#neverknow
He'll never know how much I love him.
He'll never know how sorry I am for everything
****** I'm sorry!
Just let me be sorry...
I'm sick of hiding behind simple words,
Choking on the ones I can't seem to grasp,
Letting abstract ideas pull me under,
I can't continue to let my mind and my heart go at war
I can't convey how much he means to me
How much he's my other half,
How much I yearn for his presence,
His arms,
His heart to be mine once again.
I can't find a way to let him know that it was a mistake
To let him know that I am his and only his,
To let him know I'm trying
And I'm trying
And I'm trying
But sometimes trying isn't enough,
I can't.
I can't even begin to express
How much I regret pushing him away.
And he'll never know how much I wish I could go back and change it
Jan 28, 2016
Jan 28, 2016 at 10:19 PM UTC
Ups and downs and scattered issues
trials and tribulations, confusion and victories
Dealing with loss at every level, but still strive
Money, cars, women, houses, morals or lack their of
Mothers, brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles we fall into generations
opinions, facts, risk, educations and crime
Lust, *** happiness, anger lead to understanding
I am just a vessel in this game called life
What will be will be regardless to my belief
Personalities, disorder, disease, medication
Thin lines between love and hate
Religions, gods, followers all manipulated by others
Shared thoughts of impurities, fakeness and adaptability
Jan 8, 2015
Jan 8, 2015 at 11:30 AM UTC