#newyearsday
"New year, new me,"
a mantra whispered into the dark,
as if the stroke of midnight
can wipe clean the etchings
of who we were at 11:59.
We wear the weight of traditions
like party hats—
countdowns, clinking glasses,
resolutions scrawled on napkins,
as though promises made in the haze of champagne
carry more truth.
At midnight, the world holds its breath,
waiting for the shift,
for time to absolve us.
But the seconds press on,
steady, indifferent,
while we convince ourselves
that this time it will be different.
Tomorrow, the confetti will settle.
The mirror will reflect the same face.
Yet somewhere in the flicker of a sparkler,
or the echo of laughter,
is the hope that pretending
might someday make it real.
Jul 6, 2025
Jul 6, 2025 at 4:02 AM UTC
Playground duty, for my sins.
I catch you clawing at soil, your small
fingers tasting the earth.
You hand me a stone
you found in the muck
and tell me to keep it
because it’s special
it will keep me safe.
I can’t remember the last time I received such a thoughtful gift.
Jan 1, 2023
Jan 1, 2023 at 9:59 AM UTC
Lists are what keep me whole
all year round. A jar full of happiness,
chalk board of errands and
phone notes, reminding me I need bleach.
In 2022, what will I keep?
What gets discarded, what shall I burn?
No, actually let’s stick with discard.
I’ve always been afraid of fire;
I’m a water sign.
Keep:
Humour, for sanity
A helping hand, good karma
Animals and plenty of them
Mum, my arch and armour
Hope
Tea
Books in the bath
The friends who ask me how I am when I’ve forgotten to ask myself.
Discard:
Quite possibly, everything else.
Or, realistically, maybe
the lies. Just the ones about
my feelings.
Jan 1, 2022
Jan 1, 2022 at 5:11 AM UTC
This is not the world as I knew it
And yet it’s all I know
Jan 18, 2020
Jan 18, 2020 at 2:26 PM UTC
Teresa!?!
~Tanner!
Terribly
Tardy?
Ticktock ;)
~Time?
T-minus
10
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2
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12:00am!
~2020!!!
2020!!!
Tequila
Toast!
~Tequilla
Toast—
To
2020!!!
To
2020!!!
~Terviseks!
Terviseks!
~Tasty :)
Tequilla
Tesoro
~Tesoro?
Translated
"Treasure"
~Tasty
Treasure ;)
Top-notch!
~Tip-top!
(tender
touch...)
~Terrific
Timing :)
Terrific
Time...
~Totally
Thoughts?
~Tired
Terrible
Timing :(
~Terribly
Tuckered.
Together
Tonight?
~Together
Tomorrow?
Together
Today!
12:00pm :)
~That's
True!
Today,
12:00pm :)
Terrific!
~Till
Then—
Tootles!
© 2020 by Mark Toney. All rights reserved.
Jan 18, 2020
Jan 18, 2020 at 12:58 PM UTC
we were like
water filled balloons,
dropping
from high buildings
in the nights
december.
it was safe to say
january leave
a good impression
but luckily for us,
we haven’t seen it since.
december, please
give me your shoulder.
thirty-one/twelve came,
and we were waiting
for the ball to drop, and
we were waiting for
the ***** to drop, and
for boys to become men
and for someone to grab our hands
and for wrongs
to become rights and
for the windows to be
opened,
for the fresh air to find us
amidst the suffocating smoke
and mistakes
that clogged up our lungs
so we couldn’t laugh how we used to.
three,
two,
one:
deafening screams,
fifty-eight people with
two hands
on two cheeks
with two eyes closed
and two lips
on two others,
and where were we?
the fifty-nine and sixty
were on the roof of the
apartment building,
staring at the stars,
wondering which one
was going
to die next.
you and I,
we were like bin bags
overflowing with waste
in the kitchen
with broken glass.
our material was stretching
so it was thin and grew
clearer with the more
waste it took
and just like that,
one/twelve was here.
so I put my two hands
on your two shoulders
with my two eyes
wide open
and shook you
until your eyes rolled back
and your hair was a mess
and your ears were burning;
and we were waiting for
things to make sense, and
we were still waiting
for the ***** to drop and
for men to grow up, and
for someone to grab our hands,
for those wrongs
to feel right
for the door to be closed
and for the fireplace to burn
our troubles away
so we could laugh like we used to.
by twenty-three/four,
we had made
our mistakes into those
falling
stars instead of
ourselves,
and our
memories part of the
full moonlight,
and on the
thirty-first of each month,
we’d remember
the times where
we were like
water filled balloons,
bin bags, overflowing
with waste
and emotional baggage,
dropping,
from high buildings
in the nights of december.
Sep 19, 2018
Sep 19, 2018 at 12:17 PM UTC