#mypen
I’m not ok
And I’m done letting that break my heart.
I’m going to forgive myself first this time.
I’m not going to add my disappointment to my situation.
I don’t want to add lightning to dark skies anymore.
And some days it’s ok to put makeup over it and dance.
And I will not let anyone make me feel bad about it.
About being pretty and broken.
About having a big heart but not enough to keep the beating steady.
About wanting your lips as clean up of this mess.
And your hands for grounding.
For needing the sun and coffee just as much as the moon and my pen.
About smiling and breaking at the same time.
About breathing and coming back together at the hands of myself again.
Jul 8, 2019
Jul 8, 2019 at 12:22 PM UTC
You are the one who loves me most.
You are my heart and my heart beat.
You are the soul whom I loved most.
You are the one who won my heart.
Babe I'm gonna stop everything.
Bcoz I'm not satisfied.
But I'll begin on another.
May be this is my last poem or
The last day of my creative life.
I can't continue anymore.
I'm depressed
Baby hold my hands forever.
Bcoz I don't wanna loose you
Hold me. I don't wanna miss you...
Nov 26, 2018
Nov 26, 2018 at 11:05 AM UTC
With my pen I try to slay the demons
I am determined to chase them from my eden
With the inky darkness I will paint my picture
I will paint them with such stricture
My words will flow
And everyone I'll show
They will no longer be allowed to reside
Hidden deep inside
With the darkness of my ink
I will bring them to the brink
With the black flow, I'll shine the light
On their hideous form, no longer hiding in the night
Apr 20, 2016
Apr 20, 2016 at 2:28 PM UTC
Hugging my soft pillow
As I gather my lost shattered thoughts
I reach for my pen
My best friend.. My old fellow
How much I turn to you my pen? !
Cause you're the only one
who knows me deeply from within
You're always there for me
through thick & thin!
And when I was only ten
you were patient with my silly childish dreams
Like dreaming of being a princess in a legend!
Or becoming a beautiful queen!
You were patient enough with my wierd stupid questions
Like why the sky is blue & not green? !
And when I turned 18
Still I'm holding on you
I'm still so keen
For you're the truest friend I've ever seen!
You slways listen & listen & listen
When no one else seams to be there
You're always there
When all other people just don't care
And my most special thoughts
with me you share
Even the hard feelings
You make me spit it all out of my chest
You take that burdden
And make me always relax & rest
I turn to you
When I'm so weak
For you're the only one who understands me
When I really feeL like I can't speak
You're the only one
Who could read my speechless mind
I turn to you
When all the world is against me and not on my side
You know my every secret
For with you there is nothing to hide
Cause I know my secrets you won't reveal
You put my feelings into words
For you know what I exactly feel
You help me to be what I want
You always encourage me
You never tell me ' YOU CAN'T '
I dreamed to be a poet
And on this moment
I want to thank you
For you're the one
Who let me notice my talent!
Jun 22, 2015
Jun 22, 2015 at 11:09 AM UTC