#nathaniel
It's like a leech
It clings to every memory I own, it infiltrates all my senses
I see his face everywhere in the faces of strangers
I hear his final words to me through the sigh he gave as I told him I wished we could have worked, that he should keep me in mind should he change his
I smell him every time I sit at my piano and think of the times we spent poring over Faure and wishing the recital were over
I touch him every time the white keys glide under my skin and the black ones poke my fingers into submission
I taste him on the tip of my tongue as I try in vain to forget the past
He was my train wreck and thinking of him makes me hate myself, what he hated, what he told me he wanted and then told me he would never want in a million years.
So I pushed him to the back of my head,
But his afterlove
Just clings
To my heart
Instead.
Jan 9, 2016
Jan 9, 2016 at 7:03 PM UTC
Looking up to my life. Seen only your image
Searching my heart,
Seen only Your image and name,my Nat
Then I know you are my true love in life
Each day,I fight to stop seen you but you kept on making ways into my life and heart
And I love you so much
Every day you're in my heart.
With me to stay
You are my best friend in life,
Best love I ever felt
My best companion and adventure half
And one day the father of my children.
I see us growing old together.
Having a bright future forever.
Becoming a life legends
Hand in hand we go watching the sunset
And in the glow of your bright eyes.
Watching myself laughing in your pupils
And your special smile killing me softly.
My gorgeous sweetheart
I know that I have found my perfect soulmate in you Because I love you so much
Even when you're this far
Your love is New in my heart everyday.
And there's a special place for you and me.
Together in my heart we'll be..
Till Eternity!
Oct 3, 2020
Oct 3, 2020 at 1:19 AM UTC
To what extent will wonders cease?
They fail to bloom, fail to please.
When I have folded every last crease,
He’ll be flown like a flock of geese.
He sees not tears in these brown eyes,
Feels no sorrow for our goodbyes.
I fear he’ll someday break our ties,
And leave naught but deceit and lies.
Who can tell why loves goes away,
Why yesterday is not today?
Who wants to live that darkening day
When for our lives, the price we’ll pay?
We have just hit a milestone-
I gave a secret of my own.
To you, from my lips it has flown
To be read in your baritone.
Your voice is music to my ears
Through the silence, through all my tears-
You’re the sole my conciousness hears
As the time that we reunite nears.
I wonder what will happen then-
Will we kiss? Or be apart again?
I guess I’ll just have to pretend
That no love there will be there to defend.
His eyes block out all that is wrong,
Brown irises sing their own song.
A song of love, forever long,
That shows his heart, where I belong.
But yet, he says there is someone,
Who he does love more than the sun.
I thought that I had finally won
But yet my work has only begun…
And now my heart in hell does burn.
It seems that I shall never learn.
I watch couples kiss at the stearn
And know that now, it’s not my turn.
I hear him laugh, I watch him smile,
They make me wish he’d stay awhile.
Instead, I choke down bile
And watch my tears fall onto cracked tile.
Nothing is broken, Nothing whole;
The price of love’s a heavy toll.
It takes your all, leaves you a troll
To go home crying to your dark knoll.
Jan 4, 2016
Jan 4, 2016 at 9:50 AM UTC
RAINBOW WITHOUT COLORS
A beautiful Angel from above
And his smile is so bright
His eyes are full of love
He fits perfectly in my heart
My heart were made to hold him
And I was made to love you
He's truly beautiful an Angel from above
His warm kisses are from heaven
And he's safe in my heart
And sheltered inside my heart
Smiling with me every day
Every day spent with him
Is the best part of my life
He always make me feel like a woman
Because I love you my beautiful hubby
And sweetheart,
Me without him in my life is like
The sky without stars
Your face without your beautiful smile
Or a rainbow without colors
And sweetheart may our days be filled
With forever happiness and joy
Because every day is a dream come true
Because sweetheart I'm
Forever in love with you..
Apr 26, 2023
Apr 26, 2023 at 2:16 AM UTC
All night long,I have been searching for the way to talk to you.
All I have here is our memoties of the past.
Which is making me traced the past back to where I ever wronged you.
I am realizing each and every day my hellish mistakes of insecurities and fear.
I got to appreciate you for the love you ever showed me for 12 years without losing hope.
I got to accept it if you chose to marry your business.
I also love you more because I know and feel it that I am the ONLY one on your mind still even when you don't pick my calls or reply my message.
I still have that Confidence that if we are made for each other, you will come back to me full of health,life and money.
You are far from me but so close to my ❤️. And I will forever love you.
Jul 22, 2020
Jul 22, 2020 at 8:31 PM UTC
I Know you're the one for me.
I also know you're somebody else's guy now.
But this feeling which I can't hide 'cos I feel that you are not even happy since we departed.
How good it can be to be with you again? I have come across many men after our journey together. In the true meaning of friendship,many do not qualify to be called FRIENDS. But in your own case,if there is a thing as a perfect friend or love,it would have to be YOU. Kind, generous, affectionate, courageous, very Frank and reliable.
You are someone very special and in case you didn't know our love and friendship means much more to me than the world could ever say.
Thanks for being part of me,my life and my world. I wish the universe grant us more one chance. I will forever choose YOU,MYNAT
Apr 13, 2020
Apr 13, 2020 at 10:31 AM UTC
Thump,like ancient drumbeat of a group.
Singing of love
Beating out a caudence of desire.
Thump,like the fall of a ripe fruit,
Feeding the bees,
Cascading like the water of fall
Thump,like the beat of my heart
Pulling string of hope
Letting me know that still I can touch your heart,your soul
Telling you that I am still here
Waiting for you
That I will patiently wait.
Apr 17, 2020
Apr 17, 2020 at 3:21 AM UTC