#nonexistant
I am lost
Without words to guide the way
I cannot see more than ten feet
Directly in front of me
I am nothing
I cannot hope to be anything more
Please don't tell me that I'm perfect
That 'you're good just the way you are!'
I'm really not okay
So don't pretend that I am
I am tired of being me
I am tired of being sane
Because I'm not
So I'm going to pretend that you don't treat me like a slave
That I am not just your personal maid
I am used to being stepped on
Used for anything at all
I just want to feel something good
Love that goes bother ways.
But I am dried up
I have no more love to give
All the people I have loved
Have drunk me up
Given me nothing at all but pity and a sad smile
As they walked away
Relishing my denial
So don't tell me that you want me
Because I know that want is not love
And even if it was
You don't deserve me
Because I am all dried up
Apr 21, 2020
Apr 21, 2020 at 2:21 AM UTC
“So that’s it? You’re just letting me go?”
I’m not just “letting you go”,
You see... you chose to do so.
It started off subtle, slow.
I will not intercept with your flow.
Don’t get comfortable, you won’t stay.
It might hurt, be as it may,
I’ll get going and be out of your way.
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 9:50 PM UTC
Not meant to be
Means nothing to me
I am unpersonified,
A bounty on every breath
I ceased to exist
At 5 months conceived
I was born a miscarriage,
A mistake, a not meant to be
Fate has no ties,
No threads to weave
Im a mess up in the
Fundamental tapestry
Even god seeks my death
To take back what's not mine
Defiant, deviant, I don't abide
My life is not forfeit
Unbound, unbalanced, unknown
I fight for the right to LIVE.
Aug 20, 2017
Aug 20, 2017 at 9:15 PM UTC
My teacher gave me homework
she said to find a chord
that represented me, my life,
and my place on the board.
I did not turn in the homework
so my teacher and I spoke
I told her I did not exist
(not even as a chord)
and most saw me as a joke.
Jan 19, 2016
Jan 19, 2016 at 8:53 PM UTC
2 year's ago
Hey God, it's just me.
I'm trying to reach out to you again.
Why don't you ever talk to me?
The people at my church say that they hear your voice in their times of need.
Well here I am sitting behind a closed door because I can't face anyone with tears in my eyes; but I'm reaching out to YOU...And you still don't answer my prayers.
1 year ago
Things seem to be getting worst, but I'm trying to look on the bright side;
I know you will make things better over time....right?
That's what others are telling me.
3 months ago
Actually, when I think about it; you've never answered any of my prayers
You never stoped the bullying, I did.
You didn't get rid of my mom's tumor, it's still there.
You couldn't get me through my problems because you never answered me.
I'm trying, im REALLY trying to believe in you right now but your not giving me any proof..
All I need is one, just one prayer to come true
Then I will know I haven't been relying on nothing.
last night
No? Nothing? Really?
So now it's up to me to make things better,
Here's goodbye to the higher power that Is known as our Lord and savior.
I just want to know why.
Why when I have no proof of you, I still try?
still try and talk to you, to believe in you?
Why am I even writing this?
Is it that you actually don't exist or that your ignoring me?
Jun 14, 2015
Jun 14, 2015 at 11:58 PM UTC
A promise, by definition is
a declaration or assurance that one will do a particular thing
Or that a particular thing will happen
Promises are made everyday
Hundreds
of
Millions
But so many of them are broken
But why are they broken, some may ask
But promises you see
Are nothing
They mean absolutely nothing
They are not a bone that will hurt when broken
They are just a bunch of words
Spoken from one person to another
A rule being set in place
"We will be together forever"
"I will never cheat on you, ever"
I've heard it all
But rules are set
To be broken
So promises are made
To be broken
Nov 18, 2014
Nov 18, 2014 at 8:48 PM UTC