#nonconforming
Unmovable.
Grounded.
Fair.
Not bending to rules.
Not twisting my neck
to fit a narrow doorway.
A voice
like a signpost
pointing ahead.
Think this way.
Think that way.
Follow.
My mind is not a leash.
My instincts are a compass
never learned, never read.
I am not a follower.
I am not a prisoner.
I stand
in my own alignment.
I follow no rules
but the quiet authority
inside my own mind.
I let my brain lead.
I do not conform
to cages dressed as guidance,
to control disguised as care.
Yet I am called insane.
I say
I am
Sane.
Mar 2
Mar 2, 2026 at 9:59 PM UTC
Society sees us as black and white,
Good or bad,
Wrong or right,
Even their shades of gray are seen as improper and strange and not right.
But I am not black or white and
I am not those shades of gray,
I am bent light.
I strive when it's rainy and shine high and bright
I am the small ray of rainbow light,
A ROYGBIV full of life.
Even if they say I'm too blinding,
I'll keep on shining and I won't conform.
I’ll blind them with my radiating pride.
I won't let the world see me in black and white.
Oct 30, 2024
Oct 30, 2024 at 11:18 PM UTC
Heart's quiescence defies hope's recreance.
Resigned to singular endeavor,
Connection's Desert Delver
decries society's conformity salve.
Bearing burns by breaking-
Ashes pile on the ground.
Sep 18, 2019
Sep 18, 2019 at 4:50 PM UTC
I saw what the world wanted me to be
I saw the projections and figures everywhere
I saw the expectations, the social constructs
the suggestions, the insistence
and then
i stopped looking
I took away the mirror and let it fall to the floor
a million pieces
I invited my seven years of bad luck
so I could stop looking.
I looked within myself instead.
I stood on the edge of the mountain, where society wanted to push me over the edge
I stood on the edge of the ocean, where it wanted the waves to drown me
I clung to the earth, where it's winds and currents would rather have me swept away.
I stood there and I screamed.
I bellowed into the deepest valley, and across the sea
I wanted every ear to feel the sound
I howled until my lungs felt free
" E N O U G H "
rejecting the false image pushed upon me
I looked within myself and found the universe when the earth wanted to swallow me whole.
My reflection belongs to me,
this world cannot contain me
but it tried to own me
Self liberated
from imposed shackles.
Aug 4, 2019
Aug 4, 2019 at 8:45 PM UTC
i dream of domestication
while being nailed to the picket fence of perfection.
six figures;
i hold his hand in my right.
my reflection in the mirror is split in two
because i threw stones and ruined your view.
in my left, her hand is warm,
and we're making less than the man twenty stories up.
i've been kicked to the bottom,
but she tastes so sweet.
you see, it's bitter;
i'm two halves
and they're begging me to be whole.
call it what you want, but i'll hold them both.
Oct 30, 2018
Oct 30, 2018 at 3:01 PM UTC
I look out in wonder as my story unfolds
However I try, I fit no mold
I try to conform, only to witness a storm
So great a weight, on so small a form
I keep true to self and let belief ensue
For why should conformities dull my hue
The questions afloat, the answers unfound
They say when one is lost, one is found
Jul 29, 2018
Jul 29, 2018 at 2:47 AM UTC
what happens when i no longer like your pink, sweet, version of me you’ve curated?
what would happen if i erased all colour completely?
no, i’m not talking about choosing blue over pink or yellow or green
“gender neutral” clothing isn’t any shade on the colour wheel
i’m talking about if i never associated the colour pink with femininity
and blue with masculinity
and yellow and green with “gender neutrality”
what if my life was just void of colour?
like if i were to say i didn’t feel like a girl nor a boy
nor the brief possibility of both
i just feel
like that grey space in between the most diluted shades on the colour wheel
would you still force me to call myself “daughter”?
Nov 29, 2017
Nov 29, 2017 at 3:26 AM UTC
~Christi Michaels~January 2015~
Always too Much
Followed by too Little
Flawed in my ability
To understand
how to balance the two
Always too Much
Followed by too Little
Left with not knowing what to do.
Since the day of my birth
Till the day of today
My own nemesis
Every step of the way
As if the wrong download
was set into place
Incongruent with my gentle beauty
My comfortable face
Always too Much
Followed by too Little
I am flawed in my ability
Born without the understanding
Of how to balance the two
Always too Much
Followed by too Little
Left with not knowing what to do
Copyright © 2014 Christi Michaels.
All Rights Reserved.
Jan 14, 2015
Jan 14, 2015 at 5:40 PM UTC