#neurotransmitors
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i was sitting out
on the porch
of our old historic
home this morning
the beauty of
the desert all around me
birds were making
their early waking
shower songs
the sun having just
arrived in from
the east
the temperature
is perfect
all is right with
the world
right?
WRONG
i was obsessing
about a relationship
i've just had a
breakup
i was thinking
over and over again
about what HE had done
my parents are ill
i was obsessing about that
i am ill
that took a huge part
of my attention
how many times
have i done this?
burned a wide swath
through my
neuropathways
OBSESSING
not on good things
on the
BAD
we always complain
about the way we
ALWAYS
remember
the bad stuff
is this not
what we
OBSESS OVER
?
OUR
NEUROPATHWAYS
ARE SEARED
BY THE
NEGATIVE!!!
and so often we
take the *positive
FOR GRANTED*
honestly
how much
mental air time
do we give
a glorious sunset
a great time at the beach
a walk in the rain
a lovely flower
A BEAUTIFUL MORNING
?
our brains get
wired
for the
negative
right then and there
i started to
THANK GOD
for the beauty around me
i started to
notice things
a flower that was just opening
the exact color of
the pearleceant sky
(a kind of peachy lavender)
a silly
coyote
his coat
russet and shining
heading down
the alleyways!
IF I'D BEEN
OBSESSING OVER THE PAST
I GUARANTEE
I WOULD NEVER
HAVE
NOTICED
HIM!
i had to smile
and smiling is something
i have not done
**IN A LONG TIME**
♡♥♡
Catherine
May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 9:27 AM UTC