#nonmonogamy
So it took me twelve months,
fifty-something weeks,
to understand that someone you want to sleep with
isn't the same as someone you want to wake up beside
You've said it yourself that you enjoy waking with me
taking the smallest sliver of your bed
(and if I take more, I'll hear about it come sun rise
and our laughter will chime)
Not only am I yours, but you are mine.
Jan 31, 2021
Jan 31, 2021 at 1:15 PM UTC
Am I supposed to
Beg you to be happy
in a cage
It feels like we
always have to be
this soup of love
trust
contentment
lust
fear and shame
It makes me tired
I would rather be tired than be without
That thought puts steel in my back
calm in my heart
Anything is better than
nothing
Fear of loss is better than loss itself
But I would like a day
a week
a month
a year without fear
But then that's not life
Life
I am grateful for you
Even when you chase me down
like a hare before hounds
Even when no tree is dense enough
No place safe
quiet enough
At least I am breathing
It has to be enough
Aug 17, 2018
Aug 17, 2018 at 2:43 AM UTC
Was it worth my life
Those few moments of pure real happiness
Yes
But the reason there was a risk
Seems so stupid to me
Why couldn't you just have
Used your imagination
But you couldn't
And so it is
So it was
Worth it
But I wish it had been different
I wish so much
I want a long and
Healthy life
Full of moments of pure
Happiness
With you
But I am scared now
Aug 9, 2018
Aug 9, 2018 at 2:45 PM UTC