#nightvibes
What am I
but something unfinished
left in the dark too long
until it forgot what light felt like
What am I
but a voice that learned to stay quiet
because every word it spoke
was turned into something wrong
I stood where you left me
between who I was
and who you said I should be
and I stayed there
long enough to disappear
I tried to be gentle
but the world pressed harder
I tried to be honest
but truth only made me a target
I tried to be enough
but enough was always just out of reach
So I started breaking in places
no one could see
small fractures at first
then something deeper
something permanent
Now I hear myself differently
not soft
not loud
just distant
like a memory that does not belong to me anymore
Tell me
what am I supposed to become
when every step forward
feels like losing another piece
What am I
when I no longer recognize
the reflection staring back at me
when even silence feels heavier than noise
Maybe I was never meant
to be understood
maybe I was only meant
to be shaped
pressed
changed
until there was nothing left
but something you could blame
And now you look at me
like I chose this
like I was born this way
But you were there
every time I broke
every time I bent
every time I disappeared
So if you need something to fear
something to point at
something to call wrong
Then look closer
I am the villain you created.
Mar 26
Mar 26, 2026 at 9:33 AM UTC
ice cold wind
disheveled hair
taste of liquor
on my cold lips
warming up my cold body
wrapped in cozy blankets
tearful eyes starring
into the wide darkness
coated by the sparkle of the stars
guarded by the moon
Apr 6, 2021
Apr 6, 2021 at 5:33 PM UTC