#myfault
my chest tightens
and my mind races
I overthink every interaction
and where it all went wrong
maybe I'm reading too much
into it
or maybe you're distant
and it's my fault
I never wanted to rush you
and now
I've lost you
May 27, 2025
May 27, 2025 at 6:30 PM UTC
I used to ask all the time
What you wanted me to do
But I finally figured out the truth
It was me not you
'Cuz instead of falling in love with you
I fell in love with the lies
It wasn't what you did I loved
I loved that
you said you'd try
I fell for your words of promise
I overlooked your lack of action
And then I would get mad at you
for my dissatisfaction
But really what the problem was
the thing I couldn't see
Was I fell in love with your words
Not your reality.
Sep 16, 2024
Sep 16, 2024 at 8:32 PM UTC
After all the dust has settled I often ask myself why wasn't I enough for you to stay.
Why wasn't it enough for an explanation of you leaving without a week's notice, and now all i feel is used and discarded.
Like it was somehow my fault for your silent resignation and how I wasn't even worth a goodbye.
Oct 3, 2022
Oct 3, 2022 at 11:14 AM UTC
Ive made many mistakes
But this is the one
for which i harbor the most hate
She was there right in front of me
The one i was destined to meet by fate
I let her go; no... i drove her away
Wrapped up in my own shelfish
self perpetuating ways
Shes out there i know. and i pray shes okay
But in the world shes in; its just a matter of counting days
Mar 20, 2022
Mar 20, 2022 at 6:41 PM UTC
"your words cut deeper than a knife"
they truly do...
lies slip out of your mouth easier than telling the truth
months of telling you my personal business
all for it to backfire on me
I let my walls down
I guess that is my fault
Dec 29, 2021
Dec 29, 2021 at 7:05 PM UTC
Does my skirt provoke you?
Are you scarred by my top?
Does the length and depth define me,
Could I do a better job?
Am I made by what I wear?
An outfit I compose
The paint I layer on my face
The cut of my clothes.
You say I have no self control,
No power of restraint,
You place me in a little box
A student with a male teacher or peer.
It’s her fault he could not.
Hold himself away from her
Chain himself to the chair
labelling her his object
Instead of averting his stare
I’m not defined by cloth it’s purpose is warmth
Nor the body underneath
It is me and my intelligence
Does my existence provoke you
Fill you with disgust
Because my ability to choose
Is simply not good enough
For the standards you set me
The body I must have,
To be considered ‘pretty’
To be considered ‘bad’
My skirt can not be to short
My shirt not to deep
Because a low neckline
Will prevent my ability to speak
Does my happiness provoke you
My confidence in who I am
Because it’s taken a long time
To love myself
Jun 3, 2021
Jun 3, 2021 at 1:36 PM UTC
"Go away"
I beg you to stay.
"It's your fault!"
I'm the one to blame.
"I'll replace you!"
I can't go on without you.
"I hate you!"
I love you.
Dec 6, 2018
Dec 6, 2018 at 2:11 AM UTC
I will never trust again
Because trust inevitably leads to pain,
Which leads to tears,
Which leads to mistakes,
Which leads to hurt
Better to live a life devoid of love
Than to hurt this deeply again.
Dec 5, 2018
Dec 5, 2018 at 11:02 PM UTC
It has been a while
Since that time.
You know.
That night.
My first date
And that carnival ride.
Yeah,
I'm terrified.
Tell me how you managed it,
How you remember it.
Because young sir,
I highly doubt it is the same as I.
Or do you wake up screaming too?
Because I do.
Never forgetting
Always blaming myself
For something I had no control over.
Did you enjoy my innocence?
Because I wish I could have it back.
That you hadn't done what you had
That I didn't have to see your heart of black.
It still hurts down there.
That place.
You were inside of me before I could say a single thing.
Before I could even say "No"
You make me sick.
So sick that I wanna bleed.
But everyone knows now
And trying to keep me sane.
I had told you that I was saving myself
But all you could say,
"Please Baby, Please!
I love you so much!
Just give me this much!"
Didn't know what to do,
I just freeze.
What am I suppose to say
What do I do now?
Do I talk to my mother and father
Face that judgement
Or do I block it all away with a smile
What do I do
What do I do
What do I do now?!
What the hell am I suppose to do now?!
You hurt me!
You broke me!
I'll never forget!
Pray to a God I no longer trust?!
You both were suppose to protect me and look at me NOW!
I'm ******* bleeding from my wrists!
I have no remorse.
I can't ******* sleep no more
Can't even hug my father.
What am I gonna do now...?!
Nov 10, 2018
Nov 10, 2018 at 11:34 PM UTC
What if I could have stopped
You?
What if I told you that I loved
You?
What if it was my fault?
What if it was an accident?
What if you were so depressed
That even just Getting out of bed seemed too overwhelming?
What if it was something someone
Said?
What if I had picked up the
Phone?
What if it didn’t work?
What if I’m not the only one
Feeling this guilt?
Tell me love...
Why
Why did you **** your self?
Jul 14, 2018
Jul 14, 2018 at 4:11 PM UTC
Nung ika'y aking nakita,
pakiramdam para sayo ay wala,
Ngunit di nagtagal,
Naglaro si kupido at tadhana.
Pinana ng pana ni kupido
at binaluktot ni tadhana
landas nating dalawa
Isang araw, nakita kita sa isang tabi,
ika'y nilapitan at pinangiti,
Hnaggang isang gabi,
Puso'y di mapigilan, sinigaw sayo
Mahal kita, aking sinta!
Nung naging tayo.
Walang umangal ng kung ano,
Hanggang sa dumating ang araw na
tayo'y pinaglayo.
Hindi kinaya ang pagkukulang,
kaya winakasan,
sapagkat sandata ng kalawakan,
oras at distansiya ating kinakalaban.
Bakit kailangan ganito?
Pero anu pa bang magagawa ko?
Huli na lahat, para ipaglaban ko,
pag-ibig na binalewala ko.
Kasalanan ko,
Pagdurusang dinaranas ko.
Dec 6, 2017
Dec 6, 2017 at 4:34 AM UTC
Write 10 negative things about myself. Here they are:
1. I am fat.
2. I self-harm.
3.Stupid.
4.never learn.
5.everything is always my fault.
6.I am a bad person.
7.I am worthless.
8. I am a *****
9. I'm a *****
10. No one will ever love me.
Jan 31, 2017
Jan 31, 2017 at 9:52 AM UTC
Me:
Is it all my fault?
The way I feel?
Monsters:
Of course, you are sensitive, stupid, and naive.
You are making it worse and worse.
It's all your fault. Every last bit.
Jan 20, 2017
Jan 20, 2017 at 9:35 PM UTC
Life doesn't hurt until you think about how things have changed, people you've lost, and how much of it was
.....Your fault....
Jan 20, 2017
Jan 20, 2017 at 9:30 PM UTC
This
My Fault
This
I felt your light upon my
Chest
With melting Streams
And Rivers
I did Fear
Oceans of Goodness
So Intense
No Thought of Myself
Could I Take
No other could be Greater
For This
I am Alive
Blameless Life
I'm Sorry.
Jul 24, 2016
Jul 24, 2016 at 6:22 PM UTC
It's my fault that everything is wrong and falling apart it's my fault everyone is fighting and not getting along ....it's my fault
Jul 11, 2016
Jul 11, 2016 at 4:38 PM UTC
im not really fine
and im sorry
and i almost did something
and i don't regret it
im sorry
ive caused so much pain
its all my fault
im sorry
im so sorry
Mar 12, 2015
Mar 12, 2015 at 8:39 PM UTC
I told you this would happen;
I would hurt you and you would be empty,
I warned you I was a **** up,
But you thought you could fill me whole again;
So the first time I pushed you, and
Took my problems out on You,
You bandaged your wounds
and smiled like it didn't hurt;
The second time was different.
You yelled and hit and pushed and cried
back at my knife
Digging into your heart.
And with every screaming fight and boxing match would cut
A new hole into your heart,
Letting it bleed out all emotions. To become unattached
Like I already was;
And when you were finally through;
When everything I was to you became worthless,
I could feel your frigid insides;
As numb drifted through your veins,
And every part of you became empty as you drifted away;
By the time you had the courage to leave me,
A new scar had formed over your wounds
That will never fully heal;
And your broken heart will just be
a reminder,
That you can never love some one that
Cannot feel;
I told you this would happen;
I warned you never to get close,
Because now you'll be like me;
Empty
Feb 21, 2015
Feb 21, 2015 at 12:59 AM UTC
hahaha
silly girl
silly girl
what are you doing
this is all a dream
no matter
no matter
there will always be blood
in the street
on your hands
you think behind closed doors
you're invisible
but no
you're not
you're just behind a door
they'll open it and
see you
they will see you
but it's a dream
because you don't matter
why did you collect it all
pooling around their vacant bodies
you paint the white walls
the same thing
each time
you paint a rose
but the rose never stays
it runs red
with the blood you use
because the greatest lie
is that you're in a dream
when you are the nightmare
Jan 2, 2015
Jan 2, 2015 at 12:22 AM UTC
Don't tell me to stop apologizing when everything is my fault.
*everything is my fault
everything is my fault
everything is my fault
everything is my fault
everything is my fault*
Dec 17, 2014
Dec 17, 2014 at 5:35 AM UTC
#1
It was a past heart ache, and that alone
Set fire to the stake.
On it, a thief in very subtle attire
Two mouths and dressed in smoke,
It may hide its face, inviting my derision
But in allusion and courageous gaze
I knew it was me up there.
#2
Watching and waiting as he did
Before the crime, Time
Told him what was to come;
Still he stole, in misery, the hollowness, giving affection to an excision
(And then he was a saint)
So to faint in throes of his pining ways, bringing this judge
To bitter dismay
And a biting northern frost.
#3
And now I blame him, the othered me,
Condemning with a dissonant grin,
Satisfied, silent and quick to cry
From killing chunks of flesh born out of puppy-dog kid-stuff
Deciding each time:
Enough is never enough is never enough and whine when it is true.
It’s not a thief but ghouls of absolution:
I am the thief
Exist solely as this motif
And alief
It’s the heart that loves in all its strands
Sufficed to ****** innocent, then wash it of my hands
Each time I ignore that anguish
Ushers me on.
May 5, 2014
May 5, 2014 at 12:47 AM UTC