#onagainoffagain
You have no clue what I went through.
Crying on the bathroom floor,
explaining to my mom
everything I had hidden from her
for the past few months.
Weeping for hours and deciding to compose
the hardest letter I ever had to write.
Sobbing because I thought I'd never
speak to him again.
But then crying tears of joy
when he finally came back.
A few days after, dying on the inside
because he left again,
but seeing his name pop up
on my screen after another month,
wondering what I should do
and deciding to reply and
finally
tears slowly falling from my eye
as I faced the fact that I had to say
goodbye.
Jul 7, 2023
Jul 7, 2023 at 2:27 AM UTC
I fell in love with a piece of paper
and a picture of you. Now here you stand,
and I don't quite know what I am to do…
We were lonely souls, you and I; felt like
only each other heard our laughs and cry.
Yet here we are, miles apart yet inches
so close. All I can hear are the words on
the paper; acting like an overdose.
You're not a picture, and neither am I,
falling in love was short; destined to die.
Love we did, even though our time quickly
ticked away. But my love was true; it could
not be born, ravish, and cease in a day.
A question in my head, it must be said:
Will I be back, as our history read?
True, I can not stop the dreams, but these bad
habits are hard to break. I'd rather miss
you than have more of your love bruises ache.
You're a part of me, like a glove, I can't
rid this picture and paper of you, love.
I will keep you near, of course, so you can
perhaps watch me grow, in awe or hatred,
to one day let go of your heavy woe.
Scars left from the battle of heart and mind --
My choice is clear, though it left my mouth ****
My heart breaks, the body recuperates,
this time I’ve had enough of these rust gates.
Goodbye to the man in front of me, and
everyday Good Morning to the picture
staring, eyes bright, with pain and painted glee.
If only pictures showed what was below
the skin, then maybe we wouldn’t have sinned?
Oct 29, 2014
Oct 29, 2014 at 9:51 AM UTC
When you left me standing there
I felt like such a clout
My heart was filled with agony
My mind was filled with doubt
I turned around to walk away
Pretending not to care
I felt so wicked foolish
Hurting more than I could bare
Next time you break up with me
I know I'll follow through
I'll never call you back again
You ******* I love you
Nov 5, 2013
Nov 5, 2013 at 9:34 AM UTC