#notices
No one notices too much about me
Ever
Until yesterday
No one knew i haven’t eaten in a good 4 days
That was until I was heading out the bathroom
No one notices until your trying to get back to class
But you feel like your in 2nd grade again
Where your eyes are shut and there dragging you around
But this time there’s nobody holding your hand
Nobody notices until your face is vampire white
And your breaths are heavy
And your sweating
Nobody notices until your hobbling around
Crashing into walls and walls
Crying for someone
You collapse
Then she finds you
She tells you to sit against the wall and breathe
Your vision still black from fainting you don’t know who she is
She tells you to sit against the wall and”drink some water”
But you can’t direct where the water bottle is
She calls 2 more teachers to go to my teacher and tell him
Then the nurse comes
Nobody notices how bad your eating disorder is till she asks
“Did you have breakfast this morning sweetie?”
You shake your head in fear
“Dinner?”
You shake it again
Your glad she dosent ask further but still
She knows
She rolls up your sleeve and in the moment your cuts on your arms
Don’t matter at all
With the sphygmomanometer she squeezes and squeezes
And your tears won’t stop falling
You think when you’ll be okay again
And why this had to happen at school
Who’s gonna know and who’s gonna tell?
She checks and your blood pressures too low
Your blood sugar is too low
Your heart rate is too low
They never notice until all the signs show up
Right in front of there face
And you just can’t deny them
She tries to give me juice but
I can barley sip it
Then Applesauce but I can barley eat it
They help me up
But my heads still spinning
Fingers are still shaking
Vision is still blurry
So they bring up the wheelchair
No one notices how bad it really is
Till they see a girl sobbing
In a wheelchair
From passing out
About 1/3 of my grade is downstairs
Right across from the nurses office
They stare at you
Some in confusion, some in worry, and some in laughter
You hate this feeling when will it ever end
The pain is endless and you just want to be in bed
You just want to hear the sound of her voice
You just want a hug
You don’t want the teacher holding your hand
You want your dad to pick you up
But of course was I his first priority?
No
Of course he had a work meeting
So I, passed out, in pain, nauseous, throwing up, dying
Had to wait about a period for him to come
He comes and he looks at me like I’ve done something wrong
Once I get in the car he dosent meet eyes with me
“Why didn’t you have breakfast this morning?”
You fumble
“Because- because there was no food in the house”
No one notices how bad it’s gotten till your in the car heading home
From fainting in school
“You should be lucky I picked you up, im late for another call”
You fumble
“Im- im really sorry”
The drive home is quiet
And nobody really notices until your home
Their at lunch
Im gone from all the periods before
And you get the text
“Hey you okay?”
You debate what to say
“yea I just fainted im alr tho”
you wait a minute
you know shes gonna tell you something
“Well there’s sorta a rumor about you…”
you freeze
You were hobbling like a drunk girl
You fainted in the hallway
You were sobbing in a wheelchair
Going to the nurses office
Of course some ***** had to make a rumor
“Well im pretty sure they said something about you…
Being anorexic”
No one notices how bad it’s gotten
Till there’s a rumor
About you, yes you
Being anorexic
And now the whole school knows.
Now people notice yes?
But do people care?
Mar 12
Mar 12, 2026 at 8:56 AM UTC
Oil and vinegar,
Sugar and spice;
everything looks nice.
Your wit and charm,
sends long walks of
harmony into a world
of a never ending
façade.
Put's on his best smile,
but he will always be
a broken man.
Stay's at home,
I try my best to
console him and he
Put's his head high,
and thinks no one will
notice.
On the way, he imagines
reactions, that someday
he will have a perfect world,
made the way he wants it.
Making plans for Mikey,
to make sure he's a happy man.
Aug 10, 2021
Aug 10, 2021 at 10:52 PM UTC
Can any one please tell me why I feel like I was put on this earth to be treated any kind of way by people,friends,family, and boyfriends in a (bad way) even doe I know God put me on this earth to do something great but do you know what I'm talking about or know how I feel? If not I'm glade you don't (it's not a great feeling) but this feeling and pain is killing me minute bye minute it's taking my breathe away, can you please tell why I feel like this please oh oh oh oh can you feel my pain? Ooooh yea I just want to run away but I don't know we're to but can you tell me how I still keep going,
Still love,
Still treat people right like how I want to be treated and
Still tell them to keep going
Even doe other people treated me wrong and they don't care about me or how I feel
How do I do it? Cause I don't even know but
I got to shake it off and keep moving on no matter what even thru the pain and the hurt shake,shake,shake,shake it off i got to do what's best for me
Why why why why?
Ummmm please tell me my heart is crying out but no one even notices.
Oct 29, 2015
Oct 29, 2015 at 10:38 PM UTC