#notright
I don’t know why I feel this way about you.
You can be an *** yet you can also care and make me feel alive.
Smile, giggle, lose myself in time.
You don’t know what to say at the worst times when I need you the most.
Yet when I don’t need you at all, you tell me everything I want to hear and more.
Do you say it to make me feel good?
Do you say it because you’re my best friend?
You should know by now I like the attention, love, and care you give me.
When you turn your head the other way and ignore me,
It pains me.
It feels as if you had taken the sharpest knife you could find, smothered it with lies, and stabbed me.
All of a sudden you have changed.
You go from being so close to me and holding me tight to pushing me away.
And with you, I feel as I’m pushing my own self away.
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 10:46 AM UTC
We live in a world
of monsters
hidden, disgusting things
preying upon and on
innocence that childhood brings
Skulking and sulking the net
their odor offensive and vile
waiting their chance
horrors advance
disguising themselves all the while
Never a day in the sun
sickly and demonic it's need
robbing the young
things that they've done
virtue and purity, bleed
Feb 6, 2018
Feb 6, 2018 at 8:04 AM UTC
sometimes
when he holds me at night,
i pretend
your ribs jutting out and poking my back,
your hands tracing my neck,
kissing my cheek,
looking at me
“you’re the most beautiful girl in the world”
“oh, shut up”
laughing,
crying and holding and loving
my arms shake, i can’t feel
his heartbeat
80 to 90 bpm
yours was different,
i remember your heart,
****** beard
i told you how handsome either way,
that your eyes sparkled and mine were grey,
a tear falls down my cheek,
and he asks
“are you ok?”
Dec 5, 2017
Dec 5, 2017 at 1:19 PM UTC
I wanna be baby bear
I want my gross porridge to be a reasonable edible temperature
I wanna be hot but not a scalding sun
And cold but just enough
I wanna be baby bear
I want my chair to be so comfortable that you break it into a million pieces
Because as soon as you perfectly fit
It can do nothing else but explode
I wanna be baby bear
Because then my bed would be so incredible that you're still in it
Not too hot
Not too cold
Not too big
Not too small
Not too hard
Not too soft
Or far too much
Or never enough
If only I could be just right
Bc then maybe
Just maybe
You'd pick me
As strange as it sounds,
I'd really like to be baby bear
That guy's really got a lot goin for him.
Jul 22, 2016
Jul 22, 2016 at 12:48 AM UTC
I walk the halls and glance at everyone I see,
The girls who are hurrying to the bathroom to fix their makeup,
And the boys who check them out as they walk by.
Is there anyone else here who can't go to the bathroom, because I swear to God just the thought of it gives me a small panic attack.
Is there anyone else here who looks down and is disappointed everyday because I am small, chesty and my face is far too round.
I never check out the girls, nor do I run to the bathroom to fix myself,
I walk and look at how much I wish I was one of the guys,
Flat chested, tall, lean and not having to wake up 5 extra minutes to put on a binder.
Never hating that their voice along with their round face will have others calling them "She" for their whole life.
Never will they come home with aching ribs,
and feel the stab of being misgendered.
Never will they be told "but you still look like a girl,"
Even though you are trying so hard that you feel your mind wearing thin.
Why can't I just be what they want me to be?
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 5:03 PM UTC