#nf
Welcome to my castle, built of stones and scars that don't fade. Welcome to my castle.
Carpets of red crimson like blood.
Welcome to my castle.
Come inside, but know that the deeper we go, the darker the rooms.
Throne room. Crown of thorns as I smile and bow.
I am a jester and the queen, a royal and a commoner.
They demand a show.
I dance and they laugh, so I bow.
Library.
Towering shelves of thoughts and dreams.
I lose myself in the labyrinth of books.
I read the pages of the future and keep the children's stories out of reach.
The spires.
From the spire windows, I see a wasteland.
And the sky that is blue.
Up here, I can see my dreams in the stars.
Children's laughter echo through the constellations,
but the higher I climb, the farther I fall into the cold.
Isolation is the price
and I am alone.
Dungeons.
It is cold down here.
Shadows reach every corner and swallow the sun's rays.
Childhood memories scream like forgotten prisoners.
The darkness whispers,
"they'll leave you too."
Loneliness lives down here.
Always there, patient and cold.
Do you see, dearest guest? I have let you into my castle. You have seen everything. All I am is a puppet queen. I hope you visit often and bring the sun and your laughter with you. Until then, know this castle. Know me and remember that even puppet queens can dream.
Nov 6, 2025
Nov 6, 2025 at 11:41 AM UTC
Climb with me
Down we go
Will this ever stop?
Gee I don't know
It's getting dark are you scared?
Here comes the storm are you prepared?
Who is author of this poetry?
Think he might be ADD
Still with me? Good
Turn the lights on and see
Everything you thought was real
Was really just make believe.
Mar 29, 2021
Mar 29, 2021 at 9:51 PM UTC
How could you leave me so unexpected?
I was waiting, I was waiting
For you but you just left me
I needed you, I needed you
Yo, I don't know what it's like to be addicted to *****
But I do know what it's like to be a witness it kills
You told me you love me, I'm thinking this isn't real
I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell, yeah
Welcome to the bottom of hell
They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell
You say you proud of me, but you don't know me that well
Sit in my room, tears running down my face and I yell
Into my pillowcases, you say you coming to get me
Then call me a minute later just to tell me you not, I'm humiliated
I'm in a room with a parent that I don't barely know
Some lady in the corner watching us, while she taking notes
I don't get it dad, don't you want to watch your baby boy grow?
I guess that ***** is more important, all you have to say is no
But you won't do it will you? You gon' keep drinking 'til the ***** kills you
I know you gone but I can still feel you
Why would you leave me? Why would you leave me here?
How could you leave me here?
How would you leave me? Why would you leave me?
Oh, Hey
I got this picture in my room and it kills me
But I don't need a picture of my dad, I need the real thing
Now a relationship is something we won't ever have
Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had?
You shoulda been there when I graduated
Told me you love me and congratulations
Instead you left me at the window waiting
Where you at dad? I was too young to understand where you at huh?
Yeah, I know that alcohol got you held captive
I can see it in your eyes, its got your mind captured
Some say it's fun to get the high but I am not laughing
What you don't realise and what you not grasping
That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand
I ain't gon' say that I forgive you cause it hasn't happened
I thought that maybe I feel better as time passes
If you really cared for me, then where you at then?
Why would you leave me? Why would you leave me?
How could you leave me here?
How would you leave me? Why would you leave me?
Hey
Our last conversation, you and I sat in the living room
Playing our video games, you started slurring and I broke down in front of you
You started crying, telling me this isn't you
Couple weeks later, guess you were singing a different tune
You Drank that ***** for the last time, didn't you?
It took you from me once, guess It came back to finish you
Crying my eyes out in the studio is difficult
Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you
It took everything inside of me to not scream at your funeral
Sitting in my chair, that person talking was pitiful
I wish you were here dad but every time I picture you
All I feel is pain, I hate the way I remember you
They found you on the floor, I could tell that you felt hollow
Gave everything you had plus your life to those jack bottles
You gave everything you had plus your life to them jack bottles
Don't know if you hear me or not, but if you still watching why
Why would you leave me? Why would you leave me?
How could you leave me here?
How would you leave me? Why would you leave me?
Hey
Sep 7, 2018
Sep 7, 2018 at 5:29 PM UTC
...I fell in love with my pain and I slept with my regrets
Happiness saw it happen, maybe that's why she up and left
Joy called me a cheater, said she ain't coming back
I've always had a problem with relationships
But that's what happens when you see the world through a broken lens...
Mar 30, 2018
Mar 30, 2018 at 2:57 PM UTC
I look at you now
Yeah what I used to see
Is breaking me down
Why ain't you like you used to be?
Still beautiful as ever, yet I feel no unity
Usually, I just feel like you're using me
You're telling me you love me, yeah, from the lips of your mouth
But honestly, honesty isn't what I think's coming out
Seems the people you love the most, push you down, let you go
That's why I'm here to let you know, we lie to people just for show
You pretend you care, but really it don't bother you
Wonder if it will when I decide to say goodbye to you
I'm trying to fix it, what you think I'm trying to do?
You don't like my attitude, then wonder why I'm mad at you
I've had enough of it
My heart, you ain't touching it
You say you're in love with it
But really, you're crushing it
I don't hate you, I'm just trying to understand how you feel
There ain't no point of continuing this if it ain't even real
Feb 27, 2018
Feb 27, 2018 at 3:51 PM UTC
*** If you want love...
...you're going to have to
...go through the pain...***
Oct 24, 2017
Oct 24, 2017 at 3:14 PM UTC
*Flashing lights sweep past your face,
illuminating something you don't understand.*
**A beat so deep your core is rocked,
and everything sounds like an oscillating fan.**
*A thousand people around you,
jumping out of sync to a song with so many meanings.*
and for just a moment, you are not you,
but a lost soul glad to be home.
Oct 5, 2016
Oct 5, 2016 at 1:05 PM UTC
*I saw someone dying today.
Not the first time i've seen that but still it's shocking.
I'm a special investigation officer in the netherlands and i see alot of things most people don't see and don't want to see.
This time it was different than the others,
This time I kept thinking about it.
You're life can be over in just a few seconds.
Stand still for a moment and just think about that.
Think about everything you lose and everybody who will be sad about you passing away.
I've seen the face of the lady that died today.
She was shaking and she said to me that every memory of her life came back and she had flashbacks in split seconds.
I hope everybody stands still to appteciate life before it's over.
Rest in piece*
May 26, 2016
May 26, 2016 at 6:39 PM UTC