#motherrelationship
You had the flu last year.
You didn't know it then, but I stuck by your side.
You still don't recall it now.
Lifting tissues to your mouth, I lightly tapped your back.
Brewing fresh soup, I held an encouraging spoon to your lips.
I was never around after that.
I became someone you no longer knew,
A person you didn't want to know.
I was trapped in the tight grasp of your delusion.
Despite your hesitance, I would have stayed.
Had you not made it clear,
I would have offered a movie night,
I would have offered an extra blanket,
I would have done so much.
I've moved on with my life, I have an apartment.
But the frames hung across my walls tell whispers of our adventures.
And my secret soup recipe smells of you.
I still sometimes doubt myself, my conclusions.
I caught the flu last week.
As I blew my nose, and shakily nursed myself,
I thought about how little I helped you.
How much more I could have done.
When I returned to work today, I stared at myself in the mirror.
We have the same nose, similar eyebrows.
But my eyes had never held the same warmth as yours.
Distraught, I realised you will always be a part of me.
I will never escape your cold embrace.
I didn't choose you.
Oct 24, 2025
Oct 24, 2025 at 7:01 PM UTC
Happy Mother’s Day to the person who’s always with me
To the one who helped me become the person I’m today
To the one who taught me to treat others how I treat myself
Happy Mother’s Day to the person whose approval I craved
To the one who helped me understand that nobody will ever care for me
To the one who taught me that I’m a piece of garbage myself
Happy Mother’s Day to the person whose laugh I was scared of
To the one who helped me know that I’m undeserving of love
To the one who taught me to hate the mirror image of myself
Happy Mother’s Day to the person whose voice haunts me
To the one who helped me avoid responsibility and criticism
To the one who taught me reasons why I should **** myself
Happy Mother’s Day to the person who made me scared of thinking
To the one who helped me breed hate in who fundamentally am
To the one who taught me that others will always be better than myself
Happy Mother’s Day to the person who made feel guilty of my depression
To the one who helped me find innovative ways to hurt me without a trail
To the one who taught me that everything wrong is a fault in myself
Happy Mother’s Day to the person who made me a mom to my siblings
To the one who helped me get rid of my carefree childhood joy
To the one who taught me that in life one can only care for themself
Happy Mother’s Day to the person who isolated me of the ones I loved
To the one who helps me know my worth in negative numbers
To the one who taught me jealousy and that I'm hers
Happy Mother’s Day to the person who fed me lies as facts
To the one who helped me befriend an ED princess
To the one who taught me that was the only way to be one
Happy Mother’s Day to the person who made me scared of accomplishing my dreams
To the one who helped me endure years of abuse and neglect as a mask for love
To the one who taught me that I could never be truly happy
Happy Mother's Day to the person who polluted the word mother for me
To the person who made me dread being a mother myself
To the person that I'm horrified of emulating and ******* other child's life up
Happy Mother's Day to my mom
May 10, 2020
May 10, 2020 at 10:11 PM UTC