#nonexistent
Since,
You don't know
Let me tell you
that, I
Never stopped loving...
you
Will never stop loving...
You
Still love you,...
A Lot...
Even though
You never know that,
I existed...
Just for you & you
Only...
I'm existing,
In the world full
Of monsters...
Where,
You are the light,
The angel
And my
Lover...
Dec 10, 2025
Dec 10, 2025 at 8:42 PM UTC
Conception as it may,
Will lead to only dismay.
For only it to be complete,
Incompleteness holds.
Jul 4, 2025
Jul 4, 2025 at 1:12 AM UTC
A cemetery filled with tombstones everywhere
Even though their lives never existed
And she wrote their lives to be a never-ending tragedy
And maybe it would've changed if they coexisted
They went on so many adventures in her mind
Even if it was just to escape reality
And she then began to lose track of time
Lost in her own mentality
She erased their stories as she got older
But never against her they rioted
And no one could ever scold her
Because they had been quieted
But she still grieved when she thought about them
And she cried over their non-existent tombs
And she wondered what they could have become
If she let them live for infinite moons
If you look closely into the late night
You can see a girl holding a rose of fiction
And if you look deeper, you can see she might
Put it on a grave with no inscription
Sep 26, 2024
Sep 26, 2024 at 10:07 PM UTC
L*ittle by little
every shard of my work
will disappear from this world
and the time will erase
my existence*.
Jul 16, 2021
Jul 16, 2021 at 4:44 PM UTC
Permanent scars
Temporary hope
Temporarily permanent life
Nonexistent, really.
Sep 9, 2019
Sep 9, 2019 at 8:16 AM UTC
Eyes are supposed to be
the windows to the soul...
I think they’re really
Just funhouse mirrors
Taking something
And twisting it
Into something that is not
Apr 4, 2019
Apr 4, 2019 at 12:36 PM UTC
I was not here
You never saw me
We never spoke
You never told me in spring
That you don’t
I am alone
This never happened
I never did this
I can’t give
What I don’t own
I never will be there
Maybe you will
But I shall not
And I don’t care
Mar 25, 2019
Mar 25, 2019 at 10:35 AM UTC
Walking through a mist of hatred,
With no fog lights,
I was idle to see
What love is to be.
Feb 23, 2019
Feb 23, 2019 at 12:37 AM UTC
I ******* hate you for what you did. You knew that my heart was yours and you did this to me .. you caused me to bleed. In that moment you made all the i love you’s ******* irrelevant. I hate you with everything I have, with my whole existence and soul. How could one person cause so much hurt. I trusted you I told you I was scared to get close to another being and you didn’t care. You took the last piece and now I’m vanished, not even dust at this moment but and aura of hate. I hope you see this one day luv.
Oct 25, 2018
Oct 25, 2018 at 5:42 PM UTC
Look down.
Keep your head down as much as possible;
they're judging you.
No one wants to see your face.
I wish I could wear a mask;
be invisible.
Walk through the halls without being seen,
go unnoticed.
“No one notices you.”
I know but...
just to not exist,
not to go through the embarrassment
of just being there.
Tiny glances meaning nothing
but feeling like everything.
Blank faces.
If only they could all just be
blank faces.
Faces that don't judge.
Mysterious and dark but not judgemental.
No eyes so I don't know what they think of me;
no analyzing,
no sneering.
Just faces that I can't compare myself to.
Faces with no emotion so they can't:
laugh at me,
look at me,
judge me.
Jul 26, 2018
Jul 26, 2018 at 4:54 PM UTC
I felt the plunge of it's talons
As it wretched my heart to pieces
The excruciating feeling of the ripping and the tearing of my heart
The sounds of it feeding upon me brought forth the vile in my stomach
I couldn't survive this time! I knew there had to be an end.
No more pain, no more ugly thoughts running rampant in my mind
No more seeking desperately to make it stop!
To just lay down and feel no more is the only thing left that I want!
To know that I was just a crazy woman in everyone's mind matters no more.
Jun 24, 2018
Jun 24, 2018 at 3:36 PM UTC
Strange
How the outside world
Makes such a blaring, disturbing noise
Yet only the silence settles between us.
Strange
How I'm right beside you
Sitting straight,
Yet I don't seem to even be here.
Strange.
How simple the world can be,
How simple we could be,
But you don't even exist.
Jun 5, 2018
Jun 5, 2018 at 10:40 AM UTC
you are a metaphor
you are made up
you are like something
but you are not real
you are my life
but of course you’re not really
because how can something
that doesn’t exist
be my life
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 6:32 AM UTC
I can't sleep at night
So I see you in my day dreams.
Insomniac on a mission
Projecting visions on a big screen
I spot an opening to your heart, in my dream analysis
Want to enter but can't move
I guess that's sleep paralysis
So I stay where I am and just focus on this visual
Convinced it's not real, though I can feel the residual
It's embedded in my memory
This dream has got the best of me
I pray that when I wake, you'll be sittin' right here next to me
But if it doesn't come true
If I never come to
At least here we exist
All of me
and
All of you
Feb 8, 2017
Feb 8, 2017 at 9:31 PM UTC
I am clearly just completely mental,
Just delusive,
Just outcast from society,
Just me;
I'm the the quiet girl
Who you don't ever hear speak,
Looking scared of the world,
Alone in every corner that she's been to.
Oct 10, 2016
Oct 10, 2016 at 6:18 PM UTC
TIME has so much power and say on our day to day.
It tells us if we are early or late.
If we should be hired or fired.
Determines if we're morally correct or socially incorrect.
Our definition of TIME is far from perfect.
TIME is a song that has your radio station infected.
Can't change the station, can't escape it.
"Ugh! I hate this song!!!" singing along
We are the dysfunctional orchestra,
the composers of this catchy tune.
Composed by the abused watches we wear,
the guilty murderer clocks we hang on our walls
and by our notorious digital clocks in our phones.
Our favorite dance partner is 'Father Time'.
Dancing to the ticking and tocking.
Grooving at the speed of gears turning.
Steady rhythm; never speeding or slowing.
TIME does not exist, TIME keeping does. Oh silly humans......
measuring something that does NOT exist.
Jul 1, 2016
Jul 1, 2016 at 10:53 PM UTC
*Freedom is just a word to me.
Freedom is what I long for!
Sitting on this jail bed
Wishing to escape:
These constant fights
These burglar bars
These lonely nights
and emotional scars
Freedom is just a word to me.
Freedom is what I long for!*
Aug 21, 2015
Aug 21, 2015 at 11:03 AM UTC
Real friends don't let you hide your emotions from them
Real friends don't let you give them the silent treatment
Real friends don't judge when you're acting crazy
Real friends don't disappear when someone else comes along
Real friends don't join in rumor-spreading
Real friends don't ignore you for the rest of the clique
Real friends don't walk away when you're most vulnerable
Real friends don't let you sit alone
Real friends don't pick others over you
Real friends don't exist
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 11:00 AM UTC
This is not mine!
THIS IS NOT MINE!
THIS IS NOT MY HOME!
your diamond ***
intense compaction and heat
clear like hash gum
red as a cherry until it pops bittersweet
the end is enough
but victory feels naught
years of blood I cough
and hate is what i'm taught.
Away from sane
Pleasures of pain
Try and keep the loose locks chained
Realities plane
From what we gain
Oh life is tamed
From heart to brain
Your name is bane
Now I’m the same
These maggots of shame
Express my frame
The life of death is but a game
The fowls in your lies
They **** out my eyes
Streaking fire harmonize
Along the lines of mental suicide
now lost in higher skies
Known like when a ghost dies
Inegligible melting wax
With a sea of philosophical facts
Tearing your nails for satisfaction
incomprehensible refractions
why try to grasp such fractions
to only destroy your foundation?
like narcotics and communication
or the vane abyss of dead relaxation
Jun 14, 2015
Jun 14, 2015 at 7:16 PM UTC
Every year on the twenty first of February you are the reason for the big smile on face
You add a new prettier bigger candle onto my birthday cake
You bring me into your strong arms and give me the warmest hug that a father could give
Every year I wish for the same thing, for you to spend my birthday with me again
The perfect husband and father
You are my mother's soulmate
And my best friend
You, however,are nonexistent
You left my mother
And you never showed me love,not even on the twenty- first of February
You never gave me a warm hug not even once
In my imagination is were you live
But reality would always get rid of you
And it broke my heart every year on the same day
Every year until my sixteenth birthday I wished for the same thing, for you to spend the twenty first of February at least once with me
All I wanted
All I needed
Was to be your little girl
At least just once
On the twenty-first of February
But you are nonexistent...
May 28, 2015
May 28, 2015 at 4:13 PM UTC