#newer
New Job.
New Drive.
New Interest.
It's all so new,
yet so-so familiar.
All there is, the heat -
encased in a fireplace
or a furnace.
Smoldering,
the ashes
never filter through
these windless lungs,
instead of oxygen
the flame kindles
on anxiety.
Life is going splendidly - no hiccups -
Breathing is easy
but all that rushes in
is the flagrant blossom
of ragged thoughts,
all the possibilities
for how helpless
the wind is
when it's always being
knocked out.
Feb 20, 2021
Feb 20, 2021 at 10:08 PM UTC
i'm catching my breath,
harder and harder each time.
polishing every idea till every single one is perfect
crushing ice cubes, i need some water
like a plant, i need to grow
i need constant growth
who am i
if there's no getting better
i don't wanna live
in the world without a goal
it's pointless then
let me rest
new ideas came
they need my attention right now
let this one sink
in its flesh
i won't cry after it
there will be plenty to come
newer
fresher
better
more creative
let this one die
let chaos take over
Jan 4, 2019
Jan 4, 2019 at 7:48 PM UTC
The lustre of the sun shining
The fog in my soul disappear
I'm not afraid anymore
Love standing next to me
The electric shock continued to be felt
I'm on one step ahead.
Aug 24, 2018
Aug 24, 2018 at 9:42 AM UTC
Sometimes you just want to stay away,
Forget the memories and forget the pain.
Sometimes you wish you never felt,
What once was frozen and now has melt.
Sometimes you wish you were cuter,
Feeling so old and wishing to be newer.
Sometimes you utterly hate yourself,
Wishing you were worth more and full of wealth.
Sometimes you want to lie down and cry,
Never accepting there are others who died,
The same way you did, the same feelings you felt.
Sometimes you wish you could forget it and be held.
Sometimes you want to cut yourself,
Just to know how it feels.
Sometimes you wish you knew hell,
Just to forget and finally heal.
Sometimes you wish you knew blades,
Knew how they felt.
Sometimes you wish you weren’t bait,
Just to get captured and eventually smelt.
Jan 3, 2018
Jan 3, 2018 at 5:33 PM UTC
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malice so gelidly plated
on the day of the parting
an old fading rose not receiving love
her bitter heart icy in grief
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the fresher bloom captivated
his soul with an exceeding depth
a budding beauty so glorious
of splendour he'd prefer to hold
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words exchanged between
which made for a catty scene
out came the elder woman's claws
wanting to scratch the dahlia's eyes
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and the allure of newer flower
he'd ever keep
as the ancient wrinkles
in time did finally creep
Oct 7, 2017
Oct 7, 2017 at 7:48 AM UTC
what an amazing year
full of tears
full of joy
full of everything amazing
full of everything horrible
don't cry because it over
smile because it happened
Dec 31, 2014
Dec 31, 2014 at 8:02 PM UTC