#mydiary
Struggling with the reality that everything will fall in place
Struggling with peace that I created even though I wasn't in place.
Struggling with a new habit that kept me afloat but draining all of me now
Struggling with how sentiments can change how people question me now.
Struggling with the friend that calls my phone just to check on my progress
Struggling with the replies lined up on my phone I really need to check the progress.
Struggling with dropping the ideas I believe can have an impact on the future
Still struggling with the questions hope it doesn't become an habit on my future.
Feb 21, 2020
Feb 21, 2020 at 10:11 PM UTC
Tapping my feet each day never minding the restrictions that shields my direction
Dancing to the melody in my head shaking my body in full joy hoping to find a new direction.
Unboxing each puzzle that stay stuck in my head trying to level the mystery in my head
A little bit of fresh air as I take deep breath trying to clear all the problems in my head.
Reminiscing on my past mistakes ticking out the lessons I learnt in regret
Finding my rhythm doesn't mean I won't stop grinding as I stare back at my old possibilities with no ounce of regret.
Sep 10, 2020
Sep 10, 2020 at 11:12 PM UTC
How do you spice things up when your mind is fully awake ready to sail any way
Do you live your life daily for the glits and glamour until it cease or fades away.
Understanding the reason for your existence is Paramount to how you live your life
Step by step illusion is a new lens to reflect back on yourself and change your view about life.
Each day is an opportunity to shape a new existence that we slowly created in our mind
But with all the pain and suffering who would think the pictures would appear clearly even in our mind.
Kicking off all the distractions finding its way trying to envelope the new me
Still holding to my deathbed mentality I wouldn't become sane until I was face to face with the new me.
Jul 12, 2020
Jul 12, 2020 at 7:40 AM UTC
Learn to grow out of situations that life has a way of throwing right in front of you
A blurred line already shooting through nothing seems to be in place either way.
The temporary feel of pain having it's way would just show you towards a better you
As soon as the fate we learnt to have upon ourselves come out and begin to play.
Fighting and overcoming life predicaments is a mind game and we all have the key
So once pre planned moments start going sideways learn to check the good side.
A little bit of happiness is what we would shed through us to just make us free
A lot is going on when you look from a brighter perspective and look the other side.
Jul 19, 2020
Jul 19, 2020 at 4:55 PM UTC
Unsatisfied by the recent decisions made by those above them
So scared to talk or even voice out against those above them.
Sitting hungry in silence letting the dictator dictate their fate
Not minding how their life is on a pause so they could seal their fate.
Too much silence enveloping our mind even our fears is starting to stand out
Why do we keep grumbling when our voice could actually make us stand out.
The face of society isn't who we are but how we fight against what we want
The fate of the grumbling crowd I wouldn't have a chance to see if they get what they want.
May 19, 2020
May 19, 2020 at 12:38 PM UTC
Stained souls with the hearts full of poisonous words,
once found on the large tilted ground of remnants;
Thoughtless minds! throbbing and thrusting others,
Trying to ascend but falling deep into the ditch they dug,
the darkest place where there buried fears were at peak.
Feb 15, 2018
Feb 15, 2018 at 11:58 AM UTC
Steady pushing the bad wagons in my life out making sure they stay out this time
Why will I endure all this disasters and still conquer and you think you can waste my time.
The only reason I choose myself everytime out of a million people isn't strange to me
Just imagine the stare I give out to people that claim they are closest to me.
I am bound to make mistakes don't hate on what I admit myself and claim you are perfect
Still on a lone road as I administer my success pill just to make me perfect.
A lot of stages in my life that I wouldn't change not even for a minute of regret
The isolated accident that I found myself in again I wouldn't change the life I regret.
May 20, 2020
May 20, 2020 at 11:58 PM UTC
How do you describe that feeling, when your device keeps blowing up.
Deep down you have one eye glued to your goals, but society won't let you stay up.
The illusion that we need to satisfy all the energy, that comes our way is never enough.
Times are changing so get your priorities right, people tend to channel their pain, though you until you've had enough.
The only thing shielding you from achieving a whole lot more, is how you spend time with yourself.
But a whole lot of people that don't understand this principle, creep up on you, when you have time for yourself.
Decision making time how would you achieve the impossible, when you are shielding your own growth
"A stitch in time saves nine" is very crucial so learn to stay foused on your growth.
Jul 1, 2020
Jul 1, 2020 at 7:52 AM UTC
Steadily on a conscious pace aiming for the best view in the world
All I see is moving vehicles and people only when you place yourself in the middle of the world.
I am lost in the middle of the scenario i created In my head
On the look out for new adventures that I can put into writing from my head.
Moving the bricks and I slowly realize I am in the midst of my greatest treasure
My window view is the story of how I feel when I choose to embrace my best treasure.
May 15, 2020
May 15, 2020 at 4:24 AM UTC
Another life lost in the slum is nothing new to those who can relate
But the hidden mystery behind this new corpse left people more than they could relate.
Two slugs were pulled out while he was lieing behind his back has he lay lifeless
Cold hands of death snatching another innocent life turning him lifeless.
Tired of saying this same stories I wouldn't be the one behind the camera next
Life in the slums isn't what you picture you never know who appears on the camera next.
Two slugs is a new slogan as soon as another body is seen on the floor fighting for his last breathe
As we secure what was left behind the little memories was just wondering about how he lost his breathe.
May 9, 2020
May 9, 2020 at 11:21 PM UTC
Regardless to say we all need hope to live a life we truly deserve
But taking a sneak peak outside I realise the smell of fear as I observe.
Not minding the unnecessary noise or the panicking crowd I try and focus
But in reality I am just like everyone else I really need to learn than I focus.
A new phase coming up regardless of whether we facing it or not
Our life is about to change after this long pause are you betting on it or not.
The mornings are becoming longer than expected I really need a new hobby
As soon as I check to see the light I realise it
Is still dark outside from the lobby.
May 6, 2020
May 6, 2020 at 8:28 AM UTC
Steady on the grind I would let the success make the loud noise
As soon as you see me running clear the path so I wouldn't make a loud noise.
On my road to success but the quiet mode activated I don't need an audience
Jotting down the ideas then making sure I pick the one to show the audience.
This late nights is taking a toll on me I really need to get my mind right
Heavy silence enveloping my mind as soon as I start to get it right.
Dosing off during the daytime even the long walks isn't possible anymore
But I am still working in silence I don't want my story to make the news anymore.
May 16, 2020
May 16, 2020 at 12:20 AM UTC
Always painting a new picture about how the future will look so fancy
Promises flying here and there still hopeful I would live a life so fancy.
Then the reality struck like a thief in the night I had to leave with no shirts on
Tears finding it's way down my cheeks as I stare at the life I would venture on.
The life I imagined is only few feets away but the reach is never within my grasp
Waiting for the phone call that would just make my reality come within my grasp.
Then a silent voice whispered into my confused head letting me know what I faced
No golden ticket was printed or expected you have to gear towards the reality you faced.
May 4, 2020
May 4, 2020 at 3:48 PM UTC
What exactly are you fighting for in your life I keep asking
Because the pain that you are yearning for is asking.
The turn you are afraid to take is already been plied by another
Don't let the defeat in your head make you envy another.
The fight is against you when you stare at the mirror you can understand
Getting back up is like a jolly ride you only enjoy it when you board it
The world deserves a better fighter you won't know until you become it.
Feb 12, 2020
Feb 12, 2020 at 5:01 AM UTC
The city that growls in laughter and merriment suddenly becomes silent
A ghost town is what it is called now the people slowly becoming silent.
Gidi state of mind is what my city is called but the hustle stay silent nothing is in sight
A pandemic is what we heard was coming but the real suffering is in sight.
Tired of living so many suicide thoughts already enveloping the mind of a believer
Another day another drama I won't lie the pain can be felt by a true believer.
The silent city was once loud nothing could shake what we believe in
But persistence is key I choose to imagine a new reality we all believe in.
Apr 14, 2020
Apr 14, 2020 at 10:12 AM UTC
What would you gamble for your own very life to continue to exist
Is it the lack of joy you clearly fail to observe even as you continue to exist.
Or the conviction that things won't allign until you stop wishing
A lone attitude about what could possibly go wrong still wishing.
A nice way to speak more to your self but it won't create any result
Onlookers already judgmental some even gave you a fail score as a result.
A safe prediction won't fully be in place if you don't stop wishing and act now.
Mar 29, 2020
Mar 29, 2020 at 10:00 PM UTC
Sensing the huge wall built behind the mind of who is in pain
The only solution offered will be a therapy as quiet as the one in pain.
Slowly using words to pick out the emotions stored inside the hidden mind
Another quick therapy I don't know how to fix the depressed mind.
On a new discovery on how silence can change the way people perceive themselves
Back to the Quiet therapy for those who are tired of running away from themselves.
May 1, 2020
May 1, 2020 at 7:53 AM UTC
Jogging through my mind i am already creating a new fear
Holding on to what goes through my mind I won't hold on to the fear
Not knowing what to do begs a question who gets the fear
But a new direction is on it's way I bet the next person won't lose his fears
Imagining certain outcomes in my head I believe it's helping to conquer my fears
Need to break down my fears I really need to change what I perceive.
But the key to overcoming fear has not spilled itself out until I change what I perceive.
Apr 30, 2020
Apr 30, 2020 at 12:50 AM UTC
Who else has seen the men in Black
Heart and face painted like they are in charge.
We all know who bark the orders out from the back
But don't blame the system blame the man in Black
I want a reality where you will see a all white system
Where men would usher you into their car no matter the crimes committed
But all I see is killings and suffering for my people
I am not an activist I am just learning to speak for my people.
Don't just be the change learn to stand for your people
Men in black in this picture will only do more harm than good to my people
Apr 20, 2020
Apr 20, 2020 at 2:34 PM UTC
Toiling day and night you can feel the pain beneath my feet
Joyfully sometimes but the continuous stares make my check beneath my feet.
Wires surrounding me I didn't realize I was building myself a cage
Hard to break open I didn't realise I would need a key for my cage.
Brain washed into believing I had a job but deep down I was wasting away
Even my youthfulness that I possessed had changed and the old face is staring my way.
I can't turn back the hands of time as I sat down mending my cage
Blood dripping down my wrist as I still realise I am stucked in a cage.
A short letter to my younger self never belief everything you think
Following the crowd made me believe I was building a future until I had nothing to think.
Apr 26, 2020
Apr 26, 2020 at 7:13 AM UTC
The period when everyone is advised to quench their taste the best way
The lieing time when people walk around hoping you get back on the right way.
The undecisive period you have to choose between society and you thinking the right way.
Everytime the ideas start trolling in you advise yourself to go to sleep
Anxious readers hoping on a drop but you let the ideas go to sleep.
Believing that a new one is underway so you clear your head of the old ones
The fallow period happens once in a while I can imagine their reaction when they listen to the new ones.
Mar 15, 2020
Mar 15, 2020 at 11:52 PM UTC
Drowning myself in another bottle strictly for the pain
Tired of staring at the droplets hoping to quench the pain.
Another shot for my misery I totally need to drench my pain
Not relenting I really think I need another shot for the pain
But I am sure the broken bottles won't solve the pain.
But I am still draining myself soul into opening this new bottle
A bottle for the pain I really need to stop holding all this bottles.
May 2, 2020
May 2, 2020 at 8:22 PM UTC
The vision of how a modern day poet is viewed
I can imagine you all bringing your pen out the view.
Don't be discouraged by the content of my messages don't be misinformed
Little bit of expression on my end I already sound like am misinformed.
Don't forget that I gave an interesting poem just now
Never relate with the new information I just acquired just now.
Back on the scribbling brick I really need a new desire
Modern day poet I won't stop until I miss the desire.
Feb 19, 2020
Feb 19, 2020 at 1:33 PM UTC
Mouth blocked unable to make a point this time around
The flier is quite clear all listeners should stick to the law this time around.
A new law is in town you need to shut it if you don't have something good to say
We are all tired of the same noise when you don't have something positive to say.
A new information out in the clear but my humble silence bringing me to a halt
The stubborn silence am observing is picking all important news to a halt.
Apr 10, 2020
Apr 10, 2020 at 12:20 PM UTC
Still passing by looking at what many thought was a possible dream to come by
There it was lieing in waste like I didn't stumble before I came by.
Now the situation is changed I need to pick those crumbled dreams and bring it back
But someone is holding me back I guess I need to push past what is holding me back
Needless to say I deserve to get what I dropped before it haunts me back.
A new direction I think I need to empty all I have in my penny bank
Just discovered someone else beat me to it don't mess with my idea bank.
The ultimate dreams hanging in the Shelf is about to be tapped get ready for a change.
My dreams still stucked in the shelf I might need a new direction before I look forward and change.
Apr 24, 2020
Apr 24, 2020 at 11:16 PM UTC