#negativethoughts
This feels stronger than before,
Which means the harder the fall.
Anxiety telling me it won’t be no different.
I try to push past it and sometimes I do.
Sometimes I don’t.
We know who was at fault for everything,
Me because i liked to start ****
Which is true no doubt,
But now I’m terrified to mess up again.
I want this to be different so bad.
Hope is creeping around everywhere I turn,
But so does that small whisper once and while.
You think it’ll be different, but it won’t.
Merp..
now what can I think.
It’s scary, and I don’t want either of us too hurt.
We did enough of that.
I just hope I can overcome this..
Dec 9, 2020
Dec 9, 2020 at 6:34 PM UTC
It never flowed fast inside
the river- never hushed
and chased its mark and fell
above the skies
lonely lullabies
cold whispering screams
loud and lonely, deep
and shallowly glowing
like tears do shine while
falling, crashing,
clashing
slow, the blows do touched
its face disturbing silence
till it touched the last of stones
the waves will stop its shaking
leaving echoes singing
Living echoes singing
though dread from deep
though dark beneath
Lively masked with seamings
The river flows a toiling
Jul 1, 2019
Jul 1, 2019 at 8:16 AM UTC
*I'm in a rut, when will it end, I'm sick of toxicity in my guts.
They tell me stop being bothered, what's wrong with you?
Your like a broken doll that's always wearing blue.
We don't wanna hear your cry anymore or see your tears, we wanna be happy, what's wrong with you?
I'm struggling inside, more than you know but I can feel it all too well and you turning your back on me makes me feel it more.
I'm trying to be the best me everyday, when my emotions come out to play and I make a mistake just know I'm trying my best.
I'm like a broken doll that feels like I belong back on the shelf.
What do you do when your best isn't good enough?
Aug 22, 2018
Aug 22, 2018 at 10:24 PM UTC
I never thought I could be this happy and full while being so sad and empty at the same time...
Jul 18, 2018
Jul 18, 2018 at 2:41 AM UTC
It is not true,
don't believe it.
Your brain is being a piece of ****
put it in its place.
It's there to serve you,
not the other way around.
l.v.s
Nov 24, 2017
Nov 24, 2017 at 3:15 AM UTC
A thin sheet of ice borders the warm sea
You may ask:
"Logically speaking, wouldn't the ice melt away? The water would envelope the ice until, like the sea, it became warm. Your statement doesn't make sense"
I often ask myself that exact question
But, if there's a sudden cold snap and the mighty wind bites at the water,
Cooling it and allowing the ice to take hold
Why doesn't the warmth of the water fight to remain?
Shouldn't that large mass of water be able to swallow the ice before it's smothered and frozen?
If the water is so warm, surely it has that strength
Unfortunately, once the ice is joined by the vicious wind
That warm sea- which had created much joy and laughter, for those lucky enough to witness it- becomes overwhelmed and beaten into submission
Listen carefully, boy
When you gaze into the vast ocean of those eyes, into the very soul, of the woman you love
Maybe, just maybe
You'll realise that some things are more powerful than logic
l.v.s
Apr 13, 2016
Apr 13, 2016 at 5:49 AM UTC
Is it me or
is it the devil?
I think that...
I may be evil.
I have broke
my way into
deep trouble.
Is it me or
am I negative?
The squandering
of my thoughts
lead me into a
nasty situation.
Is it me or
am I selfish?
I'm so attached
to myself to the
point where I
start to hate...
people
Is it me that
started this
insanity?
I'm confused
right now
and it's
killing me!
I should
tell my
deep
and
dark
emotions
to leave.
Mar 28, 2017
Mar 28, 2017 at 11:19 PM UTC