#onelasttime
I remember being 10 days clean
FINALLY off of Methamphetamine.
My daughter, she was 9 days new
we were living in my hospital room.
Then someone told me my kids dad
had smoked just one last time; I was mad.
See his teeth were killing him that day
and **** is best at taking pain away.
Then the addict inside me saw its chance to use.
It said "I want one last time too!"
They took her from me three months after that,
I swore up and down though, that I'd get her back.
Weeks and months came then passed,
they turned into years now.
Gone by too fast.
If I could go back I would make the right choice,
I'd silence that evil addicts voice.
But instead what I said on that day was
"I deserve one last time without any fuss."
I really thought it would be fine,
I thought I'd get right back in line.
Now 6 years later as I write,
It's 4:33 am I've been awake all night.
Because "one last time" never stays that way.
And I regret that "one last time"
EVERY
single
day.
Dec 19, 2024
Dec 19, 2024 at 7:49 AM UTC
I hope to see you for the last time
I know you're happier without me
I know you found someone better
But i still wish to see you
I want to look at your face for the last time
Talk to you for the last time
Spend my time with you for the last time
I wish to know
What am i lacking
That made you choose someone else
Mar 26, 2020
Mar 26, 2020 at 5:50 AM UTC
his ethereal eyes
gazed into mine
those spherical chasms jittered
'i won't leave' he said
as his hand stretched out for mine
my demons peeked into my mind
as the whirlpool of memories arised in my mind
fear gnawed at my insides
yet
i took his hand
as he pressed his forehead against mine
our souls intertwined
Mar 25, 2018
Mar 25, 2018 at 3:44 AM UTC
By Arcassin Burnham
Pick ya head up boy it's okay now , the eternal struggle is over so be proud,
What you ask for is what you get in life, to climb off the mountain,
gotta find your way down,
Looking for new purposes to fill your voids,
Knowing that in each time it comes with toys,
Life ain't about getting , its about giving but the generations lost in the chaos,
Got the kids in the school in the books on the way to college , But you so worried about
a wrist watch and material things that don't mean anything at all,
Now Let me say this,
listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
please don't be a follower,
Be a leader,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
crazy is what crazy does,
this world is still and was,
listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
please don't be a follower,
Be a leader,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
crazy is what crazy does,
this world is still and was...
i know what you're feeling, i've been there before,
there is no way to cure this,the pain just grows much larger,
if you feel like people don't want you around,
grow to learn more things,
i know it could get much harder....
listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
please don't be a follower,
Be a leader,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
crazy is what crazy does,
this world is still and was,
listen to my words,
i know what you deserve,
please don't be a follower,
Be a leader,
realize your worth.
deep beneath the earth,
crazy is what crazy does,
this world is still and was...
Pay attention in school and do everything you have to do just so you could get out,
You'll have problems along the way and everything that you do , people will doubt,
but don't mind them,
Follow your dreams,
And free think along the way in any age,
i'm not just speaking to kids ,
But i'm also speaking to the human race.
Mar 13, 2017
Mar 13, 2017 at 10:43 AM UTC
I ****** up the best thing that I've ever had.
Don't take this as me seeking pity.
I just need to shout abit.
I ****** it up and I know that you're glad.
I had the girl of my dreams by the hand.
You took my sadness and replaced it with joy
Yeah I wasn't the best but I did try
My words came out of love not demand.
If I could start again believe me I would
I wanted you and that was all
I didn't want no other just you
I wish I could start again, I wish I could
Dec 17, 2015
Dec 17, 2015 at 3:29 PM UTC
Let me try to draw you
One last time.
At least this paper and pen will get to have a glimpse of you
One last time.
Dec 5, 2015
Dec 5, 2015 at 4:08 AM UTC
Wait don't walk away
Come back around
One last time
Try to hold your ground
I don't wanna ask any more than you can offer
I can't take anymore anyways
You're not even trying
And I've seen you trying
I've seen you determined
It lights up your eyes
Like the celestial beings binge on brilliance
Makes your aura shine a little brighter
But now You're not even trying
Should I even be devastated ?
Should I even feel damaged and broken ?
Cry you a river perhaps
You probably wouldn't even care
It kills me to say this but
I wish You were trying.
May 2, 2015
May 2, 2015 at 12:11 PM UTC