#obsessivethoughts
The feeling of emptiness I feel is incomparable to any kind of pain.
The feeling of disgust you have for me is eating away at me. How much I wish I had you by my side. How much I wish everything could go back to the way it was before, when it was just you and me and nothing else mattered, when I was your only certainty among a thousand, when you always wrote to me, even at night.
What has changed? Am I not enough for you? What I do is never enough, it's eating away at my soul. How much I wish I could hate you right now, you have no **** idea. I just wish I could erase you from my life, pretend you never existed. Why do you do this to me? How many tears have I shed for you, and how many words I write for you when I'm not even one of your frequent thoughts. I just want you to reciprocate. That's all I miss is what we had. I would go back a thousand times over. I want you so much that you're my constant thought. I can't stop thinking about you and me and what I wish would happen. I miss you so much, please come back to me, please, I need it.
Mar 17
Mar 17, 2026 at 6:25 PM UTC
1:39 a.m.
They say the ones that can not sleep at night is because someone has them on their mind
Maybe that explains why my eyes won’t sleep
Maybe there’s a reason why a sinking feeling seeps into my stomach when your face flashes in my head for a brief second
I can’t stomach it for too long
Or maybe it’s all just a lie
A lie to make people feel better when they have someone else on their minds
I wouldn’t know
I don’t care to anymore
I’m tired
Physically, emotionally & mentally drained
I deserve at least some decent shut eye since you have been away
Maybe it’s all my fault though
If that saying could be true
Maybe I’m the one keeping you up with my obsessive thoughts about you
Jun 21, 2020
Jun 21, 2020 at 10:24 AM UTC