#notme
When you’re with me
You think of her
Wondering why
You could not have her
You sit and wait
On the edge of the bed
Whispering softly
You love me instead
Cushions squished
In silent agony
Holding the weight
Of what we pretend to be
I wait
And hope
To hear from you
While you hope the same
But not from me
Your eyes drift far
Though you’re close by
Searching for someone
I cannot outshine
One day you may see
What we were meant to be
But for now you sit and wait
For her
And not me
Feb 7
Feb 7, 2026 at 7:35 PM UTC
They have always said,
"People come, people go"
But why not-
"No one stays, No one comes"?
Because people can't handle truth,
they always show —
They blame, shout, hurt,
fight & then at the end, dump...
Is it that hard to care?
Is it that secretive to share?
Why do they always think it's fair?
Am i that worthless,
they dare?
When i burn, they're the salt,
When i shine, they're the taunt,
When i cry, they're the drought,
Even though they blame,
It's not my fault!
Dec 10, 2025
Dec 10, 2025 at 9:18 PM UTC
He was there
Looking excited
Waving his hands
Smiling genuinely
At my direction
He walked towards his favorite girl
With some roses and tulips in his hands
He walked and walked
And hugged his girl....
Beside me.
Apr 23, 2021
Apr 23, 2021 at 7:29 PM UTC
He said he will **** her
Why did it fall in place
Like his kiss was planted
To show she was a different case
She thought he joked, but why
Maybe that's how he operates
Let's say what's the worst that can happen
And leave with just a taste
Then she will see he had mercy
While he treats her as waste
Tell her off like she was a ****
Maybe shift the whole blame
Jun 30, 2019
Jun 30, 2019 at 5:58 PM UTC
the trees are budding
and everyone is sneezing
but I breath easy
Mar 31, 2019
Mar 31, 2019 at 6:10 PM UTC
I can see cleary the scene where we first met
I feel the warmth of your smile
I hear the glee in your voice
I am entangled in the thought of you
And when I saw you walk towards me
I felt as if the heavens blessed me with an angel
And When I saw you walk past me, I knew I was only in your path.
I am entangled in the thought of you, and why I am unwanted.
I hear the silence in your void, your words are never for me.
I feel the darkeness settle over me again, where it always is.
I can see clearly the scene where we last met.
Discarded. Forgotten. Unwelcome. Me.
Sep 2, 2018
Sep 2, 2018 at 4:17 PM UTC
I want to be your cliche
your now and your later
I want to wake in your arms
with my heart pressed against yours
I want to share your blanket
as we gaze at the stars
I want to protect you from all your fears
the way you protect me from mine
I want so desperately to see you happy
so when you say you love him
I can only hope he will make you smile
the way you make me
Sep 3, 2018
Sep 3, 2018 at 12:20 AM UTC
Thoughts or actions with no care ahead
you speak simply without worry about what you said
you can laugh without getting upset
or stand up without heat rushing to your head
eyes you know are there
yet how are they no where to be seen
I don't make a sound
for the fear of feeling drowned
that comes anyhow
but not for not making a sound
instead for not being allowed
why am I casted the spell on
when I see everyone around me free
yet I can't even plea
and you can't see me
If I could only make a wish
so that you could see
This isn't me
Aug 3, 2018
Aug 3, 2018 at 4:33 PM UTC
please do not confuse me
with the person i used to be
she does not live here anymore
we are no longer linked
we are no longer synced
she does not reside here,
I am not her anymore
Jul 28, 2018
Jul 28, 2018 at 11:24 AM UTC
Every day I wake up
I look at the ceiling
My soul goes back to sleep
Every moment I get up
My body is filled with sadness
Hopefull wishes that don’t exist
Black cloud that don’t belong here
Trying to be perfect for the wrong people
Saying to myself every day “I’m not myself.”
Waking up to a smile on my face
But in reality, I really want to cry
I don’t want you to understand
Only I can determine that
Dark black hole that
I keep falling in and I can’t get out
Please god help me
The more you say
The more I cry inside
Jun 5, 2018
Jun 5, 2018 at 6:30 PM UTC
not important
not me
not much
not enough
no one
none.
Apr 10, 2018
Apr 10, 2018 at 1:36 PM UTC
Here there be trolls
grab a handful of wits!
I'm not here being bold
throwing red flags upon twits!
So here's a word from me
carry it with you my friend
No message from me you'll see
as initially I'll never send
So if you receive such a thing
you'll know beyond shadow's doubt
It didn't come from the skull
so go right ahead and
throw it on
out
ROFL One of my more innocuous poems is under review ROFL
Some Troll must have flagged it
how sad, and pathetic
;D
Mar 20, 2018
Mar 20, 2018 at 2:22 PM UTC
I wish I could be,
Like everyone else,
Not have feelings,
But have this backup.
Knowing that I **** up,
With someone new,
My backup will be there,
From time to time...
That's cool,
Until I think of,
Who is kissing you,
And who wakes up next to you.
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 8:01 PM UTC
*I am not who I say I am
I am someone who
I have forgotten myself
names not me
my face is not me
my eyes not mine
my soul calls me down within
it rejects my reflection
I and the soul in division
who am I?*
Dec 30, 2017
Dec 30, 2017 at 10:21 AM UTC
i write for who you are
i write for what you've done
i write for your beauty
i write for your perfections
i write for your mistakes
i write for who you were
i write for who you've become
i write for who you are not
i write for you
i do not writ for who i am
i do not write for what i've done
i do not write for my beauty
i do not write for my perfections
i do not write for my mistakes
i do not write for who i was
i do not write fo who i've become
i do not write for who i am not
i do not write for me
i write for you
Oct 21, 2017
Oct 21, 2017 at 4:13 PM UTC
Sometimes I wish I were an insect. So small and insignificant. Where all I had to worry was where to eat and where to sleep. Under a rock or deep in the ground away from the world. My only worry the trample of a boot or the squawk of a bird. Sometimes I wish I were an insect.
Sometimes I wish I were a tree. Strong and sturdy. Where all I had to do was stand and watch the seasons change, the people change, the world change. My only worry the chop of an ax or whether my roots are deep and strong enough to stand against the howling winds. I wish I were a tree.
Sometimes I wish I were a river. Moving rapidly and easy. Where all I had to do was go with the flow of my current. My only worry the unbearable heat that brings on a drought or the toxins of man. I wish I were a river.
Jun 16, 2017
Jun 16, 2017 at 3:47 AM UTC
why think so lowly of me
these flickering heart
arching back
if only you know
but
what the use of
your knowings
why think so lowly of me
it's not me
i am not flicking the flame
how could i
but
what the use of
these confessions
why think so lowly of me
those shattered imperfect dreams
gazing eyes
if only you know
but
what the use of
my explanations
you will still think so lowly of me
May 31, 2017
May 31, 2017 at 7:06 AM UTC
but darling,
i must not say that
you deserve someone better
for if you truly were enamored of me,
i would have been the best.
but darling,
if all these years i was not,
then i must conclude
we only were confused.
and so we both were fooled,
i must confess.
but darling,
if all these years i was not,
i defy you
to not take a day to move on,
i defy you
to not long for my existence,
i defy you
to not reminisce our moments,
i defy you
to not try to break the walls
i will once again build.
but darling,
i must not say that
you deserve someone better
for what i had in me
that i gave you is different,
is irreplaceable,
is a thing i never thought i had.
and so is what your lover will give you.
but darling,
before i bid goodbye,
forgive me for giving up,
forgive me for breaking us apart,
forgive me for taking back my heart,
and forgive me for not forgiving you.
but darling,
i must not say that
you deserve someone better.
you deserve someone,
not better,
but is not me.
Apr 30, 2016
Apr 30, 2016 at 7:52 AM UTC
So messed up
So confused
Lost in my own head
Actions - not my own
******* over
Multiple times
By what was to be
My success
My life
I never knew
That life could be so difficult
Been declined and denied
Oh, too many times over
Set the world ablaze
Light it on fire
Burn the world
And savour the heat
Keep it in
Until finally it becomes
Too much
Then burst
And burn
And shine
Like a supernova
Apr 9, 2016
Apr 9, 2016 at 8:55 AM UTC
I'm not the same
I've been destroyed
I've gone insane
The struggle I have
Figuring out why
I've become this way
How did I allow this
It was somewhere between
Each different heartache
That removed every bit of me
Those no longer in my life
That easily walked away
Without a good bye
A reason why
They robbed me
Pieces of my heart they stole
That day they walked away
I've gone insane
I've been destroyed
I am not the same
These thoughts can't be mine
They're way out of line
Smile during the day
Crying at night
Yelling why
I don't know to get by
Each day I struggle
Questioning why
Begging for it to end
Smiling is no longer easy
My laughs are short
I don't speak anymore
Sleeping doesn't help
Neither does eating
Drugs are a remedy
But only temporarily
Even those
no longer help
Laying wide awake
Remembering why
I've been destroyed
What's made me go insane
To make me not the same
The answers vary
There are so many
I'm not the same
I've been destroyed
I've gone insane
There's no way back
Mar 12, 2016
Mar 12, 2016 at 8:32 PM UTC
They love the mask, but I can't breath through it's lies
They love the mask, but I can't see through it's eyes
They love the mask, but I can't speak with it's tongue
They love the mask, but I can't hear when it's on
Feb 25, 2016
Feb 25, 2016 at 11:09 AM UTC
No matter how many people try to ask.
I make sure they never get a glimpse behind the mask.
Because i am afraid that they will hate me for my past.
If they do i feel i will go straight into an outcast.
And i am afraid that i will be all alone.
I know i can't handle living this life all on my own.
So i make sure the mask is on tight.
But will it last until I go into the light.
What if it breaks, its hiding so much it just might.
Feb 1, 2016
Feb 1, 2016 at 9:45 AM UTC