#nzarayebani
"learn from the sun, son"
he told me.
"break through the clouds
when they doubt you,"
he added.
said it in extra wording.
added in excess stories.
but that one was all i needed,
so that was the only i kept,
the rest i let flow.
does what we do with the truth,
change how it's true?
i used to think it didn't,
now i think it does.
i used to think in truths,
now i think in lies.
cause it's the bluest
of each man's thoughts
that determine how he turns out.
every reality is shaped
by how the lies you tell the self
become the desired new.
"learn from the son, sun,"
he should've told him.
cause i'm better
than the sun, son -
i shine in private.
when you educate your own child,
tell him i send peace.'
diary
of
a
corporate
existentialist™
Oct 11, 2025
Oct 11, 2025 at 5:35 PM UTC
"i'm in class,
can you text?"
was me, texting her.
"i wanna hear your voice, feel your arms", came her response,
texting back.
i looked out of the window,
she stood there,
by a taxi in the parking bay.
i sat where i sat,
and rewinded back
to the last time i saw her -
i left her standing there,
pleading heavy
till the wind took her eyes.
i've been a fool
for the most
of this life.
i feel the water rise
in my eyes too, and i quickly sit up straight to still the strain.
there's something
about old pain that feels fresh
everytime i reminisce.
i blink once, and blink again.
and by the time i blink a third,
my mind is made up.
i broke this girl's heart once,
and i'm not
repeating the act.
many men never get
a second chance, but i have one at my disposal in this hour -
whatever i do from this day forth
must define nobility and honour,
i swear it on the 'w' in my name.
"i'm on my way to you," i text.
and from where i sit, i see her smile from the core and it shows up in her movements.
so i get up,
pick my things,
and leave."
Oct 16, 2023
Oct 16, 2023 at 5:46 PM UTC
“My mind carries a pain
My skin bears a voice
I’m mad and it shows
It’s black in my soul
I’m bad, I’m insane
I’m mad and it grows
Black man with some vocals –
Black man with no arms,
Black man yes, the pain is mine, and it eats me
Black man and there’s black in my thoughts,
So I keep screaming
Black man with heavy dreams that haunt him:
An ambition in the winter,
Flower never grow, for my seed cannot afford
Friction in the air when I’m bitter
Pay fee for my visions to come into sight, capitalism
Terrors caged in my intuition, neo-colonialist inhibitions
Give men races, take away our faces, branding
Culture punctured or am I just Insaniod?
**** the stereotype?
I try, but the Earth is stereohyped
Blame my senses? I can’t.
Too many cents owed me –
Nonsense.”
Jul 21, 2020
Jul 21, 2020 at 6:45 PM UTC