#noticing - Hello Poetry

i drew a few hearts on my bedding when it was bare without any sheets perhaps i shouldn't have — it's bad manners, what you're taught as a toddler to preach in. but then i wondered — who would ever notice? i'd like to mention, _the art of noticing._ i went to fetch some groceries. while returning, without my headphones, i took notice — and the world seemed to hold me in. a woman was talking to her husband, chatting about how the war drills cancelled. two brothers were playing cricket — i passed them by and heard the younger say, _i'll learn to throw well in time if i grew bolder, yeah?_ the older one smiled — a smile i've done many times — and chuckled. it's not always the best place to be, the world i mean — when you wish to fit in. i'm almost always with my earphones — wired or the other ones, trying to fade it out: the noise, the surreality, almost all of it. because it's just so hard to seek the peace i intend to live with. but then, on a few random days where i feel like the chosen, everything feels a bit better — _like it's not that bad to be broken?_ they function, yes they do — but i notice the way they lag, and sometimes choose just not to show who they are. so they wear masks: ones that hide, ones they despise, and sometimes don’t even realize until it’s too late — and the mask melts into their skin. i feel bad sometimes — this empathy just carries my soul, brings it to absorb every ounce of pain i can from the one beside, and the ones i cross. but on other days like tonight, i walk, almost free. there’s good winds, myself carefree. there’s a lot of work pending — i won’t deny i’m procrastinating. but for once i smile, and i smile at the thought of myself smiling — for no cause, probably seeming delusional to the one in passing. but how do i tell them the moon’s following, and there’s the hint of wet mud after the evening shower — the sensation filling up my blood — and it’s nice for once, easy to exist, almost easier to fit in. my thoughts are like string lights, almost always entangled together. not one single shines bright — but sometimes they glow, like when i'm hit with a current of emotions. they glow bright, almost enchanting — and on nights i'm able to sort, sort through the flickering ones, the ones that died, and the ones that hold the right light, i pour them out, let the candle-like wax from my brain transcribe words and feelings into the right imagery, hoping it'll make sense by the time i'm done with it. and this right here is quite one of the examples of same cord of fairy lights _(i'm to believe i might be magical in all my might)._ but then i look around and see the way they look in return — and even though i stand out, stand out in a way the odd one does in the system of evens — it’s not the best thing, not the flashiest. but i continue to walk with a silent acceptance. maybe the world is like this. sometimes i notice the good, often the bad, mostly the in-between. and the greys are a nice position to be in when the extremes have taken you and thrown you. for not all magnets hold together — the like ones just never really go well together. we're all simply misfits — and yet the word holds the fits. so i guess in the end, we all really do miss the irony of it.

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Jun 1, 2025

Jun 1, 2025 at 3:05 PM UTC

poeticaofisshues

out of ideas, so i noticed

i drew a few hearts on my bedding when it was bare without any sheets perhaps i shouldn't have — it's bad manners, what you're taught as a toddler to preach in. but then i wondered — who would ever notice? i'd like to mention, _the art of noticing._ i went to fetch some groceries. while returning, without my headphones, i took notice — and the world seemed to hold me in. a woman was talking to her husband, chatting about how the war drills cancelled. two brothers were playing cricket — i passed them by and heard the younger say, _i'll learn to throw well in time if i grew bolder, yeah?_ the older one smiled — a smile i've done many times — and chuckled. it's not always the best place to be, the world i mean — when you wish to fit in. i'm almost always with my earphones — wired or the other ones, trying to fade it out: the noise, the surreality, almost all of it. because it's just so hard to seek the peace i intend to live with. but then, on a few random days where i feel like the chosen, everything feels a bit better — _like it's not that bad to be broken?_ they function, yes they do — but i notice the way they lag, and sometimes choose just not to show who they are. so they wear masks: ones that hide, ones they despise, and sometimes don’t even realize until it’s too late — and the mask melts into their skin. i feel bad sometimes — this empathy just carries my soul, brings it to absorb every ounce of pain i can from the one beside, and the ones i cross. but on other days like tonight, i walk, almost free. there’s good winds, myself carefree. there’s a lot of work pending — i won’t deny i’m procrastinating. but for once i smile, and i smile at the thought of myself smiling — for no cause, probably seeming delusional to the one in passing. but how do i tell them the moon’s following, and there’s the hint of wet mud after the evening shower — the sensation filling up my blood — and it’s nice for once, easy to exist, almost easier to fit in. my thoughts are like string lights, almost always entangled together. not one single shines bright — but sometimes they glow, like when i'm hit with a current of emotions. they glow bright, almost enchanting — and on nights i'm able to sort, sort through the flickering ones, the ones that died, and the ones that hold the right light, i pour them out, let the candle-like wax from my brain transcribe words and feelings into the right imagery, hoping it'll make sense by the time i'm done with it. and this right here is quite one of the examples of same cord of fairy lights _(i'm to believe i might be magical in all my might)._ but then i look around and see the way they look in return — and even though i stand out, stand out in a way the odd one does in the system of evens — it’s not the best thing, not the flashiest. but i continue to walk with a silent acceptance. maybe the world is like this. sometimes i notice the good, often the bad, mostly the in-between. and the greys are a nice position to be in when the extremes have taken you and thrown you. for not all magnets hold together — the like ones just never really go well together. we're all simply misfits — and yet the word holds the fits. so i guess in the end, we all really do miss the irony of it.