#noend
I ran away but i fell
My darkened soul
Couldn't let me rise
The ocean waves swept
And sank me in the dark
But my darkened soul
Was not in fear
I held onto, waiting for death
But I saw the sun shining
I guess there isnt an end for me
©Pauline
Jul 19, 2021
Jul 19, 2021 at 12:13 PM UTC
i'm no good, but
here I am anyway,
again
typing words
into poems.
i'm afraid that
all this is
a waste of time.
that I read some
poetry somewhere
long ago and
mistakenly believed
that I too could
do that.
but I can't
help it,
these words still
show up
somehow.
even
when they
don't end
well.
Aug 30, 2020
Aug 30, 2020 at 9:00 AM UTC
"EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE"
"IT CAN CHANGE"
but why are the Voices getting louder
why is the world getting faster and faster
too fast
too loud
everything in my head´s spinning
the Lights get brighter and my heart´s beating even faster
i want it to stop
but it wont stop
i scream
i want it to stop
i beg it to stop
but it wont
and it never will
i try to calm down
and tell myself that
"I´LL BE FINE"
…
start from top again
Oct 26, 2018
Oct 26, 2018 at 5:50 PM UTC
You wake up to a painful alarm.
Feet hitting the floor you start your day.
With no feeling you shower and dress.
No breakfast needed.
The drive to work slow but rushed.
Work starts with a shouting boss.
More more more more.
Work drags on.
Lunch.
Tears welling up.
Work starts again.
Numbness and empty paper work.
The days end.
The drive home slower not rushed.
Home finally.
Sleep bed darkness.
Blank dreams filled with screams.
You wake up to a painful alarm.
Oct 24, 2016
Oct 24, 2016 at 6:58 PM UTC
I can't handle this
I can't battle this
There's no way I could ever do it again
I won't survive where I've already been
There is no recovery after my relapse
My heart will decay and my soul will collapse
On the verge of breaking
No I'm not faking
This isn't a help me cry
If it comes to this just let me die
It just reminds me of my darkest places
All my schizophrenic echoes in empty spaces
And this time they'll get the better of me
I will suffocate I will cease to be
Sep 6, 2015
Sep 6, 2015 at 10:02 PM UTC
Awake in nothing
Hands shaking
Eyes darting
Heavy breathing
Not your own
Blind darkness
The ringing
In your ears
The scratching
The knocks
The voices
Driving you
To insanity
You run
They laugh
What to do?
*You awake
In your room
To look over
To see that they caught you.*
Jun 28, 2015
Jun 28, 2015 at 8:35 AM UTC
You acted like a mother
As if I was never a bother
I have always been thankful
For your support is always full
Your wise words
Can never be a bunch of turds
I always remember your advice
To think it twice
You weren't just a friend
You were what they call as "The light"
Who shines with no end
Sometimes I think to myself
I now have a lot of debt
I don't know what happened
But we kind of drifted apart
Yet you'll always be in my heart
I guess all I ever want you to know
Is how you are important and so
I made this specially for you
Read it whenever you feel blue
So you'd have a clue
That I love you too
This may serve as my greatest THANK YOU
Mar 19, 2015
Mar 19, 2015 at 5:55 AM UTC