#nebulous - Hello Poetry

two (or is it three...?) weeks in to the overnight shift and never have i wanted to wash myself in the golden rays of that nearest star our sun more than i do now as the ineradicable cloak of night stretches itself over these my newly waking hours. this night i feel massive but diffuse, like the ghost of a glacier lingering amongst the scablands; nebulous and immense, like a short-circuited god-machine cannibalizing itself in a forgotten corner of the universe. the sleep is broken, the mind needs rest. the mind needs rest.

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May 9, 2020

May 9, 2020 at 4:01 AM UTC

Laokos

anemic albino animus

two (or is it three...?) weeks in to the overnight shift and never have i wanted to wash myself in the golden rays of that nearest star our sun more than i do now as the ineradicable cloak of night stretches itself over these my newly waking hours. this night i feel massive but diffuse, like the ghost of a glacier lingering amongst the scablands; nebulous and immense, like a short-circuited god-machine cannibalizing itself in a forgotten corner of the universe. the sleep is broken, the mind needs rest. the mind needs rest.

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i think i see you staring at me, But then i turn my head and it is just a trick of the light. The luminescent bulbs reflect off the white walls, and i wince when i hear you speak. A butterfly settles on my cheek. i thought i saw you standing in the corner of my room, watching me sleep as my chest rises and falls with the thought that i will wake up next to you. But it is only a ghost i had created in order to replace you. i hoped i would find you in my dreams. i did, but you were not dreaming of me. And they say that when you dream about someone it's because they fell asleep thinking of you. i highly doubt that is true, And i don't dream during the night, much less about you. i wish you would talk to me. A half of my life says that i can't trust you, because they are afraid that you will hurt me. And the other portion of my life tells me to take chances now, or i won't have stories to tell to my children, or my children's children. And if i can't reach you then i know that i am nothing more than a fragment of a broken star that is not part of your constellations. Because i am too far away for you to see or care about. And I hope that someday i will be part of someone's world. Close enough to see so they miss me when i am gone. But if that never happens then i will fade out rather than burn away. Having nothing to give, i will leave no trace.

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Dec 15, 2015

Dec 15, 2015 at 1:32 PM UTC

phoenixv2

Nebulous

i think i see you staring at me, But then i turn my head and it is just a trick of the light. The luminescent bulbs reflect off the white walls, and i wince when i hear you speak. A butterfly settles on my cheek. i thought i saw you standing in the corner of my room, watching me sleep as my chest rises and falls with the thought that i will wake up next to you. But it is only a ghost i had created in order to replace you. i hoped i would find you in my dreams. i did, but you were not dreaming of me. And they say that when you dream about someone it's because they fell asleep thinking of you. i highly doubt that is true, And i don't dream during the night, much less about you. i wish you would talk to me. A half of my life says that i can't trust you, because they are afraid that you will hurt me. And the other portion of my life tells me to take chances now, or i won't have stories to tell to my children, or my children's children. And if i can't reach you then i know that i am nothing more than a fragment of a broken star that is not part of your constellations. Because i am too far away for you to see or care about. And I hope that someday i will be part of someone's world. Close enough to see so they miss me when i am gone. But if that never happens then i will fade out rather than burn away. Having nothing to give, i will leave no trace.

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This nebulous life is like a puzzle dissipated, When you can't comprehend what's real, fake, clear, or faded. Clueless, mystified, seeking inspiration, Meaningless alliteration, Inadequate concentration, Diligence and dedication, What I need is a vacation.

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Aug 16, 2015

Aug 16, 2015 at 6:49 PM UTC

gita-devi

Nebulous Life

This nebulous life is like a puzzle dissipated, When you can't comprehend what's real, fake, clear, or faded. Clueless, mystified, seeking inspiration, Meaningless alliteration, Inadequate concentration, Diligence and dedication, What I need is a vacation.

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