#mydemons
My demons and I
We go way back
When I was utterly alone
They were there
To criticise me
To torture me
To feed my insecurities
And my worst impulses
But they also protected me
Consoled and soothed me
And accepted me at my worst
For most of my life
They were my only companion
And they stuck with me
When things got tough
That is why it is hard
To leave them behind
And make room
For a new chapter in my life
For a chance at something better
Mar 20, 2021
Mar 20, 2021 at 11:05 PM UTC
I'm sick of the nausea
Tired of the insomnia
Any second I could freak out again
Panting, screaming, apologizing, weeping
I'm scared of myself more than anything else
Manic attacks of sudden ******* panic
I care too much or I don't care enough
I beg my angels to let me give up
Aug 15, 2020
Aug 15, 2020 at 6:30 PM UTC