances are pots of gold at the end of a rainbow.
But we treat them like a prize from a box of ******* jacks;
Cherished one minute, then the next we put it back.
Not taking things for granted is easier said than done.
But if you get a second chance, treat it like it's the only one
Sep 17, 2019
Sep 17, 2019 at 7:42 PM UTC
The swirl has begun again
The impending cyclone returns
And I am overwhelmed once more
A violent disturbance breaks me
It will follow its well-worn path
Through my mind and weary soul
Nothing shown mercy or quarter
Weak as the terror tears through
And I look to you my only one
As I lay my pained head on your lap
I will not surrender to the storm
But I will surrender myself to you
Feb 11, 2020
Feb 11, 2020 at 9:13 PM UTC
Amidst the cold and dark spaces between
There I am with my invisible foe
Waiting with bated, visible breath
Find me here and never let me go
When my brain is all anxiety and chaos
Broken thoughts unable to sow
Here I am the shattered man
Find me here and never let me go
Where the mirror mocks my reflection
Disgust of me from head to toe
I’ll freeze in place for you to save me
Find me here and never let me go
I’ve waited for so long to see your face
An unwrapped present behind a bow
The other half of my soul, unfound
Find me here and never let me go
I know you are out there my love
Searching for the path we cannot know
I pray for you to find your way
Find me here and never let me go
Aug 19, 2019
Aug 19, 2019 at 9:25 PM UTC
A vision of the sand and waves endlessly
Unending sky and sundown magenta
The slow rock of the chair and me in the breeze
A glance to my right and vacant stare to infinity
My mistake left me here to contemplate fate
Of a solitary life without the love of another
I yearn for one who can see through my scarred form
Unconditionally accept the soul which rests inside
Will you stay here and be all I ever needed?
Will you fill this empty chair here, love?
Nov 26, 2019
Nov 26, 2019 at 12:16 AM UTC
Blackest night in a stormy sea
I cannot keep my feet
The tempest has overwhelmed
And I am so lost, adrift
The cold rain grips me like a vise
The ocean will take me
The end is nigh, a certainty now
Say my own last rites
Blinded by snow and ice, breathless
Hurricane unrelenting
And my faith has failed me finally
Then your light, your light
Guide me, shelter me with your beam
Bring me home, my sentinel
Your lone ray is my hope renewed
My last salvation from ruin
I had hoped to bring you a keeper
The cyclone led me astray
I will be your guardian one day soon
But today you are my beacon
Nov 29, 2019
Nov 29, 2019 at 8:57 PM UTC
The cynics are happy to tell you
True love is a myth from fairy tales
It doesn’t exist in this world’s reality
Love will not conquer all, no soul mates
Make your compromises and find a match
Find someone just good enough to work
True love is for suckers and romantics
You made them all look like skeptical fools
You proved the one I could always rely on
You saw in me the beauty not the beast
You were my best friend through it all
The rock in which I based my strength
The one rocking in the chair next to me
And I’ll love you until my last breath
Dec 30, 2019
Dec 30, 2019 at 10:08 PM UTC
My navigator in the darkest of oceans
My immovable shield amid the onslaught
My opposite pole keeping me centered
My constant in this chaotic world of mine
My cure to parallax when I lose perspective
My azimuth to bring me back to the right path
My true north to bring me home to you
My North Star, My Polaris
Jan 11, 2020
Jan 11, 2020 at 8:58 PM UTC
I could fall for anyone i want
Choose anyone i want
But somehow
Its always been
You
Aug 17, 2019
Aug 17, 2019 at 12:17 PM UTC
Love is the only way to forget about you, but the more i love the other the more i realize that i really love you, that you are eternal in my life, that i'm only the thorns and you are the rose, that you are the blanket that keep me warm, and the other are just some fan that just push dust in my lungs.
Sep 19, 2015
Sep 19, 2015 at 10:29 PM UTC
~You're the only one for me,
And I'm the only one for you~
Feb 10, 2015
Feb 10, 2015 at 2:19 PM UTC
The girl I'm thinking of
Is who I see in school everyday
In church every Friday
And in my dreams
The memory of her is never removed
There are times that I want to talk to her
There are times I want to hold her hand
And there are times that she might be with someone else
I don't know if my heart is playing games with me
I just feel like I'm falling in love with her
I'm conflicting my emotions since Day 1
And I can't take the pain anymore
I want to admit it to her that I like her
But I can't cause I know it's too early
And she would just ignore me and never talk to me
Then there will the time that I'll inflict pain
There was a time that I was in pain
She came to me, concerned, asking me if I was okay
I was silent, not a word to be said
And as she comforted me, she asked me to hold her hand
That feeling when I touched her hand
It snapped, that feeling snapped
I knew that it would happen
Just one touch, I fell in love in an instant
Jan 25, 2015
Jan 25, 2015 at 8:01 AM UTC
And you are my love...
The one that I want,
The ONLY ONE I think about
When the world goes crazy.
You
Slow
It
Down.
I see you........in the distance.
Waiting;
Smiling;
Forever.
Sep 4, 2014
Sep 4, 2014 at 8:28 AM UTC
Yesterday she was nowhere to be found
In the earth or under the earth.
Suddenly she is all here - a bright soon
Of a tomorrow in earnest and potluck joy, embers and pyres, iris and the merriment of ochre.
A star groomed by outer space - spilling wet ash
And fissured out by the tailored saw of the wood.
Now something is stirring in the smolder.
We call it a girl.
Still wowed.
She has no idea where she is.
Her eyes, chalcedony stones, explore ripening doomsday and an ivory moon rock.
Is this the world?
It confuses her. It is a great numbness.
She pulls herself together, rousing to the new weight of things
And to that maternal figure nuzzling her, and to her down burrow.
She rests
From the first infinite shock of light, the empty laze
Of the curious and their curious questions -
What has happened? What am I?
Her ears keep on inquiring, blissfully.
But her legs are impatient,
Mending from so long nothingnesses
Her tiny hands are restless with ideas, they start to try a few out,
Swaying this way and that,
Grasping for balance, learning fast -
And she's suddenly upright
And stretching - a giant hand
Strokes her from top to toe
Perfecting her outline, as she tightens
The knot of herself.
Now she comes to -
Bold, beautiful - Argentina
Over the weird world. Her nose
crimson and magnetic, draws her, consciously sounding,
A petite yaff, aimed towards her mother. And the world is warm
And gentle and softens her daze. Touch by touch
Everything fits her together.
Soon she'll almost be a woman.
She wants to be a Woman,
Pretending each day more and more Woman
Till she's the perfect Woman. The immortal Woman
Will surge through her, weightless, unbound, a twirling flame
Beneath silver gusts,
It will coil her eyeballs and her heels
In a single outlaw fright - like the awe
Between mortar and firework.
And curve her neck, like a crocodile emerging from the placid pond
Among lilies,
And fling the new moons over her shimmery banner,
All the full moons and the dark moons.
Booming, ineffable delight.
Apr 26, 2014
Apr 26, 2014 at 4:59 AM UTC